regarding music....

I miss watching my friends freestyle behind the bleachers during football games. Those were good times! I like football but I love rap so this brings me back to those glorious days in 9th grade having my mom drop me off @ WHS so we can get high and stand in huge crowds.

My boo is asking me to make him a CD and I'm at a loss because he's not too in tuned to the shit that I like. He doesn't know much Nas, he is not into underground at all, he thinks all Wu is old (as opposed to classic) and he doesn't know too many Kanye songs that weren't singles. Therefore I'm stuck shuffling through my music for an hr. trying to find songs that will be appropriate for his taste in music and I've only come up with 7 so far for this 80 minute CD..... and a majority of it is Wayne (whom he honestly feels is the best rapper.) How unfortunate?

Hip-hop right now is at an all time low. And although I personally do not feel as though I'm suffering, because all of the music is housed between my ipods and my computer, I am disappointed that my new rap downloads come in drips and drabs--maybe 1-2 songs/month. Music in general is still pretty decent. There are some great artists that are not rappers that I am newly interested in, but when I'm speeding down the highway or trying to get right that is not what I want to hear.

And while we're on the subject of music/mixtapes I honestly am dying without having my old radio in my new car. I haven't had a CD in years so having to actually use CDs now sucks.

P.S. I LOVE MY JOB! $$$

dipset. what? oww!

cool things.

SiON SoundObject Quartet - wonderfl build flash online

what happened?

I'm sitting here listening to old Kanye. (Pre-Graduation, mixtapes, unreleased IMO) and I really have no clue what happened? I feel like I'm 1 of 20 of his remaining fans. I love old 'Ye. LOVE! I am still in love with THAT man. I don't really appreciate this new guy. And I blame Jay Z! He ruined my favorite rapper. Yeah he put him on but I'm sure, that it was bound to happen anyway. This man is too motivated to not have been successful. And I'm hurt! My favorite rapper died. His shit is not classic anymore, it creates controversy but it's not genuine. It doesn't tell the same story. It doesn't send the same message and doesn't give us the same positive/conscious vibe that it once did. Just words and music, words and music.

'Ye you have disappointed me. I guess when the struggle isn't the same, the output isn't either but damn you sold the fuck out. And your fans miss you Kanye.

x_x

higher.

Guess who's still up for no goddamn reason...

J. COLE | Higher

do right and kill everything.

Drake is rly starting to get on my nerves with this Lil Kim shit. At first I brushed it off but I started thinking... really bruh, you have no street cred so fall back.



On the plus side, Miss Me is my shit and when I'm driving home from work you can catch me singing right along, BA-LEE DAT!

My one and only came over last night. I have not seen cakes since like May 25 so I was sooo happy. WE DID NOT FUCK. HE WILL NOT BE GETTING ANY UNTIL ALOT OF SHIT CHANGES. Which means I will be fucking with Dixie (my vib) for a good minute. Honestly I'm not off fucking with all, or any of these new dudes that have been pushing up. Although I love sex, I love my healthy kitty-cat even more so...
1. No, muthafuckin-bona, you will not be fine dining @ my expense.

2. No, P, no need in even taking that drive down here from Greensboro because you aint getting none!

3. No, Ant, the grill connect is all I'm interested in, you can move it right along after my teeth get fitted.

And so on...

I will still allow niggas to take me out to dinner though. That is always A Go.

I have not had more than 5 hrs of sleep in the last week and that shit is really starting to catch up to me; my body has been ache-y and I have no energy throughout the day.

With that being said, I have to wake up before the birds tmrw and my bath is waiting for me. Later!

YUP.

my shirt off ..

i take my shirt off all the hoes stop breathin.

FYI.

zSHARE - Rihanna - Rude Boy _Diplo Rudeboyz Remix_.mp3

zSHARE - Rihanna - Rude Boy _Diplo Rudeboyz Remix_.mp3

And THIS is just dope.

Comparison apparent:



VS.

rude boy.

I sware I don't fucks with Rihanna like that and I know yall bouta see this video everywhere and a half. But tell me she is not giving us the business.



I'm wit' it. 100%. She selling that sex aint she though? Finally she's expressing more of her West Indian culture in this video which I like. I die for cultural things because I despise being 'just American'. I mean I know way back it goes deeper than that but the most I know is that my great great grandparents on both sides were born in America which bores me to pieces. So when people don't get braggy about their background aliyah gets angry!

But uhh.. I'm rambling. Lemme get off this.

good morning, spitta.

CURREN$Y - BREAKFAST from Creative Control on Vimeo.

This too:

curren$y.

CURREN$Y W/ DISCO BISCUITS in PHILLY from Creative Control on Vimeo.

Ok so now WHAT'S your excuse for not fucking with curren$y?

(And he got that ugly-sexy look to him... It's hard to explain.)

doing the most.

Plz take the time out of your day to watch this. This shit is epic.


Ummm..... *blank stare*

Some of the funny comments:
"Lil mama wasnt invited, she just showed up!!"

"YO LIL MAMA ADMITTED TO BEING A MAN SHE SAID "AND I BE DOIN MY THING LIKE LIL MAN MAN....AHAHAHAHAH SHES A MAN MAN!!!"

"yo Nicki Minaj n lola luv should rumble cuz they both claim to be hard then they should eat each other out cuz they claim to be freaks"

blurb.

OMG Special K Red Berries is my shit! It's the only other cereal I don't think is disgusting besides Kix with no milk.

Anyways I'm fucking up this bowl of cereal and thinking about shit. Like how I wanna buckle down and focus for next semester. I really just wanna start over completely and not look back. I need to make a routine though to do that because one of my worst habits is acting on impulse. If I don't have daily tasks I'll get so distracted from the shit that I'm really supposed to be doing.

I kinda wanna change my major but that's irrelevant right now.

I painted my nails yesterday and they're already chippy. FML.

Ok so there's supposed to be some big storm coming. I hope it doesn't get too crazy because I have to go to work like everyday until I leave. I hate the fact that we only have 5 people at my job and we get mega hours. I know it's gonna slow down after the season is over which ends in like 2 more wks anyways so I'm not gonna complain.

Jersey in 10 days! And something tells me it's not gonna be as exciting as I want it to be. It's just gonna be regular ass, rude NJ. None of my friends will probably be around, I'm not gonna have my car because I'm flying so that sucks and I feel like everybody's gonna be too busy to be able to do stuff. That's always how things like this end up going. You get all worked up and then you're like, "Oh." when you get there.

But hopefully it's not too bad. I really just wanna make sure I spend as much time with my family as possible. Not even out doing things, but just being in their presence again so I can re-remember the weird things about them like how they smell and their dimples and how tall they are etc. etc. Idk, if you've ever missed somebody that you loved so much you know this feeling.

I wanna puppyyyyyyyyy so bad.

I've just been thinking about so much lately. Like I said, this has been a breakthrough year. Things have been nuts this year for me; not all things were bad things either. But I still just wanna make a turn around for the better in the year to come. I won't be a "teenager" anymore and that to me makes me wanna put more effort into becoming more stable as I enter my adult years. One of my fears is being unachieved, being unachieved AND old?......

I like Snooki.
I hate Natalie.

& I have a love/hate thing with Nicki Minaj. Like wtf? She was fire on Higher Than A Kite, Million Dollar Baby was good (minus the Max B), I Gets Crazy is hot too. Then she had to get all Bratz doll on us. But Dopeman is kinda tight. (Sorry, I'm biased anything with Pusha is a go in my book.)

It's cold as fuck in this house. I'm bouta to turn the heat on full-ignorant-motherfucking-BLAST. (I like doing things to this specific extreme.)

Ok, that's all I wanted to say.

Wait, one more thing. I kinda miss NF. He had my interest.

and the winner is...

Cherokee!
(Does my blog have a content warning when you click it? Psshh.. oh well!)



This warrants a song change. Enjoy!

dark-skinned white girl.

If you don't know about Murs lemme put you on. (Fans probably already know this.) Murs is an underground rapper from LA who is amazing in every sense of the word. If you like shit that resembles Immortal Technique but is a little less political you'll probably like him, so just listen:

If you can't tell what the song is about it's about being the "Wigger" or the "Oreo". I think it's crazy how, although he is a dude, Murs sees what it's like growing up to be a female outcast.

This song really hits home for me because I used to get called an Oreo when I was younger. Because I "talked white" (I could not will myself to say words like "like-did") and had white friends, I lived "across the tracks" on the better side of town, I didn't dick ride Lil Bow Wow when he came out and I didn't wear weave and flat twists.

Today I realize that that type of shit could've broken me, but it didn't. I fought bitches back in the day to teach them to stay in their place. And no, I didn't win every fight but I held my own even when I didn't win because fighting my boy cousins taught me how to rock. It's sad because I know alot of young girls go through an identity crisis and it's most prevalent during the middle school years. What's even worse is that the girls who do all of the running off at the mouth are just as insecure as the girl who gets made fun of; maybe even more.

The "weak" ones always prevail though. I saw one of the chicks who used to call me an oreo at a club last year with dingy braids, a sloppy ass shape, and her shoes had dust bunnies on them. Two other girls had kids. I just looked at them and had that secret moment of singing the "I'm Better Than You" song. And yeah, you can say every life who comes into this world is a beautiful soul and no one regrets having their kids because they can't see themselves without them blahh blahh blahhh but I am grateful to not have a little doodoo butt to clean up after, a "babbyzaddy" and another mouth to feed at 19 years old.

So to all you bussit-babies out there who felt like my vocabulary and enunciation made me too "white," eat my dick after I dip it into these Oreo cookie crumbles. :] (Yummy!)

one common goal: attain relevancy

My thoughts on the Shitty Coins "movement."

0:14 - Really, Diddy, a grill in? In '09?

0:24 - WHOAA! Sean Combs is giving me FEVUH! WORRRRRKKK!

0:29 - "It's that Dirty Money!" ...I'm seeing a trend here.

*Bops head* The beat is iight though.

0:33 - Channeling her inner Macy Gray.

0:42 - Does anyone understand what she's saying?

0:45 - I can tell SOMEONE is feeling real relevant in this video. ::cough:: DAWN!! ::cough::

0:51 - EW! Them shoulder moves exhibit unacceptable behavior. That's annoying.

1:10 - They should have had a warning in the beginning of this video. That strobe light shit is gonna cause seizures.

1:16 - Is that the Jabbawockis? They get hella cameos.

1:41 - I REALLY want Dawn to stop moving her fucking shoulders and winding. *gags*

1:44 - False alarm: That's not the Jabbawockis. It's probably Lori Ann and her minions.

2:08 - OHH SHITT! Diddy took it wayyy back. Nigga did the "cry baby" dance on the wall. If you don't know that dance you're not black!

2:11 - Cassie should be rotating with them in this scene considering she's the only other person on the Bad Boy roster. Might as well make it a complete square.

-Those dancers are random as HAILLL. How do they tie into the whole theme?
-Ugh just the thought of Dawn probably thinking "I'm a bad bitch!" in this video is making me queasy.

2:55 - Back.

2:57 - The Fuck.

2:59 - Up! DAMN!!! Diddy's mouth is not aesthetically pleasing to the eye. Thoughts of open mouth breathing, heavy sighs and thick saliva collecting near his gum line. *shudders*

3:03 - Finally! A close up of those dollar store earrings. Smh.

3:28 - Dawn's jacket is kinda hot.

3:35 - I SEE YOU, BECKY!

3:39 - More? :(

I guess that's it. Overall they have alot of energy in the video. All that winding and arm movement shit was uncalled for but I'm not surprised at the lack of interesting content, look who we're fuckin with - bland ass Dawn, mute Other Girl and man tiddies Diddy. :-\ No one is checkin for nan a person in this video. (Well I'm checkin for Lori Ann if that is, in fact, her and her crew boom kattin' in the background - I will be Googling that). I agree with... everybody in that this is very reminiscent of the 90's, shiny suit era but you know how all old shit makes it's comeback eventually. I'm cool with it, it helps me reflect on my days as a youngin. However if, and when, Spice Girl shoes make a comeback, I will neither be enthused nor partake in that trend. One year of black, crush velvet 2 inch, platform Sketchers is MORE than enough. (Don't judge me.)

nasty bucks.

CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY!
CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY!
CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY!
CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY!
CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY!
CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY! CORNY!

All this corny-ness on one stage is like, disgusting. They only really need Lil Mama, Omarion, Young Berg and Neyo and it would be official.

Dawn and... that other girl just seem real insecure on stage. Dawn bugs me in the way that she is stuntin so HARD. She is TRYING and I hate people who try to be something that they're not. She is so out of place in a group called "Dirty Money"

Ok, but aside from this, Sasha posted a website on her blog that substantiates the whole devil worship/hidden messages in music conspiracy that I also mentioned in a post a while ago.

I really don't have a religion. I believe in GOD but I also understand and connect well with the beliefs of other religions. But I do believe that us everyday people don't realize that the government and/or high society people are constantly in the works to control. If you don't at least believe that, you are oblivious to how important money and power are to people. Consider the low-down things people will do to just make six figures or be the manager at Foot Locker, imagine what affluent people with uncountable amounts of money and immense power are doing in secrecy.

IDK! But this shit is creepy and I believe in it. Call me naive or a sucker but the facts really add up and the fact that Diddy's excuse behind the concept of this song doesn't match up with the ACTUAL LYRICS and he keeps stumbling for an answer freaks me out! Do some research for yourself. I'll bet it'll make you think.

insomnia: 02

I'm tired of people (specifically my roommates) saying that I _____ like a dude.

• You work out like a guy.
• You curse like a man.
• You listen to boy music.
• You drive like a nigga.

EHH NERR!

The fuck? I can't just not be lazy when I'm in the gym? Some people don't go to the gym just to be cute and scurry around in spandex. Fuck all dat! I'm going there to get results. I run for 30 minutes, I do ab bends with 30 lb. weights, I do knee bends with 15 pound weights, I get on like 4 machines and I'm out. I'm not trying to hang around and be cute, keep fixing my ponytail in the mirror and take a gazillion water breaks. I got the focused, "Don't talk to me" face on the whole time and I mean that shit.

No, I just have a foul-mouth when I get really into the conversation or I'm adamant about what I'm saying. And I'm grown so suck my meat!

I get told I listen to "boy music" often. I listen to ALOT of hip-hop; basically only hip hop. Every now and then, when my ipod is on shuffle, a random Mariah Carey or Lauryn Hill song will pop up. But I don't care for R&B too much. I don't care what people want to sing about love and I don't really fuck with any other genre... It is what it is. Truthfully, I deleted alot of music of other genres from my ipod because I can't listen to anything but rap when I'm high. But who the fuck proclaimed rap music as the music for dudes only? Like who wrote that rule? Fuck outta here! Ima still rock with my G shit and keep it moving.

I drive like I want to get to wherever the fuck I'm going and avoid all the bullshit. I don't have patience. I don't like to wait for the granny that wants to slowly coast to the intersection. I don't like to step on the brake all the time because that wastes gas, so I switch lanes when I pull up on a slow person. I drive like I want to move the fuck away from the person who CLEARLY doesn't know how to drive. I know I drive like a jerk -- so do many females. The ones who don't have time to spend lolly-gagging behind a fucking Volvo when they're trying to get to the mall before it closes.

Kill the fucking gender-stereotypes. That shit is not breezy.

How I fell in love with The Lox: