shit's real.

What's POPPINGton, Gawd? Here's a "New Yawk minnit":



Let it rain-clear it out. *Harlem shakes out of the room*
Sidebar: a. The girl in the stripes is a cosigner/wingman. b. The last minute of this video is fucking hilarious.

AND, If you're not familiar with "Lethal Lipps," you must not have seen THIS!:
*EXPLICIT SHIT* NSFW!!!



She is a nasty but for some odd, incomprehensible reason I find this shit entertaining!

What's chompin'?

OH YEAHHH! Shoutout to all my new followers. I luhhh dat.

if you just wanna read some pointless, random shit....

I miss street vendors. That's one thing that the "city" of Charlotte is missing. No city is complete without old, foreigners selling $7 rings made of random stones and metals or cheaply made $5 glasses or $5 belts. :(

I got a job as keyholder at Claire's. I was gonna post this a long time ago, when I was really nervous about whether I'd get hired or not despite me meeting the DM, but I didn't because I feel like blogger is cursed. Everytime I post about something it goes to shit. (Oh well, I'm superstitious and it doesn't make sense but just rock with me.)

LALALA I want a fucking pound of weed. I have ridiculous cravings and it's just so fucking annoying now that I haven't smoked in over a month! I'm getting irritable. On the plus side, if I needed to take a drug test now would be the most opportune timing.

I'm really trying to figure out what I'm gonna do when my lease is up. I don't really like the apartments I live in because it's mostly college kids that live here and the owners know that, so they take advantage of it by slacking on maintenance and things of that nature. Also I don't think my living situation is the best. I have 3 female roommates. I already have an unforgiving and intolerant nature so throw 3 random females into the equation and, like Clark Kent I turn into *dun dun dun DUNNNN!* UBERBITCH! There is lots of shade, side eyes, and stank faces thrown their way when I see nasty crumbs on the counters or when an ignorant ass lets the fucking garbage bag fall into the bin and still putting shit inside it. I really need to minimize my stress by at least getting into a living situation where I will only have to deal with 1 other person's reckless bullshit.

I just heard a pop outside that sounded like a gun shot and I didn't even flinch. But let a group of niggas walk by, my ass will jet towards the window and peep through the blinds. NOSEY OLD LADY GAME PROPER!

I miss a time when life was simpler and my only care in the world was what class I was gonna cut, what I was gonna wear tomorrow, how I was gonna get liquor and sneak out for the house party on the weekend and whose parents were gonna let them borrow the car. (aka highschool) When you're a youngin you think you can handle, and actually sort of embrace, the responsibility of being "grown" but now I wish I could turn back the hands of time. Shit like paying for gas and even buying groceries and shit for the house is just TOO FUCKING MUCH! I really used to underestimate my mother's responsibilities as a parent and now I realize I owe her the world! Life is fucking expensive. And why the fuck does aluminum foil cost a fucking arm and a leg?

A fight just happened outside my building. *shrugs*

School mannn... I might try to take a majority of online classes next semester cuz I just don't want to get out my fucking BED sometimes! And the crazy shit is, I try to say that I'm not lazy because I don't wanna get out of my bed to sit in a class but I'll hop the fuck up and throw on my shox to hit the gym in a heartbeat. My fucking priorities be all skewed and shit

You probably already know this but I loveeee green tea! :)

I hope weed gets fucking legalized soon. Let's ALL party!
Also, I don't understand how people will drink but when the topic of weed gets brought up it's "I DON'T FUCK WITH THAT SHIT?!" Like its blasphemous. Oh, so you'll put chemicals and toxins in your body, and ruin your liver, but won't smoke this natural herb? OH, OK! Makes perfect sense.

I need some fucking eccentricity in my life! The south is basic as hell.
SB: I'm really gonna try to stop bashing the south like I don't live here now. I don't want people to think that I think I'm better than them just cuz I'm from NJ. It's a compilation of reasons why I'm better so I'll try not to make that the most significant one. LMAO!

I think I'm gonna start using Flickr more. I don't use it because I'm lazy and I hate exploring new sites and getting all aquainted, I'm too preoccupied with shit that matters. But I take alot of pics on my bb so after I get that shit on and poppin I'll post a link somewhere I guess.

My nipples hurt and 739 pimples just appeared on my face. Guess my period will be making it's comeback for the month of November sometime soon. ([/enthusiasm] /sarcasm)

Blahzay blahh. Woo woo. Yee yee and all dat.

a few late night confessions.

It's 3:32am... About that time for some late night chat.

So here's 33 confessions and my 2 cents on something random:

1. I'm not ready for winter yet because I didn't go winter coat shopping. Once I get at least 2 winter coats, I will be ready.

2. I hate small talk and I am very curt with those who insist on chatting with me.

3. I hope I have a daughter so I can buy her every little pink thing I see.

4. Since no one else will, I am going to add Melody Eshani dickriding to the list of trends/concepts that are played out and overrated. Also add to the list Hellz Bellz and most of the urban fashion that finds it's way to karmaloop.com.

5. I wish little evil things on people like hoping they fall down a small set of stairs or something. >;]

6. I could pick my pussy out of a line up of pussies. Can you?

7. I fucking hate everyone who works at Walmart. It's like someone had a mission to bug me so they hired a slew of hoodboogers. Except for that one time the cashier gave me $19 back instead of $9. That was a small blessing.

8. I get really antsy when I drink coffee.

9. I cannot feign enthusiasm for my life. If I'm not interested in something, my tone of voice will let you know it.

10. I don't think I can come up with 33 random things. That was very narcissistic of me.

11. I pulled out my 1st grade class picture and decided to friend request all the people that I could find on facebook a couple days ago.

12. I would serial kill for a new car right now. I want a '09 ANYTHING!

13. I will not eat/drink anything if it is even the day before the "Use By" date.

14. I know, like, only 1 person is going to read this... myself, 3 times so I can check for spelling and grammatical errors.

15. I can't drive anywhere without my ipod hooked up in my car. Not kidding.

16. I HATEEE when people fart in my presence! That is some rude behavior.

17. I used to be a little ass klepto when I was younger.

18. I pick out all of the soggy french fries. If they don't stand up straight they gettin' tossed.

19. I assume all overweight people are lazy.

20. I like cleaning the hairs out of my brush.

21. I don't like ketchup.

22. I need some sort of air recirculation where ever I am so my fan is almost always on.

23. I like being naked.

24. I will not leave my house with my scarf on.

25. I think elderly Asians are cute.

26. I cannot sleep with jeans on, at all.

27. I don't spend my money wisely.

28. I am scared of all night creatures (racoons, possums, bats etc.)

29. I am not scared of human beings at all. And I truly feel that I am strong enough to put in work on anybody if I have to. I don't care how buff you are, I'm not scared of you.

30. I played Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz the summer of 6th grade. That is one of my childhood highlights. LOL

31. I get bored with people really quickly.

32. I refuse to use toothpaste gel. It HAS to be in paste form or there will be problems. (The gel-paste combo is also acceptable.)

33. I think I have a sleeping disorder.

My 2 cents will be on Forever 21:



You have all seen or heard of this store. Everybody and their god-damn mommy shops there. I am tired of seeing their $38 black gladiator heels and $16 flower jewelry on every chick from here to St. Croix. There is nothing there that you won't see on one girl today and another tomorrow. I don't think that women over the age of 21 understand that it is named "FOREVER 21" for a reason (you can slide until you're 26). There should be no reason that I see 30-somethings scouring the racks and pushing 14 year olds aside. Take your ass to New York and Company or Express! Also, their garments are poorly made.

That will be all.

get gully.

I hate to say I told ya' so but I knew this was gonna happen:

So my roommate and I almost fought yesterday. We had just left the club where her nagging ass was complaining the whole time about how bored she was and yadda yadda. I actually felt bad because, at one point, she even went outside to sit by herself while me and my other roommate danced but I guess she feels a little insecure because at 6'4" she stands out towers over most dudes.

BUT ANYWAYS, We get in the car and I'm like "Well did you dance in high school?" and she's like "We usually would just dance in a circle." So I'm like hmmm... "Like old people?" Yeah it was a little joke but it wasn't that serious. Then she goes on about how her grandma practically raised her and she "grew up with morals and values she she doesn't grind on dudes."

And I'm thinking to myself like... THE FUCK SHE TRYNA SAY, I DON'T HAVE MORALS?

So I keep my cool and bypass the insinuation, all the while, try to ration with her and tell her that most grandmas would say that kind of dancing is inappropriate because of the generational difference.

SO (here goes the drama) she goes on to say that:

• I always have something to say about somebody/something.
• I speak to people too aggressively.
  
• I am "a fucking bully."
• I think I can talk to anybody how I want because I'm from Jersey.
• I am "a disrespectful ass bitch."
• I am mean as hell.
• I need to humble myself.
  

ALL THE WHILE SCREAMING THIS SHIT @ ME ON THE WAY HOME WHILE OUR OTHER ROOMIE'S DRIVING.

OK... now.... *deep breath*.......

When I say it took EVERY OUNCE OF MY ENTIRE fucking inner-being not to haul off and punch this bitch in the back of her head, I MEAN THAT SHIT.

Calling me out of my name alone is means for a curb stomp but shorty really tried to go in on me.

Mind you she is in my face all day everyday asking me what I'm doing or asking me why I say certain words the way that I do, trying to mimic the way I talk, doing little bothersome shit that like... little sisters do to their big sisters. (I can't think of a better description.)

AND we had a fucking house meeting last wk on some bullshit yet I was basically the only one who spoke about my issues.

I told them then, "If you have a problem with anything that I do you need to open your mouths because problems won't get solved if you don't say anything," and I told them, "be real with me because I don't respect people who don't keep it 100."

I also don't understand how the fuck a grown ass woman, who's 6'4 can feel bullied by an equally grown woman who is 5'3. That shit is ironic as hell and it just don't make sense.
As far as me speaking aggressively, it may be my dialect or accent or whatever or the cultural differences but I really don't know what the fuck she's talking about. Nor do I plan on finding out because I've been who I am since May 16, 1990 and will not be changing who I am 19 yrs later for one lonely soul. And that Jersey statement just made her sound like a pussy.

Last but not least.
These are the only conditions under which I would need to humble myself:
1. When speaking to my mother; she birthed me.
2. When speaking to an elder; it is respectful.
3. (To an extent) In situations with my man; dick is a powerful thing.
4. When speaking to my boss; he writes the check.

Any situation other than the above do not call for me to "humble myself" because motherfucker I'm grown.

And so I went off on her something ill because... bitch, who the fuck you think you are? And it didn't stop until we got home. We argued, threw the b-word around and shit until we got home. My other poor roommate didn't even say a word. And also she basically asked if I was moving out or she and I told her "I'm not going no where."

So idk what's gonna happen now but shit, all is said and done. I really think she has some sort of underlying issue with who I am and my personality and it all just came out but shit I never change. If I changed myself to accommodate those who had a problem with who I am, I would never know the real me.

And I am also very proud of myself because I truly feel like I am growing into an adult. Had this confrontation happened 2 yrs ago I would've been on the shoulder of the highway fighting like she hurt my mother (that's the thought that used to get me hype in my head back in school).

I'll keep yous updated on everything.

ehh...

Maybe I'm growing out of the whole blogging thing, though. I mean, how many times can I see pics of Amber Rose in Complex mag, videos of Joe Budden and other trivial bullshit?

Cuz really, I don't give a fuck about 90% of the shit I see. Aside from the fact that I never really give a fuck about anything that doesn't have anything to do with me and mines, I can see through alot of people and it's just UGLY.

Hmm.. idk. I'm giving myself 10 days to decide whether I wanna be part of "social networking" sites or whether I just want to only focus on the people and things that are directly in front of me. People that I can physically see and touch; people that can't hide behind the good pictures that they weeded out of the batch of webcam pictures that they took; people that I don't feel like the world ends when a celebrity does something different to their hair; people that can't put up this facade of leading a lifestyle that doesn't even exist.

I see some of these characters on the internet re-creating their fucking lives. Trying to impress people that they'll never see. Some people that I know, in person, like... NIGGA, I KNOW YOU! YOU ARE NOT THAT! Some folks fronting for people that don't even live in the same state as them and probably don't even know what their real name is because they only know them by their internet names.

Eh.. it's getting kind of sickening. Real talk, I'm not gonna sit on my computer and type shit that sounds good for yall. Everybody is trying too fucking hard. The internet is looking corny right about now.

let's get real random.

The mall -
I hate the mall because everybody buys the same shit. The Hollisters all wear leather flip flops, cardis with camis underneath and jeans with a few tears in em. The Foreverers all have bright ass shit on. The Urban Outfitters are trend mongers/hipsters. I wear all of this shit so I'm talking about myself too. But I am a choosy ass bitch so I can walk into the mall with $300 and walk out with a cinnamon sugar pretzel and lemonade from Auntie Anne's. I sincerely HATE the mall. Plus I hate teenagers and the groups of boys that tried to put on fresh jays just to go to the mall or the girls who wore heels to find a man at the mall, with no bills in their pocket, y'know The Try Harders.

Weed -
I really think if people smoked more they'd see the beauty in the world and not have ulcers or stress over things that aren't stress worthy. While I was smoking about a dub in a honey dutch, I'm sitting on the porch watching the rain pour over the trees and I was just reflecting on life and how beautiful and serene nature can be. AND I HATE NATURE!

The color yellow -
I really have self-debates over whether I like the color yellow. In a line up of the colors red, orange, blue and yellow, I'd pick yellow. But I prefer flourescent yellow over goldenrod. I like the neon version of yellow but most other yellows are just plain ugly to me. RANDOM: I have a yellow buddah on my keys.

Grape vodka -
Has been sitting on the coffee table in my room since I came back from school and I haven't finished it yet. Now it's staring at me.

Pimples -
I AM 19 FUCKING YEARS OLD! WHY AM I STILL GETTING PIMPLES?!

Converse - Chuck Taylors -
They never look good fresh out the box. They need like the perfect amount of scuffs on the word "All Star" and dirt on the toe. So they look used.

RANDOM WISH:
I wish I knew how to just like be a good student and get good grades in school. I have no focus or something. I always start out good and every new semester I'm always like "Yeah, This year you're gonna DO ITTT GIRL! You're gonna get all A's and go to office hours and study in the library." But it's always the 2nd month into the semester I start fuckin up. It's really starting to blow mine because I wanna brag about my GPA but my shit is booty butt cheeks right now =[ FML!

Zoe Kravitz -
Bangerrrr!

The mute button -
Is a priority button on the remote. Why is it always so hidden? I press mute more than I turn the volume up or down.

Followers/Following -
I LOVEEE YOU, FOLLOWERS!!!! I wish some of you would comment more. But it's all G. I'm just gonna assume some of u are shy or something LOL. And I follow people like it's my job. I think I need to fall back on the follow button. =X

I'm done. I understand many people will not read this because this shit is random as hell. Love you if you read this!
Toodles, noodles.