sex with strangers.

NSFW:


I'm all for the fun and freak nasty (to some extent) but a.Why is this woman busting it wide open for these stranger muhfkas? b. Why are there not 1, not 2, but 3 participants in this mess? c. Where the fuck is this because I would never date a man from this state?

UGHHHHHHH! I am just so disgusted with life right now. This is such a sad era.

That woman probably had the most disturbed childhood. And men, yall just nasty! UGH! this makes me want to brush my own fucking teeth again this morning. Please people raise your children right! Do you see what is wrong with our society? Get it together by the time you plant seeds.

truth is.

No one likes to hear the truth these days. I don't understand what's the big fucking deal. I know everybody wants to think they're the shit all the damn time but at the end of the day you have to go home and face your own insecurities.

I like to surround myself with honest people who will tell me the truth. What's the point in having people in your life if they cant be honest with you? It's wack to be on your high horse all the fucking time like, 'damn you can take a step off the saddle sir/madam?!'

Having confidence, knowledge of self and REALISM that allows you to take heed to opinions about yourself and being able to translate it to a positive message so you can keep it moving.

Its a sad day in age when people are frauding (especially on the internet) and trying to be something that they're not because they're scared of the truth.

The truth exists. Some people will end up with a miserable life trying to hide from truths that are always chasing them and staring them dead in the face.

define rachet:

bad habits.

For some reason after you get off that long ass dry spell you want it day in and day out. That is not the business because I'm not trying to get all in with this nigga. He hits me up on the daily and although I'm trying to be cordial and all that, this is strictly business and I'm not looking for lve. Especially a couple wks before vday. Yeah, vday presents are cool and all but I feel like all that lovey-dovey vday shit is mad fake if you haven't been seeing the same person for a long time prior to the holiday. We're gonna see how everything plays out.

I need to stop shopping. I got some change saved up to kick off my car savings but I've still been shopping on the reg like I got it like that. I'm in a very comfortable financial position right now but I still need to be smart about what I buy and stop being so fucking impulsive. I have 4 bags worth of stuff sitting at my feet right now that I have yet to wear let alone I have yet to wear my sneakers (I don't really wear sneakers that much now). All from this past month's shopping excursions. -I'm the type of person who doesn't take shit out of the bag until I'm ready to wear it.

With that being said, I want these more than I want dinner for the next 3 wks:

Patent Leather Brogues - Marc by Marc Jacobs, $350


One thing I must say though, is that God has me right where I wanna be right now and I'm extremely thankful. Because of that, I feel like it's only right to give back in any way I can so in the next week I'll not only be donating clothes to Goodwill but I'll also be shipping out clothes and baby formula to Haiti soon as I get some boxes from mommy this wknd. Karma works both negatively and positively and I feel like putting that good karma into the world makes me better appreciate what I have and feel less guilty about my incessant spending.

I smoke every now and then now when ..... brings it. But I'm not going nuts anymore.

After the other argument I had with my roommate the other day. Me and my other two roommates filed a complaint on that ass and got her kicked out. She should be done moving by tmrw. I like when things go my way. Bitch had the nerve to say if there's liquor in the house or if people are smoking on the porch she's gonna call the cops on us. She also said "If you want a bitch, I'll be a bitch... I can be your worst nightmare." I'm like HOLD THE FUCK UP! Not after her drunk ass broke our living room table, or all the times she invited random strangers from outside into our apt. That's a no-go. So I gave her one of these -__- and now her ass is packing.

I'm trying to get my ace, Vanessa, to come down here during spring break so she can witness what I go through on a daily living in NC.

Besides all that, everything is all gravy. I'll prob be on here later to open my big, fat mouth some more but right now I gotta get ready ;].

Oh, let me not forget. HAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY new followers! And to my old followers, yall stay down so you know it's ALL LOVE, ALL THE TIME.

NOT IN THE CLUB!

I fuck with the club every now and then but I really can't get with it but so much. Females just tend to look real thirsty and I don't even like chicks like that. Sidebar: I don't get why there are so many bitches in the south! Then I refuse to pay to get into the club because why the hell would I buy my way into a sweaty room with niggas who probably won't even get the balls to speak? PASS!

But when I do decide to make it to the club there is some shit that I'd rather not do or see people doing.

1. Females wearing shoes that are too small/uncomfortable. If your feet are leaning while you are standing in line to get in the club you know damn well that by the end of the night you are gonna be bowlegged.
2. Males wearing white tees to the club. There is like one place where a white tee is still acceptable attire, the basketball court.
3. Females who are on their period. Get you a fudge sundae from dairy queen, go to redbox, pick out a couple movies and STAY THE FUCK HOME! Especially if you know when Get Me Bodied comes on you're gonna wanna "drop down low and sweep the floor with it." *gags*
   
4. Females and Males do not come to the club and text the whole night. Those end up being the same mf'ers who complain that they didn't get any numbers or no one tried to dance with them.
5. Males do not come to the club with the outfit you borrowed from your friend who wore the same thing last week. That shit is tacky and whatspoppin.net will expose your ass!
6. Females be sure to remember that this is not a Soul Train audition. I sometimes wonder how another chick could come out of a club with her whole bang sweated out and smashed onto her forehead and sweat stains on her back. What song were YOU dancing to?
7. Males and Females deodorant and smell goods must be on smash. Triple check -- because you will be forever known as "that musty nigga" next time you arrive on the scene. Don't play yourself.
8. Females you do not have to stay in that unapproachable little pack that us ladies tend to do. Niggas will not approach you or your stank ass friends who think they are too cute for everybody. And I will not accept "I'm not even tryna get niggas ANYWAYS! I just came here to dance." No you didn't! You were expecting to get at least 1 drink and a couple numbers; keep it G.
   
9. Males playing wingman and or suckling the nutsack of your buddies all night is not cool either. It makes us ladies wonder if you're gay or have no confidence to do your own thing.
10. Females you need not wear your trash panties to the club. Put on the semi-sexy shits because the likely pantie exposure that is bound to happen will be EM-BAR-A-SING if you have on dingy Fruit of the Looms.
    
11. Males, "making it rain" got played out in like 1872. Do no throw money in the air and expect classy females to run in their heels to collect. ...FUCK YOU THINK THIS IS?

Take heed.

a few late night confessions.

It's 3:32am... About that time for some late night chat.

So here's 33 confessions and my 2 cents on something random:

1. I'm not ready for winter yet because I didn't go winter coat shopping. Once I get at least 2 winter coats, I will be ready.

2. I hate small talk and I am very curt with those who insist on chatting with me.

3. I hope I have a daughter so I can buy her every little pink thing I see.

4. Since no one else will, I am going to add Melody Eshani dickriding to the list of trends/concepts that are played out and overrated. Also add to the list Hellz Bellz and most of the urban fashion that finds it's way to karmaloop.com.

5. I wish little evil things on people like hoping they fall down a small set of stairs or something. >;]

6. I could pick my pussy out of a line up of pussies. Can you?

7. I fucking hate everyone who works at Walmart. It's like someone had a mission to bug me so they hired a slew of hoodboogers. Except for that one time the cashier gave me $19 back instead of $9. That was a small blessing.

8. I get really antsy when I drink coffee.

9. I cannot feign enthusiasm for my life. If I'm not interested in something, my tone of voice will let you know it.

10. I don't think I can come up with 33 random things. That was very narcissistic of me.

11. I pulled out my 1st grade class picture and decided to friend request all the people that I could find on facebook a couple days ago.

12. I would serial kill for a new car right now. I want a '09 ANYTHING!

13. I will not eat/drink anything if it is even the day before the "Use By" date.

14. I know, like, only 1 person is going to read this... myself, 3 times so I can check for spelling and grammatical errors.

15. I can't drive anywhere without my ipod hooked up in my car. Not kidding.

16. I HATEEE when people fart in my presence! That is some rude behavior.

17. I used to be a little ass klepto when I was younger.

18. I pick out all of the soggy french fries. If they don't stand up straight they gettin' tossed.

19. I assume all overweight people are lazy.

20. I like cleaning the hairs out of my brush.

21. I don't like ketchup.

22. I need some sort of air recirculation where ever I am so my fan is almost always on.

23. I like being naked.

24. I will not leave my house with my scarf on.

25. I think elderly Asians are cute.

26. I cannot sleep with jeans on, at all.

27. I don't spend my money wisely.

28. I am scared of all night creatures (racoons, possums, bats etc.)

29. I am not scared of human beings at all. And I truly feel that I am strong enough to put in work on anybody if I have to. I don't care how buff you are, I'm not scared of you.

30. I played Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz the summer of 6th grade. That is one of my childhood highlights. LOL

31. I get bored with people really quickly.

32. I refuse to use toothpaste gel. It HAS to be in paste form or there will be problems. (The gel-paste combo is also acceptable.)

33. I think I have a sleeping disorder.

My 2 cents will be on Forever 21:



You have all seen or heard of this store. Everybody and their god-damn mommy shops there. I am tired of seeing their $38 black gladiator heels and $16 flower jewelry on every chick from here to St. Croix. There is nothing there that you won't see on one girl today and another tomorrow. I don't think that women over the age of 21 understand that it is named "FOREVER 21" for a reason (you can slide until you're 26). There should be no reason that I see 30-somethings scouring the racks and pushing 14 year olds aside. Take your ass to New York and Company or Express! Also, their garments are poorly made.

That will be all.

This is a test:

Dudes have these little tests that they think we, females, don't know about; like we're clueless. Well I have too many male friends and boy cousins that are damn-near brothers, to not know the deal. Actually, in order for a girl to make it with 2 of my cousins I have to meet her and feel her out myself. So fellas, don't sleep on us females because some of us are more "in the know" than you think.

As far as us females are concerned, we also have our little tests. There are certain points that you must pass in order to get a gold star next to your name. For one, these tests are subjective so don't think that the things that I say here are set in stone. And you never know when we'll be testing you boys so KEEP YOUR P'S AND Q'S UP!

Test #1: The "Time of the Month" Test --
If there's one week in the month that you need to be on your job it's DEFINITELY the week of our period. Simple things will get you in good like going to pick up food for us or going to take out the garbage so we don't have to get up. But you'll get extra brownie points for doing things like rubbing our tummy's or baking cookies when we get a craving for some chocolate (OK, I don't really expect that to happen). Although the real test is during the 1st month, if you remember things from month to month that'll definitely help! For example, back in the day my favorite candy during that time was Ferrero Rocher and 1 year my ex bought me this HUGEEEE tray thingy of the candy. I was snacking on that shit every month and it always made me think of him. Clearly it helped because it's significant enough for me to mention now.

Test #2: The "Not This Time" Test --
Sometimes, for the sake of our personal being, we like to test our dudes and see if they REALLY are in it for more than the good-good. So sometimes (depending on the situation) we'll say we don't wanna have sex. Sometimes we want it just as bad as you do but we wanna know what your true intentions are with us. Don't confuse spite with the test though. If you did something fucked some females will also say no. But expect this test sometime between the 1st and 4th time you have sex.

Test #3: "Can you do me a favor and pick me up a....?" Test --
A true test of reliability, generosity, dependability, and another test of how important we are to you, we may ask you to pick us up a.....whateverthefuck from the store just to see what the response is. Sometimes we really need it and we use the opportunity to test you or sometimes, we don't need that shit at all we're just bored. The point is we want to see if you are willing to do for us like we would do for you given the relationship progresses further. My suggestion is, for the first YEAR just always say yes. And LADIES don't ask for tampons in the first year, you should most likely expect a no.

Test #4: Meeting the Family --
My family is a group of loud drunkards who will ask you any question. In no way are they trying to be intimidating or interrogating, they just expect people to be as open and outgoing as they are. Therefore, coming to my grandma's house on a day when everybody's there can be quite scurrrrry. But if you can walk out of my grandma's house with a smile on your face I know that you'll make it with me. My family is an extension of me and I spend all of my holidays with them. They were here before any dude came along and will be there if he breaks my heart and that pretty much substantiates my reasoning on why you must get at least a B+ on the family test.

Test #5: The "Sweatpants, Hair Tied, Chillin' with NO Makeup On" Test --
Pretty self-explanatory. This test normally comes towards the end of the 1st month. And I know everyone's probably heard this quote before but it is quite true, "If you can't accept me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best." And LADIES, don't even front like you always look the way you did if you met in the club with the heels on, freakum dress and makeup and hair did. Keep it 100, not just with him, but with yourself.


I can't think of any more tests right now. Ladies, if there are anymore that you can think of PUT THEM IN THE COMMENT BOX. Also, lemme know if this is some of the stuff that you do.