Avoiding people is hard when you care about them and you know they care about you. I have some shit with me and a whole heap of hw to do and my boo just wants to spend time with me. And after our little riffs with eachother there's nothing more that I'd like to do than lay up with him on this rainy night in his new apartment or have him come see me or make dinner for him and watch movies .. yadda yadda.. all that mushy shit. But I can't and it's breaking my heart.
On the flip side though, I have to do what I have to do. He is graduating in Dec. and I'm not. I wish I was even graduating next year....but again, I'm not. So I have to take my Ls right now when it comes to the boo shit and make sure that my grades and what's going on with me is correct before I worry about someone else's time and emotions.
Honestly I have a history of letting relationships get the best of me and allowing a dude to consume my time so much so that I don't get my own shit done--when it comes to school work. I put things to the side and say I'll get back to them because I cherish the time that I spend with those that I care about. But this time I'm not putting my work on the back burner because the expense is mine, not his.
It's time for me to get back to my paper now. (5 page research paper on unemployment/welfare abuse in America)
Its also time for me to get back on my exercise grind. I sware I gained 5 pounds. YUCHHCHCHHCHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
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Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
truth is.
at
9:58 PM
No one likes to hear the truth these days. I don't understand what's the big fucking deal. I know everybody wants to think they're the shit all the damn time but at the end of the day you have to go home and face your own insecurities.
I like to surround myself with honest people who will tell me the truth. What's the point in having people in your life if they cant be honest with you? It's wack to be on your high horse all the fucking time like, 'damn you can take a step off the saddle sir/madam?!'
Having confidence, knowledge of self and REALISM that allows you to take heed to opinions about yourself and being able to translate it to a positive message so you can keep it moving.
Its a sad day in age when people are frauding (especially on the internet) and trying to be something that they're not because they're scared of the truth.
The truth exists. Some people will end up with a miserable life trying to hide from truths that are always chasing them and staring them dead in the face.
I like to surround myself with honest people who will tell me the truth. What's the point in having people in your life if they cant be honest with you? It's wack to be on your high horse all the fucking time like, 'damn you can take a step off the saddle sir/madam?!'
Having confidence, knowledge of self and REALISM that allows you to take heed to opinions about yourself and being able to translate it to a positive message so you can keep it moving.
Its a sad day in age when people are frauding (especially on the internet) and trying to be something that they're not because they're scared of the truth.
The truth exists. Some people will end up with a miserable life trying to hide from truths that are always chasing them and staring them dead in the face.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
i ain't doin nutttinnn.
at
1:14 AM
I rearranged my room but I am not taking pics until I actually clean it to it's master cleanness. I still have clothes alloverthefuckingplace. I actually need to buy more hangers because my wardrobe has surpassed my storage. It's starting to get ugly. I may donate soon but I doubt anyone will want my random shit.
I'm gonna wear my new LBD to the 4th of July party that I'm going too but I really want a pair of stars and stripes hooker shoes that I'm sure will be hard to find. I want them to look like this:

But in a non-MS paint sorta way, yanno?
But because this dress is tight as fuck I'm not trying to have any unnecessary curves so I've been no carbing for the past 3 days (except for not really because I had Chick-Fil-A today *kanye shrug*)
I've been trying to stay on point with everything lately so I can really keep myself focused. I start school next week and I'm looking for a new job as well.
Something I've been doing every morning is taking a tablespoon of olive oil every morning. It's supposed to speed your metabolism and do something else healthy. (Don't really remember the rest.)
I need to start praying more or establish a better sense of faith because I really feel like I'm slipping and I'm lucky to have the things that I have. I feel like I'm ungrateful because I don't thank God enough.
Kinda won't be smoking for a while because I'll prob have to take a few UA's if I'm looking to get a job. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! -___-
Gotta go, I need to paint my nails.
I'm gonna wear my new LBD to the 4th of July party that I'm going too but I really want a pair of stars and stripes hooker shoes that I'm sure will be hard to find. I want them to look like this:

But in a non-MS paint sorta way, yanno?
But because this dress is tight as fuck I'm not trying to have any unnecessary curves so I've been no carbing for the past 3 days (except for not really because I had Chick-Fil-A today *kanye shrug*)
I've been trying to stay on point with everything lately so I can really keep myself focused. I start school next week and I'm looking for a new job as well.
Something I've been doing every morning is taking a tablespoon of olive oil every morning. It's supposed to speed your metabolism and do something else healthy. (Don't really remember the rest.)
I need to start praying more or establish a better sense of faith because I really feel like I'm slipping and I'm lucky to have the things that I have. I feel like I'm ungrateful because I don't thank God enough.
Kinda won't be smoking for a while because I'll prob have to take a few UA's if I'm looking to get a job. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! -___-
Gotta go, I need to paint my nails.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
do right and kill everything.
at
11:30 PM
Drake is rly starting to get on my nerves with this Lil Kim shit. At first I brushed it off but I started thinking... really bruh, you have no street cred so fall back.
On the plus side, Miss Me is my shit and when I'm driving home from work you can catch me singing right along, BA-LEE DAT!
My one and only came over last night. I have not seen cakes since like May 25 so I was sooo happy. WE DID NOT FUCK. HE WILL NOT BE GETTING ANY UNTIL ALOT OF SHIT CHANGES. Which means I will be fucking with Dixie (my vib) for a good minute. Honestly I'm not off fucking with all, or any of these new dudes that have been pushing up. Although I love sex, I love my healthy kitty-cat even more so...
1. No, muthafuckin-bona, you will not be fine dining @ my expense.

2. No, P, no need in even taking that drive down here from Greensboro because you aint getting none!
3. No, Ant, the grill connect is all I'm interested in, you can move it right along after my teeth get fitted.
I will still allow niggas to take me out to dinner though. That is always A Go.
I have not had more than 5 hrs of sleep in the last week and that shit is really starting to catch up to me; my body has been ache-y and I have no energy throughout the day.
With that being said, I have to wake up before the birds tmrw and my bath is waiting for me. Later!
On the plus side, Miss Me is my shit and when I'm driving home from work you can catch me singing right along, BA-LEE DAT!
My one and only came over last night. I have not seen cakes since like May 25 so I was sooo happy. WE DID NOT FUCK. HE WILL NOT BE GETTING ANY UNTIL ALOT OF SHIT CHANGES. Which means I will be fucking with Dixie (my vib) for a good minute. Honestly I'm not off fucking with all, or any of these new dudes that have been pushing up. Although I love sex, I love my healthy kitty-cat even more so...
1. No, muthafuckin-bona, you will not be fine dining @ my expense.

2. No, P, no need in even taking that drive down here from Greensboro because you aint getting none!
3. No, Ant, the grill connect is all I'm interested in, you can move it right along after my teeth get fitted.
And so on...
I will still allow niggas to take me out to dinner though. That is always A Go.
I have not had more than 5 hrs of sleep in the last week and that shit is really starting to catch up to me; my body has been ache-y and I have no energy throughout the day.
With that being said, I have to wake up before the birds tmrw and my bath is waiting for me. Later!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
spring cleaning.
at
2:19 AM
I think I need to cleanse myself. I think I'm going to start doing things by the Old Farmer's Almanac and see if it works. *shrug*
Also it's time for things to get fun again, this rain is bringing everyone's mood down around here. I need to get to the strip club or something.
I bought a Hello Kitty cup today when I went food shopping.

I wore silk charmeuse despite the rain, because I didn't have time to change, which was a feat within itself. x_x
Me and boocakes are still me and boocakes - time to bring in some toys or something.
:)freebud.
I ate too many cupcakes today. I rarely eat sweets but I had a cupcake craving so I made some. I also had a sandwich and chips & dip bc I had the munchies. I'm gonna regret eating all that tmrw!
I really need to stop going to sleep so late now. I'm no good @ this anymore and it's starting to catch up with me.
Also it's time for things to get fun again, this rain is bringing everyone's mood down around here. I need to get to the strip club or something.
I bought a Hello Kitty cup today when I went food shopping.

I wore silk charmeuse despite the rain, because I didn't have time to change, which was a feat within itself. x_x
Me and boocakes are still me and boocakes - time to bring in some toys or something.
:)freebud.
I ate too many cupcakes today. I rarely eat sweets but I had a cupcake craving so I made some. I also had a sandwich and chips & dip bc I had the munchies. I'm gonna regret eating all that tmrw!
I really need to stop going to sleep so late now. I'm no good @ this anymore and it's starting to catch up with me.
My bday is coming up and all I can think about is doing the same shit I do every wknd: go out to eat, do a little shopping, come back home, puff a L, (if its a wknd) sip on something, play spades, get D-ed down, sleep in and watch tv on the couch the next morning. I'm not even into all that extra bidextra bday hype. I'm just trying to live good that day.
Plus my court date is the very next day so I'm prob. gonna celebrate only on Saturday anyways.
BOY-OH-BOY! Mo'money, mo'problems.
Plus my court date is the very next day so I'm prob. gonna celebrate only on Saturday anyways.
BOY-OH-BOY! Mo'money, mo'problems.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
here's the plan.
at
11:15 PM
With my new car goal quickly approaching and me blowing my savings every month on purchases @ the mall and online I need to make a rash decision that I may regret but I must follow through.
From now on (except for basics - tank tops and such, and shoes) I will be thrifting. I can no longer afford to be a wise saver and spend money like I do. As a result, my ever-long skirt collection will have to be expanded :) because I'm not really too enthused about sharing crotch material with someone else. So.. maybe I'll start to upload the pics of what I find because I'm really excited and that'll give me something to devote my summer to and help to get to my final goal (new carrrrr!) There's really nothing wrong with my car I just don't like it anymore and I want a new one.
Also, I want to try to stop watching as much tv and read a book every two weeks. I really don't watch much tv but everytime I do I feel like I'm not being productive. I'm trying to read books which contain subject matter that are relative to my major. It's So Much Work to Be Your Friend by Richard Lavoie is first on my list but I also want to read some more horror books like Son of Rosemary by Ira Levin.
That's it. I'm boring. I don't have anything else to talk about anymore.
From now on (except for basics - tank tops and such, and shoes) I will be thrifting. I can no longer afford to be a wise saver and spend money like I do. As a result, my ever-long skirt collection will have to be expanded :) because I'm not really too enthused about sharing crotch material with someone else. So.. maybe I'll start to upload the pics of what I find because I'm really excited and that'll give me something to devote my summer to and help to get to my final goal (new carrrrr!) There's really nothing wrong with my car I just don't like it anymore and I want a new one.
Also, I want to try to stop watching as much tv and read a book every two weeks. I really don't watch much tv but everytime I do I feel like I'm not being productive. I'm trying to read books which contain subject matter that are relative to my major. It's So Much Work to Be Your Friend by Richard Lavoie is first on my list but I also want to read some more horror books like Son of Rosemary by Ira Levin.
That's it. I'm boring. I don't have anything else to talk about anymore.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
OMG! MCQUEEN COMMITTED SUICIDED?
at
12:46 PM
You lyinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.............
RIP Alexander McQueen. Your innovation will be missed.

And now this will make the remaining pieces of his so much more expensive and out of my range because you know EVERYBODY becomes more famous after they die.
RIP Alexander McQueen. Your innovation will be missed.

And now this will make the remaining pieces of his so much more expensive and out of my range because you know EVERYBODY becomes more famous after they die.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
ahh.. a new year!
at
2:20 AM
Here we go! It is 2010 and I am ready for this year to be FTW.
I don't like to make resolutions so I don't have anything that I plan on doing this year that I didn't do last. As things progress I'll make the changes that I see fit but I'm not gonna make overall goals for a whole year. That's a pre-failed promise in my opinion.
I went on this party bus event to NY to bring in the new year with a few of my highschool friends & their friends from their schools. It was decent. It was just really crazy. Mad sleezy heffers, and arguments and fuckery was in place. It was just ridiculous. And I am not a friendly drunk. I'm belligerent and grumpy like hell. Waiting for an opportinity to cuss a nigga out. So I had to do that twice in order to put people back in their place. People were getting kicked off the bus and shit. But aside from all that extra the unltd. free liquor at my disposal, champagne toasts, and ripping bitches shit was well worth the $60 admission fee.
I'm at Grandmas. So far I've hit all of the points of people that I NEEDED to see except for my father's side of family, which I believe I'll be catching up with this wknd. Hopefully everything goes well. Even though I hate the ridiculous drive it is to get here, I don't think I'll be able to fly again without having a car. It's really annoying having to rely on others and it makes me feel like I'm not grown enough to do things whenever the fuck I want, which I clearly am.
I heard one of my roommates smoked weed while I was gone. Yes, the churchy one. That makes me laugh. And I'm mad I missed it. I heard she hated it though so... I bet she wasn't hitting that good-good. *kanye shrug*
I'm watching some shit called American Gangster and it's cool.
I don't think I'll be as up on my blogging and net surfing in a minute because I'm trying to rid some of my small distractions. So my posts will probably be more few and far between.
I'm trying to concentrate on making big moves this year so I gotta be as focused as possible. That means less free time.
But I do wanna make some changes for my blog in this year too so I'll try to make sure I make time for that.
Now let me get back to watching American Gangster.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
what if...
at
3:08 AM
If it's green and hairy, I will smoke it.
If it's funny and weird, I will love it.
If it's soft and cuddly, I will touch it.
If it's cool and sweet, I will drink it.
If it's flattering and tight, I will wear it.
If it's easy and fun, I will do it.
If it's dark and rich, I will taste it.
If it's fast and shiny, I will drive it.
If it's cute and clean, I will kiss it.
If it's meaningful and deep, I will read it.
If it's pink and sparkly, I will buy it.
If it's funny and weird, I will love it.
If it's soft and cuddly, I will touch it.
If it's cool and sweet, I will drink it.
If it's flattering and tight, I will wear it.
If it's easy and fun, I will do it.
If it's dark and rich, I will taste it.
If it's fast and shiny, I will drive it.
If it's cute and clean, I will kiss it.
If it's meaningful and deep, I will read it.
If it's pink and sparkly, I will buy it.
...just so ya know.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
20 pet peeves:
at
7:40 PM
A list of 20 things that I cannot fucking stand and will not put up with:
(Feel free to make your own list and comment if you do cuz I wanna read 'em)1. Fake Uggs. "It's not you, it's your shoes."
2. Slow drivers in the fast lane.
3. When people drop earrings and shit at my job, look at it, then look at me, then try to sneak away. BITCH?!
4. How the TV Guide channel goes through ALLL of the channels. Even the ones we don't have.
5. When my dutch has a crack in it.
6. When my roommate walks hard as hell. Idk if she has flat ass feet or what but her heels sound like they're made of bricks.
7. When people don't wipe their machines off at the gym.
8. When niggas you see everyday come out the woodworks at the end of the semester on facebook, talking about "I been seeing you around." No shit, Sherlock!
9. When my nail polish chips.
10. When my edges get poofy after I exercise. FUUUUUU!!!!!!
11. My mom calling me to say things that she can text me. ex. Liy, the Chinese food place in the shopping center next to me is gooood!
....umm, ok.
12. When I butt dial people on my Bb. It's always the most random people too or a random number like 3. I was on the phone with "3" for about 2 minutes the other day.
13. 30 Facebook notifications for a picture I commented on 2 years ago that two dickwads decide to have a conversation about now.
14. When I try to do something by a certain time and I finish like 6 minutes later.
15. When people idolize simple rappers *cough* Gucci *cough* but will say some underground shit is wack. Why, because you don't hear it 20x a day? Lyricism is an art and I scoff at people who "love hip-hop" but their favorite rappers are Drake and Max B. -_-
16. When my nipples get hard in public. It's just downright offensive.
17. How my roommates always make PLAIN, BOILED vegetables. Them shit's look like mushy and flavorless. At least add some Mrs. Dash!
18. When people yawn or cough in a confined space but don't cover their mouth. Yawning is like a long period of delivering your hot ass breath into the atmosphere, and coughing is germy - COVER YOUR FUCKING MOUTH!
19. When people try to use SAT words but they fuck up the context. ie. patronize, tenacious, ironic, exemplary, parsimonious, thespian etc.
20. When people feel like they have to make hand to hand contact with me in order to give me something at work. Money is already dirty enough I do not need your booger fingers and pretzel crumbs to go with it.
'Tis all.
Friday, December 4, 2009
you have been warned:
at
1:54 AM
Shit is about to get REALLL different around here.
(I'll expand on this topic later.)....now it's to the VIP. I got new moves to make.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
top drawer. ;]
at
10:58 PM
We all know what goes into the top drawer of our nightstand. When I was younger I never understood why my mom told me not to go into her nightstand drawer. And actually used to get pissed the fuck off when she told me not to go over there. That is until my little snoopy ass decided I wanted to be in the mix. Smh. What I saw disgusted me and it wasn't until I was about 14 or 15 that I understood what all that was about.
Here's some things that every female should have in their top drawer:


Women should always have their own condoms so there is never an excuse for raw meat. It's hard to get caught up when it all gets hot and heavy and then he doesn't have a condom and neither do you. Invest $12 in your personal health and your future ladies.



No contest.

If you have sex toys they should be clean. It's not hygienic to not use a toy cleaner and/or clean it regularly.
Or do this:
What do you have in your top drawer?
Here's some things that every female should have in their top drawer:
Magnums

Trojan Her Pleasure Condoms
Women should always have their own condoms so there is never an excuse for raw meat. It's hard to get caught up when it all gets hot and heavy and then he doesn't have a condom and neither do you. Invest $12 in your personal health and your future ladies.
A Bullet
A Regular Vibrator
Astroglide

No contest.
Toy Cleaner

If you have sex toys they should be clean. It's not hygienic to not use a toy cleaner and/or clean it regularly.
Or do this:
What do you have in your top drawer?
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
my well thought out xmas list:
at
1:08 AM
Email me and I will forward you my shipping information. Thank you in advance! :]
1. Nike Terminator - "Day and Night" - I don't get around the way I used to in sneakers. Nor do I typically deal with anything that's not an air max. But these shits with the straps + studs is doing something to me.

2. Palladio Lip Stain in Orchid - Best lip stain ever.

3. The rent and gas paid for a month. That'd be bananas.
4.Mimoco - Hello Kitty Balloon USB - So cutee!

5. Sally Hansen - Ionic-Ceramic Tourmaline Dryer -

6. A puppy from the shelter!
7. Sprint - HTC Hero - (I think)

8. A new weed grinder - Someone stole my old one, shitty potheads.

9. The Andy Warhol Diaries - After watching I Shot Andy Warhol and Factory Girl they just made him seem so strange and misunderstood and I love strange people.

10. 2010 Honda Accord Crosstour - This shit is fucking dope. The Infiniti G35 is my favorite car but if we are talking about new-new shit, this is my babyy!
1. Nike Terminator - "Day and Night" - I don't get around the way I used to in sneakers. Nor do I typically deal with anything that's not an air max. But these shits with the straps + studs is doing something to me.

2. Palladio Lip Stain in Orchid - Best lip stain ever.
3. The rent and gas paid for a month. That'd be bananas.
4.Mimoco - Hello Kitty Balloon USB - So cutee!

5. Sally Hansen - Ionic-Ceramic Tourmaline Dryer -

6. A puppy from the shelter!
7. Sprint - HTC Hero - (I think)

8. A new weed grinder - Someone stole my old one, shitty potheads.

9. The Andy Warhol Diaries - After watching I Shot Andy Warhol and Factory Girl they just made him seem so strange and misunderstood and I love strange people.

10. 2010 Honda Accord Crosstour - This shit is fucking dope. The Infiniti G35 is my favorite car but if we are talking about new-new shit, this is my babyy!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009
NOT IN THE CLUB!
at
9:24 PM
I fuck with the club every now and then but I really can't get with it but so much. Females just tend to look real thirsty and I don't even like chicks like that. Sidebar: I don't get why there are so many bitches in the south! Then I refuse to pay to get into the club because why the hell would I buy my way into a sweaty room with niggas who probably won't even get the balls to speak? PASS!
But when I do decide to make it to the club there is some shit that I'd rather not do or see people doing.
But when I do decide to make it to the club there is some shit that I'd rather not do or see people doing.
- Females wearing shoes that are too small/uncomfortable. If your feet are leaning while you are standing in line to get in the club you know damn well that by the end of the night you are gonna be bowlegged.
- Males wearing white tees to the club. There is like one place where a white tee is still acceptable attire, the basketball court.
- Females who are on their period. Get you a fudge sundae from dairy queen, go to redbox, pick out a couple movies and STAY THE FUCK HOME! Especially if you know when Get Me Bodied comes on you're gonna wanna "drop down low and sweep the floor with it." *gags*
- Females and Males do not come to the club and text the whole night. Those end up being the same mf'ers who complain that they didn't get any numbers or no one tried to dance with them.
- Males do not come to the club with the outfit you borrowed from your friend who wore the same thing last week. That shit is tacky and whatspoppin.net will expose your ass!
- Females be sure to remember that this is not a Soul Train audition. I sometimes wonder how another chick could come out of a club with her whole bang sweated out and smashed onto her forehead and sweat stains on her back. What song were YOU dancing to?
- Males and Females deodorant and smell goods must be on smash. Triple check -- because you will be forever known as "that musty nigga" next time you arrive on the scene. Don't play yourself.
- Females you do not have to stay in that unapproachable little pack that us ladies tend to do. Niggas will not approach you or your stank ass friends who think they are too cute for everybody. And I will not accept "I'm not even tryna get niggas ANYWAYS! I just came here to dance." No you didn't! You were expecting to get at least 1 drink and a couple numbers; keep it G.
- Males playing wingman and or suckling the nutsack of your buddies all night is not cool either. It makes us ladies wonder if you're gay or have no
confidenceto do your own thing. - Females you need not wear your trash panties to the club. Put on the semi-sexy shits because the likely pantie exposure that is bound to happen will be EM-BAR-A-SING if you have on dingy Fruit of the Looms.
- Males, "making it rain" got played out in like 1872. Do no throw money in the air and expect classy females to run in their heels to collect. ...FUCK YOU THINK THIS IS?
insomnia: 07 - snatched edition.
at
2:50 AM
I snatched this little survey thingy from REESE. Enjoy!
:1: MY EX- stalks me via BBM.
:2: MAYBE I SHOULD- start going to sleep at a decent hour.
:3: I LOVE- $$$, kids, smizing LOL (i watch too much tyra), fat, fat L's, porn, hip-hop, sleeping forever, watching gossip girl on mondays touching my boobs and color-coordinating my closet.
:4: PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT I'M- ruthless; they're right.
:5: I DON'T UNDERSTAND- a-whole-lot of shit.
:6: WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING- i roll right back over.
:7: I LOST- my life somewhere at the jersey state border.
:8: LIFE IS FULL OF- random, unexplainable shit.
:9: MY PAST IS- worth knowing.
:10: I GET ANNOYED WHEN- people drive slow in front of me and i can't get in front of them because someone else is driving the same pace in the other lane. stop doing me dirty, grandma drivers!
:11: PARTIES ARE- not the same after high school.
:12: I WISH- i had photographic memory so i wouldn't have to study.
:13: DOGS- bark.
:14: CATS- meow.
:15: TOMORROW- i get to sleep in. wednesdays are the shit!
:16: I HAVE LOW TOLERANCE- for making small talk. it's a waste of time. some people can't just be silent.
:17: IF I HAD A MILLION DOLLARS- i'd waste it on frivolous shit and give my mom a few stacks just for being my ride or die.
:18: I'M TOTALLY TERRIFIED: of birds. they move too sporadically and they look weird.
:1: MY EX- stalks me via BBM.
:2: MAYBE I SHOULD- start going to sleep at a decent hour.
:3: I LOVE- $$$, kids, smizing LOL (i watch too much tyra), fat, fat L's, porn, hip-hop, sleeping forever, watching gossip girl on mondays touching my boobs and color-coordinating my closet.
:4: PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT I'M- ruthless; they're right.
:5: I DON'T UNDERSTAND- a-whole-lot of shit.
:6: WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING- i roll right back over.
:7: I LOST- my life somewhere at the jersey state border.
:8: LIFE IS FULL OF- random, unexplainable shit.
:9: MY PAST IS- worth knowing.
:10: I GET ANNOYED WHEN- people drive slow in front of me and i can't get in front of them because someone else is driving the same pace in the other lane. stop doing me dirty, grandma drivers!
:11: PARTIES ARE- not the same after high school.
:12: I WISH- i had photographic memory so i wouldn't have to study.
:13: DOGS- bark.
:14: CATS- meow.
:15: TOMORROW- i get to sleep in. wednesdays are the shit!
:16: I HAVE LOW TOLERANCE- for making small talk. it's a waste of time. some people can't just be silent.
:17: IF I HAD A MILLION DOLLARS- i'd waste it on frivolous shit and give my mom a few stacks just for being my ride or die.
:18: I'M TOTALLY TERRIFIED: of birds. they move too sporadically and they look weird.
I think someone unfollowed me.
*moment of silence*
*moment of silence*
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
and we about to let it blow.
at
12:09 AM
.. I'm sorry I just really DON'T want a middle-aged white man rolling my JOINT (joints are last resort anyways, ez widers remind me of my mom)!
Yet another reason I smoke dolo and/or roll my own shit, I don't trust NOBODY'S saliva and nigs don't know how to burn after rolling.
Also, I can't stand chicks who think they too cute to roll. Move your bitch ass aside and gimme a fucking CD case.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
insomnia: 04 - sex edition.
at
12:55 AM

(Cartoons, because I still want the kiddies to come to my blog! :])
Everybody loves sex. Not necessarily the act of having sex, but people just love sex; whether they want to admit it or not. It's intriguing, mysterious, exciting, interesting, strange etc. So what better a topic to speak upon when I can't go to sleep and I've just gotten done masturbating (yes, I washed my hands) than SEX?
- I love sex. I can go long periods without it because I don't like to participate in floozy activities and I own a vibrator but once I get sex I'm instantly re-addicted.
- I think phone sex is really awkward.
- I've only had 2 orgasms ever.
- You burn about 200 calories per every 30 minutes of sex.
- I love hearing other people have sex! Except that time I heard my mom. WTF? That shit ruined my childhood.
- I always lie about how many people I've had sex with. That's no ones business but my own. It hasn't been alot but even if it was 2 people I'd say something different because no one deserves the truth about my sexual partners but me. (AND my future husby)
- Never anal. Never will.
- Humans and dolphins are the only people who have sex for pleasure.
- When I was younger I used to sneak and watch stuff like Taxicab Confessions and Real Sex on HBO. I was so badass.
- I taught some of my friends in middle school what masturbation was.
- Men aged 12 to 19 think about sex at least once every five minutes.
- I hate predictable sex in predictable places with predictable positions. After the 2nd time I have sex with someone, if they don't change it up somehow, I will go ape-shit and just start doing random things.
- I will have a 3-some one day but I refuse to eat another bitch's pussy.
- Male bats have the highest rate of homosexuality in all mammals. *Take that, all you fuckbags who think that homosexuality is "learned."
- I am the most porn-watching female that I know.
- If I have ever met you in person and I know your boyfriend/girlfriend, I have envisioned you two having sex at least one time. If you are a cute dude, I have envisioned you fucking me.
- Sex actually relieves headaches. (It can release the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.) No excuses!
- Sex when you know you JUST MIGHTTT get caught or walked in on, is 389581094 times better.
- My favorite male porn star is Rico Strong. Favorite female used to be Pinky but in my opinion Jazmine Cashmere has surpassed her in the game.
- More than half of British adults have had sex in a public place!
- I only watch 3-some porn.
- When I was younger my mom had some tape (yes, VHS) of Ron Jeremy with this african chick fucking on the ledge of a jacuzzi. I watched that shit so much that I broke the tape. OOPS!
- I cannot watch any porn outside of black porn or a black man with a black or latina woman. Anything else does not turn me on at all! (I think it's the voices.)
- A man will ejaculate approximately 18 quarts of semen, containing half a trillion sperm, in his lifetime.
- My grandparents are very young at heart still but I refuse to believe that my grandpa has sex. That will taint my admiration of him. However, by force, I have come to terms with my grandma having sex because she continues to remind me. >=[
- I don't believe my great-grandparents ever had sex. Pointblank.
- A man's beard grows fastest when he anticipates sex.
- High sex is euphoric.
- My mom caught me masturbating when I was 11 and decided to REMIND me of it via text last year. I still hate her for that.
* LINKS ARE NSFW. BUT RIGHT-CLICK > COPY LINK LOCATION. TRUST!
Keep it juicy.
p.s. 200th POST, BITCHESSS!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
something old, something new, something borrowed...
at
9:52 PM
Back when I was younger if my mom said she was going to a garage sale or a thrift store I would give her the inconspicuous side-eye and proceed to climb my ass in the back seat with my V-Tech laptop and neon swishy pants because I knew what it was (my mom would smack the shit out of me).
I used to HATE having to wear sweaters that my mom found for me from second-hand shops. I didn't like the thought of wearing used clothing and I was embarrassed to go to school wearing shit that I knew was once someone elses. But the thrift stores of yesteryear have since changed. Or maybe I just grew out of the notion that everything that I wore had to come from Kids-R-Us or Macy's.
Today thrift stores, garage sales, and even goodwill carry used and vintage clothes that look good! Take for instance the $3.49 speckled, tweed pencil skirt I picked up last week. Or the tan, oversized Ralph Lauren button up shirt I got for $2.00 that looks great with tights and high brown boots.
In the past, you would be socially shunned to say you got anything from a garage sale. But as I'm getting older I'm starting to see that you can get good, QUALITY pieces from these places that are classic and timeless.
I can't say that my closet will now only be comprised of thrifted items but the things I've found can well supplement my wardrobe. I still need to buy NEW shoes. I cannot really imagine someone else's feet anywhere near mine. And I also will need to buy new things or more high-end items from the store. I also can't stop online shopping for my life, but my advice would be to highly consider these types of places.
Mass retail merchandisers are getting away with raping people for the same type of stuff that was hot 20 years ago and you may be able to find @ your local thrift store/goodwill.
Today everyone's trying to invest less and get the highest pay out so alot of the stuff made now is poorly constructed with cheap materials such as thin threading. Also, merchandisers are looking to make as many items as possible in a short span of time so the craftsmanship is less legit.
Also, if you don't really like to buy the things that are trendy at the moment (ie. neon bullshit, graphic tees, "urban streetwear" blahh blahh blahh...) you'll be able to find things that you know won't go out of style and you won't regret spending $30 on one shirt -- although it's not likely you'll even spend that much.
Here's some tips for thrift store shopping that you might find useful:
1. Have an open mind. - Keep your mind open to new styles of clothing and be prepared to do alot of searching. Don't just dismiss things that don't instantly catch your eye or look like the things that you might find at the mall.
2. Check for tears, holes, rips, stains etc. - If it's something you really want/like you can probably try to haggle down the price and take it to a seamstress or the dry cleaner but you want to make sure that you're not wasting your money on wool sweater that's already unraveling.
3. Odors are not cool. - Smell it! Make sure that whatever you want to buy didn't carry any extreme odors of the person who had it last. To my belief, many thrift stores wash the clothing that they receive before they put it out, but I'm sure many don't. Also, don't mistake YOUR smell with the smell of the clothes you want to buy. Obviously some thing is going to smell different than what your used to.
4. Wash. - Make sure whatever you buy, when you get it home, you also wash it yourself. Like I mentioned, some thrift stores don't have the time/money to wash every single item that comes in so you want to make sure you throw your new-old stuff in the washer for thorough cleaning.
5. Don't impulse buy. - Alot of the stuff is priced low, which is great, but that doesn't mean that you should be dropping dime on everything JUST BECAUSE it's cheap! Spend wisely.
6. Keep a mental picture of your closet. - This is going to sound weird but when I go thrift store shopping I bring the pictures that I take of my color-coded closet/drawers so that I know what will look good with what. You probably may not want to take it that far but it really helps to at least have a mental pic of what you already own. (But trust me, the picture thing is THE BEST!)
7. Be willing to DIY. - Alot of times stores have the long, mu-mu, mom version of the shit that I would wear. I don't have the patience to sew things/I don't own a sewing machinge but I'm willing to pay bucks to get a really hot dress altered. Especially if I only paid $5 for it.
8. Experiment with fashion. - If there's any time that you want to take a risk and experiment with your wardrobe, you should be in a thrift store when you consider it. Fashion really does repeat itself so look out for things that you may want to try but don't want to necessarily go bankrupt doing it.
9. Be patient. - Thrifting isn't easy. It's time consuming and it's not promising. Bring a friend who isn't corny about trying new things or is already experienced in thrifting and comprise a list of stores that are close to you, and just make a day out of it. You might not find anything but you probably will.
10. Look in more sections than one - (Women) The kids section has great, retro t-shirts that fit cute. The men's section carries nice button-ups that can be worn as tunics or you can get a sweater that gives you that oversized look. Like I said, be open-minded.
Overall you'll be able to find good, most likely well-made pieces, that are one-of-a-kind. When shopping at second-hand shops, or thrift stores you can most likely guarantee you will be the only one who has it. Can I get a "You ain't got these on!"
I used to HATE having to wear sweaters that my mom found for me from second-hand shops. I didn't like the thought of wearing used clothing and I was embarrassed to go to school wearing shit that I knew was once someone elses. But the thrift stores of yesteryear have since changed. Or maybe I just grew out of the notion that everything that I wore had to come from Kids-R-Us or Macy's.
Today thrift stores, garage sales, and even goodwill carry used and vintage clothes that look good! Take for instance the $3.49 speckled, tweed pencil skirt I picked up last week. Or the tan, oversized Ralph Lauren button up shirt I got for $2.00 that looks great with tights and high brown boots.
In the past, you would be socially shunned to say you got anything from a garage sale. But as I'm getting older I'm starting to see that you can get good, QUALITY pieces from these places that are classic and timeless.
I can't say that my closet will now only be comprised of thrifted items but the things I've found can well supplement my wardrobe. I still need to buy NEW shoes. I cannot really imagine someone else's feet anywhere near mine. And I also will need to buy new things or more high-end items from the store. I also can't stop online shopping for my life, but my advice would be to highly consider these types of places.
Mass retail merchandisers are getting away with raping people for the same type of stuff that was hot 20 years ago and you may be able to find @ your local thrift store/goodwill.
Today everyone's trying to invest less and get the highest pay out so alot of the stuff made now is poorly constructed with cheap materials such as thin threading. Also, merchandisers are looking to make as many items as possible in a short span of time so the craftsmanship is less legit.
Also, if you don't really like to buy the things that are trendy at the moment (ie. neon bullshit, graphic tees, "urban streetwear" blahh blahh blahh...) you'll be able to find things that you know won't go out of style and you won't regret spending $30 on one shirt -- although it's not likely you'll even spend that much.
Here's some tips for thrift store shopping that you might find useful:
1. Have an open mind. - Keep your mind open to new styles of clothing and be prepared to do alot of searching. Don't just dismiss things that don't instantly catch your eye or look like the things that you might find at the mall.
2. Check for tears, holes, rips, stains etc. - If it's something you really want/like you can probably try to haggle down the price and take it to a seamstress or the dry cleaner but you want to make sure that you're not wasting your money on wool sweater that's already unraveling.
3. Odors are not cool. - Smell it! Make sure that whatever you want to buy didn't carry any extreme odors of the person who had it last. To my belief, many thrift stores wash the clothing that they receive before they put it out, but I'm sure many don't. Also, don't mistake YOUR smell with the smell of the clothes you want to buy. Obviously some thing is going to smell different than what your used to.
4. Wash. - Make sure whatever you buy, when you get it home, you also wash it yourself. Like I mentioned, some thrift stores don't have the time/money to wash every single item that comes in so you want to make sure you throw your new-old stuff in the washer for thorough cleaning.
5. Don't impulse buy. - Alot of the stuff is priced low, which is great, but that doesn't mean that you should be dropping dime on everything JUST BECAUSE it's cheap! Spend wisely.
6. Keep a mental picture of your closet. - This is going to sound weird but when I go thrift store shopping I bring the pictures that I take of my color-coded closet/drawers so that I know what will look good with what. You probably may not want to take it that far but it really helps to at least have a mental pic of what you already own. (But trust me, the picture thing is THE BEST!)
7. Be willing to DIY. - Alot of times stores have the long, mu-mu, mom version of the shit that I would wear. I don't have the patience to sew things/I don't own a sewing machinge but I'm willing to pay bucks to get a really hot dress altered. Especially if I only paid $5 for it.
8. Experiment with fashion. - If there's any time that you want to take a risk and experiment with your wardrobe, you should be in a thrift store when you consider it. Fashion really does repeat itself so look out for things that you may want to try but don't want to necessarily go bankrupt doing it.
9. Be patient. - Thrifting isn't easy. It's time consuming and it's not promising. Bring a friend who isn't corny about trying new things or is already experienced in thrifting and comprise a list of stores that are close to you, and just make a day out of it. You might not find anything but you probably will.
10. Look in more sections than one - (Women) The kids section has great, retro t-shirts that fit cute. The men's section carries nice button-ups that can be worn as tunics or you can get a sweater that gives you that oversized look. Like I said, be open-minded.
Overall you'll be able to find good, most likely well-made pieces, that are one-of-a-kind. When shopping at second-hand shops, or thrift stores you can most likely guarantee you will be the only one who has it. Can I get a "You ain't got these on!"
tips are for strippers.
at
6:24 PM
One of my newer followers, Latrell, had a response to one of my recent posts about MEN (read below):
if u keep gettin badd apples that means you picking from the wrong tree...tip: try having an intelligent conversation with the guy..if he cant hang then u know whats up...there are ways to prevent gettin hurt
Well, well, well Latrell, I will take your constructive criticism into consideration. But have you ever seen a perfectly good looking apple -- shiny, smooth, no dents or bruised spots, and come to realize that on the inside it was ROTTED like hell? All things don't reveal themselves to be what they are right away. It's very seldom that I even go apple picking anyway!
Intelligence is subjective, also. What one may consider "intelligent" may be baby babble to the next. I just wanted to mention that.
Intelligent conversation is something that is constant to me. I like to see where the head is of the man that I am talking to initially, but also throughout the time I'm talking to them. I am very hung-up on mind stimulation so trust and believe that conversations of substance are had with my suitors.
I'm not saying that you're wrong in your statement but it's much less black-and-white -- especially with men between the ages of 18-27. There is a facade that many men initially try to create when they are trying to run game that includes the deep, intelligent conversations, the flirting, the talks of exclusivity etc. just to appear as if they are truly interested in pursuing the same type of relationship that females are. Yet, after they get what they want, (or in some cases, like mine, even before then) it's a whole different story. Men play on the general emotional "weakness," for lack of a better word, of women until they find that they aren't ready to play anymore then they put us down and move on to the next toy.
I'm not always the "victim" in the situation either. There's some guys who I've mentioned on here who I just gave up on because I simply lost interest.
Yet and still, this last guy that I was talking to is a jerk. Not all of them are! But he was.
The point I'm trying to make is, yeah, NF wasn't IT and I've wasted time with guys before. But truthfully this isn't the first time and I know it won't be the last. It's just the nature of the game. Everybody is out for their own pleasures and it's gonna take me some time to find the guy whose desires match mine and only then will I know that that's the guy for me. But don't, for once, think that I am a quick shooter and I don't go through the process of having intelligent conversations and such.
Last, but not least, I wanna thank you for your comment AND following me. Way to make an entrance! Lol.
if u keep gettin badd apples that means you picking from the wrong tree...tip: try having an intelligent conversation with the guy..if he cant hang then u know whats up...there are ways to prevent gettin hurt
Well, well, well Latrell, I will take your constructive criticism into consideration. But have you ever seen a perfectly good looking apple -- shiny, smooth, no dents or bruised spots, and come to realize that on the inside it was ROTTED like hell? All things don't reveal themselves to be what they are right away. It's very seldom that I even go apple picking anyway!
Intelligence is subjective, also. What one may consider "intelligent" may be baby babble to the next. I just wanted to mention that.
Intelligent conversation is something that is constant to me. I like to see where the head is of the man that I am talking to initially, but also throughout the time I'm talking to them. I am very hung-up on mind stimulation so trust and believe that conversations of substance are had with my suitors.
I'm not saying that you're wrong in your statement but it's much less black-and-white -- especially with men between the ages of 18-27. There is a facade that many men initially try to create when they are trying to run game that includes the deep, intelligent conversations, the flirting, the talks of exclusivity etc. just to appear as if they are truly interested in pursuing the same type of relationship that females are. Yet, after they get what they want, (or in some cases, like mine, even before then) it's a whole different story. Men play on the general emotional "weakness," for lack of a better word, of women until they find that they aren't ready to play anymore then they put us down and move on to the next toy.
I'm not always the "victim" in the situation either. There's some guys who I've mentioned on here who I just gave up on because I simply lost interest.
Yet and still, this last guy that I was talking to is a jerk. Not all of them are! But he was.
The point I'm trying to make is, yeah, NF wasn't IT and I've wasted time with guys before. But truthfully this isn't the first time and I know it won't be the last. It's just the nature of the game. Everybody is out for their own pleasures and it's gonna take me some time to find the guy whose desires match mine and only then will I know that that's the guy for me. But don't, for once, think that I am a quick shooter and I don't go through the process of having intelligent conversations and such.
Last, but not least, I wanna thank you for your comment AND following me. Way to make an entrance! Lol.
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