what happened?

I'm sitting here listening to old Kanye. (Pre-Graduation, mixtapes, unreleased IMO) and I really have no clue what happened? I feel like I'm 1 of 20 of his remaining fans. I love old 'Ye. LOVE! I am still in love with THAT man. I don't really appreciate this new guy. And I blame Jay Z! He ruined my favorite rapper. Yeah he put him on but I'm sure, that it was bound to happen anyway. This man is too motivated to not have been successful. And I'm hurt! My favorite rapper died. His shit is not classic anymore, it creates controversy but it's not genuine. It doesn't tell the same story. It doesn't send the same message and doesn't give us the same positive/conscious vibe that it once did. Just words and music, words and music.

'Ye you have disappointed me. I guess when the struggle isn't the same, the output isn't either but damn you sold the fuck out. And your fans miss you Kanye.

x_x

doing the most.

Plz take the time out of your day to watch this. This shit is epic.


Ummm..... *blank stare*

Some of the funny comments:
"Lil mama wasnt invited, she just showed up!!"

"YO LIL MAMA ADMITTED TO BEING A MAN SHE SAID "AND I BE DOIN MY THING LIKE LIL MAN MAN....AHAHAHAHAH SHES A MAN MAN!!!"

"yo Nicki Minaj n lola luv should rumble cuz they both claim to be hard then they should eat each other out cuz they claim to be freaks"

one common goal: attain relevancy

My thoughts on the Shitty Coins "movement."

0:14 - Really, Diddy, a grill in? In '09?

0:24 - WHOAA! Sean Combs is giving me FEVUH! WORRRRRKKK!

0:29 - "It's that Dirty Money!" ...I'm seeing a trend here.

*Bops head* The beat is iight though.

0:33 - Channeling her inner Macy Gray.

0:42 - Does anyone understand what she's saying?

0:45 - I can tell SOMEONE is feeling real relevant in this video. ::cough:: DAWN!! ::cough::

0:51 - EW! Them shoulder moves exhibit unacceptable behavior. That's annoying.

1:10 - They should have had a warning in the beginning of this video. That strobe light shit is gonna cause seizures.

1:16 - Is that the Jabbawockis? They get hella cameos.

1:41 - I REALLY want Dawn to stop moving her fucking shoulders and winding. *gags*

1:44 - False alarm: That's not the Jabbawockis. It's probably Lori Ann and her minions.

2:08 - OHH SHITT! Diddy took it wayyy back. Nigga did the "cry baby" dance on the wall. If you don't know that dance you're not black!

2:11 - Cassie should be rotating with them in this scene considering she's the only other person on the Bad Boy roster. Might as well make it a complete square.

-Those dancers are random as HAILLL. How do they tie into the whole theme?
-Ugh just the thought of Dawn probably thinking "I'm a bad bitch!" in this video is making me queasy.

2:55 - Back.

2:57 - The Fuck.

2:59 - Up! DAMN!!! Diddy's mouth is not aesthetically pleasing to the eye. Thoughts of open mouth breathing, heavy sighs and thick saliva collecting near his gum line. *shudders*

3:03 - Finally! A close up of those dollar store earrings. Smh.

3:28 - Dawn's jacket is kinda hot.

3:35 - I SEE YOU, BECKY!

3:39 - More? :(

I guess that's it. Overall they have alot of energy in the video. All that winding and arm movement shit was uncalled for but I'm not surprised at the lack of interesting content, look who we're fuckin with - bland ass Dawn, mute Other Girl and man tiddies Diddy. :-\ No one is checkin for nan a person in this video. (Well I'm checkin for Lori Ann if that is, in fact, her and her crew boom kattin' in the background - I will be Googling that). I agree with... everybody in that this is very reminiscent of the 90's, shiny suit era but you know how all old shit makes it's comeback eventually. I'm cool with it, it helps me reflect on my days as a youngin. However if, and when, Spice Girl shoes make a comeback, I will neither be enthused nor partake in that trend. One year of black, crush velvet 2 inch, platform Sketchers is MORE than enough. (Don't judge me.)

NOT IN THE CLUB!

I fuck with the club every now and then but I really can't get with it but so much. Females just tend to look real thirsty and I don't even like chicks like that. Sidebar: I don't get why there are so many bitches in the south! Then I refuse to pay to get into the club because why the hell would I buy my way into a sweaty room with niggas who probably won't even get the balls to speak? PASS!

But when I do decide to make it to the club there is some shit that I'd rather not do or see people doing.

1. Females wearing shoes that are too small/uncomfortable. If your feet are leaning while you are standing in line to get in the club you know damn well that by the end of the night you are gonna be bowlegged.
2. Males wearing white tees to the club. There is like one place where a white tee is still acceptable attire, the basketball court.
3. Females who are on their period. Get you a fudge sundae from dairy queen, go to redbox, pick out a couple movies and STAY THE FUCK HOME! Especially if you know when Get Me Bodied comes on you're gonna wanna "drop down low and sweep the floor with it." *gags*
   
4. Females and Males do not come to the club and text the whole night. Those end up being the same mf'ers who complain that they didn't get any numbers or no one tried to dance with them.
5. Males do not come to the club with the outfit you borrowed from your friend who wore the same thing last week. That shit is tacky and whatspoppin.net will expose your ass!
6. Females be sure to remember that this is not a Soul Train audition. I sometimes wonder how another chick could come out of a club with her whole bang sweated out and smashed onto her forehead and sweat stains on her back. What song were YOU dancing to?
7. Males and Females deodorant and smell goods must be on smash. Triple check -- because you will be forever known as "that musty nigga" next time you arrive on the scene. Don't play yourself.
8. Females you do not have to stay in that unapproachable little pack that us ladies tend to do. Niggas will not approach you or your stank ass friends who think they are too cute for everybody. And I will not accept "I'm not even tryna get niggas ANYWAYS! I just came here to dance." No you didn't! You were expecting to get at least 1 drink and a couple numbers; keep it G.
   
9. Males playing wingman and or suckling the nutsack of your buddies all night is not cool either. It makes us ladies wonder if you're gay or have no confidence to do your own thing.
10. Females you need not wear your trash panties to the club. Put on the semi-sexy shits because the likely pantie exposure that is bound to happen will be EM-BAR-A-SING if you have on dingy Fruit of the Looms.
    
11. Males, "making it rain" got played out in like 1872. Do no throw money in the air and expect classy females to run in their heels to collect. ...FUCK YOU THINK THIS IS?

Take heed.

wasting time with the male species.

I'm done with NF; as I am also done with anything that has a dick attached to it for the time being. (Don't get it twisted, I would never consider women.)

I really am just not trying to deal with dudes because they are all looking for dizzy bitches to run games on and I can't get all emotionally involved in all that bullshit.

I typically keep my feelings guarded but I thought progress was being made so I slipped up. Well, someone spank my hand because look where I am... back at Square 1.

Square 1 isn't that bad though, because when I'm here I'm heartless, unaccommodating, ruthless, foul, and inconsiderate... but my feelings don't get hurt.

It's that 3rd square that always gets me fucked up in the game. When I get a little comfortable with a nigga. (Square 2 is where I feel a dude out and seeing if he can pass the preliminary tests, Square 4 is 'ALL IN')

So, I'm officially on a dating/talking/relationship hiatus right now. Meaning it's time to get the popcorn ready and fluff the pillows as I sit back in the reclining leather chair in Square 1.

Not to mention, I'm sexually frustrated as a MUH. >x[ -- that's the sexual frustration face LOL

get gully.

I hate to say I told ya' so but I knew this was gonna happen:

So my roommate and I almost fought yesterday. We had just left the club where her nagging ass was complaining the whole time about how bored she was and yadda yadda. I actually felt bad because, at one point, she even went outside to sit by herself while me and my other roommate danced but I guess she feels a little insecure because at 6'4" she stands out towers over most dudes.

BUT ANYWAYS, We get in the car and I'm like "Well did you dance in high school?" and she's like "We usually would just dance in a circle." So I'm like hmmm... "Like old people?" Yeah it was a little joke but it wasn't that serious. Then she goes on about how her grandma practically raised her and she "grew up with morals and values she she doesn't grind on dudes."

And I'm thinking to myself like... THE FUCK SHE TRYNA SAY, I DON'T HAVE MORALS?

So I keep my cool and bypass the insinuation, all the while, try to ration with her and tell her that most grandmas would say that kind of dancing is inappropriate because of the generational difference.

SO (here goes the drama) she goes on to say that:

• I always have something to say about somebody/something.
• I speak to people too aggressively.
  
• I am "a fucking bully."
• I think I can talk to anybody how I want because I'm from Jersey.
• I am "a disrespectful ass bitch."
• I am mean as hell.
• I need to humble myself.
  

ALL THE WHILE SCREAMING THIS SHIT @ ME ON THE WAY HOME WHILE OUR OTHER ROOMIE'S DRIVING.

OK... now.... *deep breath*.......

When I say it took EVERY OUNCE OF MY ENTIRE fucking inner-being not to haul off and punch this bitch in the back of her head, I MEAN THAT SHIT.

Calling me out of my name alone is means for a curb stomp but shorty really tried to go in on me.

Mind you she is in my face all day everyday asking me what I'm doing or asking me why I say certain words the way that I do, trying to mimic the way I talk, doing little bothersome shit that like... little sisters do to their big sisters. (I can't think of a better description.)

AND we had a fucking house meeting last wk on some bullshit yet I was basically the only one who spoke about my issues.

I told them then, "If you have a problem with anything that I do you need to open your mouths because problems won't get solved if you don't say anything," and I told them, "be real with me because I don't respect people who don't keep it 100."

I also don't understand how the fuck a grown ass woman, who's 6'4 can feel bullied by an equally grown woman who is 5'3. That shit is ironic as hell and it just don't make sense.
As far as me speaking aggressively, it may be my dialect or accent or whatever or the cultural differences but I really don't know what the fuck she's talking about. Nor do I plan on finding out because I've been who I am since May 16, 1990 and will not be changing who I am 19 yrs later for one lonely soul. And that Jersey statement just made her sound like a pussy.

Last but not least.
These are the only conditions under which I would need to humble myself:
1. When speaking to my mother; she birthed me.
2. When speaking to an elder; it is respectful.
3. (To an extent) In situations with my man; dick is a powerful thing.
4. When speaking to my boss; he writes the check.

Any situation other than the above do not call for me to "humble myself" because motherfucker I'm grown.

And so I went off on her something ill because... bitch, who the fuck you think you are? And it didn't stop until we got home. We argued, threw the b-word around and shit until we got home. My other poor roommate didn't even say a word. And also she basically asked if I was moving out or she and I told her "I'm not going no where."

So idk what's gonna happen now but shit, all is said and done. I really think she has some sort of underlying issue with who I am and my personality and it all just came out but shit I never change. If I changed myself to accommodate those who had a problem with who I am, I would never know the real me.

And I am also very proud of myself because I truly feel like I am growing into an adult. Had this confrontation happened 2 yrs ago I would've been on the shoulder of the highway fighting like she hurt my mother (that's the thought that used to get me hype in my head back in school).

I'll keep yous updated on everything.

ehh...

Maybe I'm growing out of the whole blogging thing, though. I mean, how many times can I see pics of Amber Rose in Complex mag, videos of Joe Budden and other trivial bullshit?

Cuz really, I don't give a fuck about 90% of the shit I see. Aside from the fact that I never really give a fuck about anything that doesn't have anything to do with me and mines, I can see through alot of people and it's just UGLY.

Hmm.. idk. I'm giving myself 10 days to decide whether I wanna be part of "social networking" sites or whether I just want to only focus on the people and things that are directly in front of me. People that I can physically see and touch; people that can't hide behind the good pictures that they weeded out of the batch of webcam pictures that they took; people that I don't feel like the world ends when a celebrity does something different to their hair; people that can't put up this facade of leading a lifestyle that doesn't even exist.

I see some of these characters on the internet re-creating their fucking lives. Trying to impress people that they'll never see. Some people that I know, in person, like... NIGGA, I KNOW YOU! YOU ARE NOT THAT! Some folks fronting for people that don't even live in the same state as them and probably don't even know what their real name is because they only know them by their internet names.

Eh.. it's getting kind of sickening. Real talk, I'm not gonna sit on my computer and type shit that sounds good for yall. Everybody is trying too fucking hard. The internet is looking corny right about now.

and.

I just bust my ass walking down the stairs with hella laundry in my hand. >=[
I hate everything lol.

errbody wanna spit.

*CAUTION* Dizzy broad below! May cause impeded speech.



-- Is she reading off a teleprompter that moves in one horizontal strip at an extremely slow speed? Imagine holding a conversation with this one.

-- She is making her speech so much more deep than it really is. Just say you used your cakes to extend your 15 minutes.

-- She's still a pretty ass female though.

-- She has alot of determination too (I admire that). She sounds adamant about putting out out shitty rap. Aiighht then, do what it do!

If you haven't seen her 1st music video yet it's below. You need to see it so you can also be confuzzled as to why she's trying to substantiate her rap career.

smh.

Kelis is my girl and all but.... she's fckn STUPIDDDD!


Nas = sexy. ill. hip-hop legend.

Smh.. some chicks just don't appreciate the shit they have.

uhh... YUCKK!

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smh.

via: thisiswhyyourefat.com

this some ol' BULLSHIT!

Why the hell is my tax return estimate $49?
W H A T T H E F U C K !

Yes, you read it correctly, FORTY-NINE DOLLARS! And the website that I filled my taxes out on is gonna charge me $34.95 to submit my taxes (and I can't deduct that from my return to pay it off.) Leaving me with a real total of like $14.05 or some shit! OH HELL NO, not dipping into MY Bank of America account!

UGH if this aint some ol' bullshit idk WHAT is.

AND SO... I will not be filing taxes for the year of 2008