i ain't doin nutttinnn.

I rearranged my room but I am not taking pics until I actually clean it to it's master cleanness. I still have clothes alloverthefuckingplace. I actually need to buy more hangers because my wardrobe has surpassed my storage. It's starting to get ugly. I may donate soon but I doubt anyone will want my random shit.

I'm gonna wear my new LBD to the 4th of July party that I'm going too but I really want a pair of stars and stripes hooker shoes that I'm sure will be hard to find. I want them to look like this:


But in a non-MS paint sorta way, yanno?

But because this dress is tight as fuck I'm not trying to have any unnecessary curves so I've been no carbing for the past 3 days (except for not really because I had Chick-Fil-A today *kanye shrug*)

I've been trying to stay on point with everything lately so I can really keep myself focused. I start school next week and I'm looking for a new job as well.

Something I've been doing every morning is taking a tablespoon of olive oil every morning. It's supposed to speed your metabolism and do something else healthy. (Don't really remember the rest.)

I need to start praying more or establish a better sense of faith because I really feel like I'm slipping and I'm lucky to have the things that I have. I feel like I'm ungrateful because I don't thank God enough.

Kinda won't be smoking for a while because I'll prob have to take a few UA's if I'm looking to get a job. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! -___-

Gotta go, I need to paint my nails.

define rachet:

gAypril.

I never really like April. Actually, fuck April. It's a month before my bday so I'm just impatient as fuck, I am @ my peak ugly because my allergies fuck with my eyes and make me look like a murderer, and its a month before summer break and I don't really give a fuck about 10 page papers and shit and the weather is so fucking phoney. The only highlight of this month is 420 and I mean, nigs kinda stop hyping this day up after they leave high school.

Since I last posted my boo's bday came and went. He's 23 now. I was happy to spend it with him. I got arrested on some bullshit. =X I got wasted one night and woke up with the worst hangover and had to work 8 hrs the next day. I almost fought another one of my roommates because she also be on some other shit.

That's about it.

See how gay April is?


POP!POP!

happy vday - cp time.

I'm all late but.. Happy Valentines Day.

Smooches and all that good shit.

I'm not about patronizing the whole... chocolates, flowers and random gifts aspect of Vday because frankly, I don't give two shits about niggas trying to do the most on February 14th. That's so cliche and I'm not one to appreciate romanticism. (I think it's cheesy.) I'm just tryna have a good day, and I did. I woke up next to him, smoked a L, had breakfast with my roomie and her niggi and my niggi, and like clockwork I was in my skirt and heels flying up Eastway to make it to work so I can make my young mulah baby. Because really, What's a day without money made?

Hope everybody else got theirs though. ;] ....Whatever it is that you wanted.

I also would like to add:

• I had some banging Cuban food the other day and I will be going back to get fried yuca.
  
• My AM is bouta get fired cuz she's trife. (Guess who'll be snatching up them hrs...)
  
• And there's probably something else I could've squeezed in here but my brain can't function right now.

I love my followers though so air kisses all around!

bad habits.

For some reason after you get off that long ass dry spell you want it day in and day out. That is not the business because I'm not trying to get all in with this nigga. He hits me up on the daily and although I'm trying to be cordial and all that, this is strictly business and I'm not looking for lve. Especially a couple wks before vday. Yeah, vday presents are cool and all but I feel like all that lovey-dovey vday shit is mad fake if you haven't been seeing the same person for a long time prior to the holiday. We're gonna see how everything plays out.

I need to stop shopping. I got some change saved up to kick off my car savings but I've still been shopping on the reg like I got it like that. I'm in a very comfortable financial position right now but I still need to be smart about what I buy and stop being so fucking impulsive. I have 4 bags worth of stuff sitting at my feet right now that I have yet to wear let alone I have yet to wear my sneakers (I don't really wear sneakers that much now). All from this past month's shopping excursions. -I'm the type of person who doesn't take shit out of the bag until I'm ready to wear it.

With that being said, I want these more than I want dinner for the next 3 wks:

Patent Leather Brogues - Marc by Marc Jacobs, $350


One thing I must say though, is that God has me right where I wanna be right now and I'm extremely thankful. Because of that, I feel like it's only right to give back in any way I can so in the next week I'll not only be donating clothes to Goodwill but I'll also be shipping out clothes and baby formula to Haiti soon as I get some boxes from mommy this wknd. Karma works both negatively and positively and I feel like putting that good karma into the world makes me better appreciate what I have and feel less guilty about my incessant spending.

I smoke every now and then now when ..... brings it. But I'm not going nuts anymore.

After the other argument I had with my roommate the other day. Me and my other two roommates filed a complaint on that ass and got her kicked out. She should be done moving by tmrw. I like when things go my way. Bitch had the nerve to say if there's liquor in the house or if people are smoking on the porch she's gonna call the cops on us. She also said "If you want a bitch, I'll be a bitch... I can be your worst nightmare." I'm like HOLD THE FUCK UP! Not after her drunk ass broke our living room table, or all the times she invited random strangers from outside into our apt. That's a no-go. So I gave her one of these -__- and now her ass is packing.

I'm trying to get my ace, Vanessa, to come down here during spring break so she can witness what I go through on a daily living in NC.

Besides all that, everything is all gravy. I'll prob be on here later to open my big, fat mouth some more but right now I gotta get ready ;].

Oh, let me not forget. HAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY new followers! And to my old followers, yall stay down so you know it's ALL LOVE, ALL THE TIME.

ahh.. a new year!

Here we go! It is 2010 and I am ready for this year to be FTW.

I don't like to make resolutions so I don't have anything that I plan on doing this year that I didn't do last. As things progress I'll make the changes that I see fit but I'm not gonna make overall goals for a whole year. That's a pre-failed promise in my opinion.

I went on this party bus event to NY to bring in the new year with a few of my highschool friends & their friends from their schools. It was decent. It was just really crazy. Mad sleezy heffers, and arguments and fuckery was in place. It was just ridiculous. And I am not a friendly drunk. I'm belligerent and grumpy like hell. Waiting for an opportinity to cuss a nigga out. So I had to do that twice in order to put people back in their place. People were getting kicked off the bus and shit. But aside from all that extra the unltd. free liquor at my disposal, champagne toasts, and ripping bitches shit was well worth the $60 admission fee.

I'm at Grandmas. So far I've hit all of the points of people that I NEEDED to see except for my father's side of family, which I believe I'll be catching up with this wknd. Hopefully everything goes well. Even though I hate the ridiculous drive it is to get here, I don't think I'll be able to fly again without having a car. It's really annoying having to rely on others and it makes me feel like I'm not grown enough to do things whenever the fuck I want, which I clearly am.

I heard one of my roommates smoked weed while I was gone. Yes, the churchy one. That makes me laugh. And I'm mad I missed it. I heard she hated it though so... I bet she wasn't hitting that good-good. *kanye shrug*

I'm watching some shit called American Gangster and it's cool.

I don't think I'll be as up on my blogging and net surfing in a minute because I'm trying to rid some of my small distractions. So my posts will probably be more few and far between.

I'm trying to concentrate on making big moves this year so I gotta be as focused as possible. That means less free time.

But I do wanna make some changes for my blog in this year too so I'll try to make sure I make time for that.

Now let me get back to watching American Gangster.

half-ass christmas.

I stayed over my mommy's house lastnight after I got home from work so we could do Christmas morning like we usually do. I got her 2 stupid little things because I'm broke: a Zippo lighter (she smokes weed, and I hate seeing grown women with cheap gas station lighters) and these boots that I got for myself that she loved, I got her a pair.

She got me a new printer. I'm always fussing with my shit even though its CLEARLY broke and I refuse to buy a new one. So she did it for me. Also a bottle of Cruzan, a few hundred bucks so I can have young mulah baby when I'm get to Jersey in 4 days, a new robe, some Bobbi Brown lipglosses, and errrumm... I think that's it.

We spoke with my fam.
We watched movies.
We napped. (I slept in and out the whole day because today's the first day I got to sleep past 8 and haven't had to work a 5+ hr shift.)

And that was it. I slept so much, off and on, today that I actually thought it had gone into the next day and Christmas was yesterday.

I didn't get to eat anything involving my grandma's gravy since before August. I'm FUCKING PISSED! All I ate today was 5 chicken wings and 2 of those appetizer sized spinach quiches.
Now you tell me, what kinda fucking Christmas is this?

No FAMILY? No GRAVY?
I am too through with this living in North Carolina bullshit.

*sparks up*

You wouldn't believe how many times I open a different tab of my page and listen to a song loop over and overr and overrr.... espesh when I'm high. It's fucking great!

click-clack.

My grades were buns. (I refuse to publicly embarrass myself so I'm not telling you my shit.)

I just got done painting my nails. None of my roommates are here. I have the ONLY chocolate craving and it's not even "that time."

Work be chewing my ass, man. Gotta open by myself again tmrw so that means I gotta be there @ 7:30 and do all those fucking morning tasks by myself. It's whatevs though, my paycheck will definitely be Whole Foods-healthy. YUM!

Idk what I'm doing for NYE yet. I'm not one for planned nights (shit always gets fucked up somehow) but right now I got nothing. Let's hope I don't end up drinking rum & cokes and ordering movies ondemand in the den @ my grandparents house while grandma makes snacks downstairs. -- I've done that one too many times before.

Masturbation and marijuana for the remainder of the evening? Good plan, Aliyah!

8 days until Jrsy.

my well thought out xmas list:

Email me and I will forward you my shipping information. Thank you in advance! :]

1. Nike Terminator - "Day and Night" - I don't get around the way I used to in sneakers. Nor do I typically deal with anything that's not an air max. But these shits with the straps + studs is doing something to me.


2. Palladio Lip Stain in Orchid - Best lip stain ever.


3. The rent and gas paid for a month. That'd be bananas.

4.Mimoco - Hello Kitty Balloon USB - So cutee!


5. Sally Hansen - Ionic-Ceramic Tourmaline Dryer -


6. A puppy from the shelter!

7. Sprint - HTC Hero - (I think)


8. A new weed grinder - Someone stole my old one, shitty potheads.


9. The Andy Warhol Diaries - After watching I Shot Andy Warhol and Factory Girl they just made him seem so strange and misunderstood and I love strange people.


10. 2010 Honda Accord Crosstour - This shit is fucking dope. The Infiniti G35 is my favorite car but if we are talking about new-new shit, this is my babyy!

friday the 13th.

I'm superstitious. I believe that crazy shit happens on the nights of full moons, I believe that the world is going to end in 2012, and I believe in Friday the 13th.

So none of this stuff was surprising when it happened:

Some old guy approaches me in the gas station and pays for my gas then gives me his number and tells me that he's willing to do 'whatever I want him to do for me.' I took the damn gas and his number. (Momma didn't raise no fool.) But I will not be calling him. He REALLY creeped me out because he was looking at me and licking his lips like I was a plate of bbq short ribs! And he was unattractive - when I said I was looking for a sugar daddy I meant pure cane sugar, not store brand artificial sweetener.

Then me and mommy go out to lunch and some dude literally runs at of my car when I'm pulling out of the parking lot and when I stopped he pops his head into the passenger side window and tells me that he had to stop me. Something about 'having to do what it takes to approach a pretty lady. UGH! He was also older idk maybe in his late 30's, but that shit was also just very weird. I took 'his number but, like the other guy, I don't think I'll be calling him, EVER!

I went to the game with my roommates and one of them lost her keys at the game.

Later, the dude who lives in the apartment above me that I smoked with in the beginning of the year knocked on my door and I chilled with him and his boys outside on the balcony for a little bit. I had started avoiding him because, even though he's cool, I was in no way attracted to him and all that excessive texting blew mine! Plus we don't really speak so it was weird that he decided to knock on the door on Friday. Him and his boys are all from NY so we were just talking about life in the south and all that bullshit. Then they invited me to smoke with them but I was supposed to go on a little date thing so I declined.

So I go to meet the dude at Dave and Busters and it was weird because he introduced me to his very hood friends and some chicks. It was just one of those awk "....Hey." introductions. We played a few games and he got me a carebear with his tickets. Then his girl cousins from somewhere else in NC were visiting so he introduces me to them and that was uberweird. To me it's just not kosher to introduce dates to the family the very first time you go out.

We wanted to smoke so we leave there and go to The Waffle House. Which is kinda like the IHOP of the south I guess. Except it's open 24hrs, the food is gross, and actually I don't know if they're everywhere but there's alot in NC. We waited 1.5 hrs and there was just hella stalling and shit because they couldn't find any. So his cousins got tired of waiting and go home and then me and my date decide to go to his apartment for a little and since he lives with his other boy cousins he called one of them to open the door. He prefaced the situation by telling me that they are like devout Christians and just to know what I'm walking into. Next thing I know I'm being interrogated about my life and whether I know Jesus at 3am by his 3 cousins!

I can hold a conversation with a fucking Klan member if I have to so it wasn't that I had a problem with that but the situation as a whole was a little off putting. For one, I felt like they were judging me like I'm some kind of whore walking in with him at 3am in 5 inch heels, yet we didn't even go into his room. Also because I said I don't go to church and I think it's boring I feel like they were wondering what was wrong with me. Then, to add more to the matter they are telling me that drinking and smoking are sins and asking me if I do either. It was just a bit much at 3am.

We leave there and go back to The Waffle House to see if they found any bud. But on the way I get pulled over for making and illegal U. FML! I didn't get a ticket so I was happy. I decide it was really late so I left, we hugged and said our goodbyes and I leave there around 4am.

But then I get pulled over again, on the highway, for running a stop sign like 3 miles back. (No, ticket again! :] )

Overall, the night was just fucking weird! And the next time we have another Friday the 13th will be on August 2010 so be prepared everyone!

P.S. I got a 30 yesterday and smoked all 3 L's in 24hours. Too bad it was garbage grass. :(

the good, the bad, the ugly.

the good:

-- I got accepted into UNC. yayy!
(even though I have mixed feelings about this cuz i really wanna stay in jersey) *sad face*

-- I got a job working @ my school for this summer academic program for highschool & middle school kids.

-- 1 more day until my bday. Gimme like 6 stacks and a batch of cupcakes lmfao.

the bad:

-- My uncle passed last night in some sort of freak boating accident. I found out @ 8am today when I was on my way to Philly. My bday week will never be the same.

-- I move out early tmrw morning which means that this is the last night I will see my school.

the ugly:

-- your faceeee (SIKE!!)




I love being with my mom because she buys me thangss. We splurgedd today =] and I didn't even do my bday shopping yet so who knowwss what else I'll get.



Sometimes I wish things never had to come to an end...


EDIT: BLOGGER IS SLIPPIN' ON THEY PIMPIN' TODAY!! WHAT'S GOOD WITH THE MISSING PICS AND SHEIIT?! C'MON!

i'm probably in the sky, flying with the fishes.

hii everybody.

-- i don't understand why some chicks do the shit they do. like my friend who RANDOMLY pops her booty when we're around dudes & shit thinking it's cute. shit makes her look thirsty, and it just gets real awkward @ times.

-- mothers day aint shit when your mommy's not in the same state.

-- Will people finally stop acting like smoking weed is so taboo if when they legalize it?

-- I wanna see this "Drag Me to Hell" movie.



-- I just murdered a chicken parm sandwich. MMMmmmMMmmmmMMMMMMmmmmmmm! (And I'd love a cold ass Peach Snapple to wash it down with.

I'm out. I'm getting the best head massage right now that I know is bouta put me down.

happy cinco de mayo!

If today isn't the day to drink shots of patron and go to tacobell, idk when is.

holiDAZE.

I went from intending on spending my Sunday in my room, cleaning and finishing up my hw to deciding on a spontaneous whim to meet up with X who called and invited me out. He's a sweet guy and the fact that I've known him since I was 14 is a plus, PLUS. (So we can skip all that awkward 'oh do u like this?, have u lived in jersey all your life?' bullshit) And I know his mom & she loves me lol.

Well we put it in the air, then he took me to a hookah lounge and then we sparked up again and the FUCKING COPS show up! WTF?! That shit blew mine because we were sitting in the parking lot of his complex HOTBOXING and I know the cop smelled/saw all the smoke that came out when I rolled the window down & this nigga was like "PHEW! What are you doing smoking cigars in here?.. It reeks!"... That shit had me buggin.

But this was a beautiful way for me to bring in my 4/20.. I'll update on how I my day ends up! AOWW!

P.S. Asher Roth's mixtape drops today. I heard like 2 songs from it so far and despite the flop that is, I Love College, they're pretty hot.

The holiday season is here.

So it's time to break out the mistletoe & wrapping paper and $$$.

My Christmas list is always really hard for me to make. But this year I think I've come up with the perfect list.

I want 'Santa' to bring me...

1. A man
2. A hookah
3. An impeccable vibrator (in case I don't get the man I asked for)
4. A MacBook Air
5. A million dollars
6. A time machine so I can return to the beginning of the semester and actually attend class.
7. An Ipod Touch
8. A diet that actually works
9. Clothes, shoes, jewelry.. all of the basics.

I think that's a pretty reasonable list.

I got a tatt.

'amore' = aliyah(me), margaret(gma), ollie(great gma), robin(mommy), elma(nana)

umm what else?
Thanksgiving was quite fun. Me & my family had a blast, you know the bottles were on deck ;] & afterwards I went out with Vanessa to see CC & we blew down with that crew. Thank God I stashed some chicken from my gmas house for me to eat after bc I had the munchies like a muhfucka!

Just got done watching "the Clique" & now I'm downloading music because my playlist needs some TLC.

toodles.