2 hrs later...

I'm still not reading. I'm shoe shopping online like an addict. Fuck my life. Fuck 2:53am. Fuck American Influence in Horror Literature. Fuck always feeling like I need more shoes.

*Dies*

quickie.

Ima type this shit up real quick and then Ima get back to my homework.

Things for this past month have been on the up and up for me... which is good. It's a new semester. Rent is paid. I got to buy myself some nice late christmas gifts (32g itouch [i've been planning my savings for that since nov.] some sneakers [despite how much I claim I don't wear them anymore] the spizikes, and since i got my refund check also *cha-ching* I just went hog wild and got flu games too).

I jailbroke my ipod and now I get to put things like weed backgrounds on it ;] Yahoozie!

Me and mommy are straight. Every situation I have with every nigga that I talk to right now is good. So I'm a happy camper.

I didn't stop smoking.

I got blasted drunk last night and we had a mini-party where apparently I kissed this white guys stomach who had a huge lion head tatt covering the whole thing. *shrugs*
(I lowkey like white guys though so this doesn't actually surprise me, one bit.)

And errumm... that's enough shameful admissions for one day.

Me and my roommate just had an argument because she put my clothes on top of the washer instead of putting them into the dryer or at least saying something like an ol' ignant ass. I don't leave my clothes in the washer like that but my mom needed me to do something for her so I dropped what I was doing.

Idk.. I'm trying to grow as a person and see the error in my ways more but I just don't see how I'm wrong for expecting someone to speak up or be a little selfless.

And that about sums up everything.

I would post a pic but that's mad work to upload and blahh blahh blahh... Maybe nxt time.

FINALS CAN SMD!

I really hate this shit! It is so overwhelming come the end of the semester and sometimes I just wanna get it over with so much that I don't even think about it. It's either I UNDERstress or OVERstress. It's always an extreme with me and it can never be anything normal. There was alot of pressure and crazy shit going on with me this semester and it's definitely been wearing me down. I sleep all the time, I feel depressed, I always feel like I'm worn out and I have this bad habit of clenching my teeth when I'm stressed out which, in turn causes more stress. I'm going to see a doctor about everything tomorrow because it's really time for me to get all of this together. I don't wanna see myself have another semester of shitty grades or even mediocre grades. That's not right. I know I put alot of negative pressure on myself sometimes and I don't give myself enough credit for the things I have done successfully but alot of that is because my main priority is school and that's what I keep fucking up with the most. Then on top of that my job takes alot of of me also. My whole day has been consumed since last Monday with either a full day of work or a full day of school. I know that's probably normal but it's starting to stress me out and all of the work I've been doing doesn't give me enough time to study and not feel like I'm overworking myself. I'm just ready for this semester to finally be done and I can start from scratch. I really need to learn how to manage my time better and have normal sleeping patterns because alot of my problems revolve around how irregular my sleeping patterns are and how I how my days in general are irregular. I just really need to get it together.

p.s. I'm jelly, my roommate's cousin is buying her a mac. >=[

20 pet peeves:

A list of 20 things that I cannot fucking stand and will not put up with:

(Feel free to make your own list and comment if you do cuz I wanna read 'em)

1. Fake Uggs. "It's not you, it's your shoes."

2. Slow drivers in the fast lane.

3. When people drop earrings and shit at my job, look at it, then look at me, then try to sneak away. BITCH?!

4. How the TV Guide channel goes through ALLL of the channels. Even the ones we don't have.

5. When my dutch has a crack in it.

6. When my roommate walks hard as hell. Idk if she has flat ass feet or what but her heels sound like they're made of bricks.

7. When people don't wipe their machines off at the gym.

8. When niggas you see everyday come out the woodworks at the end of the semester on facebook, talking about "I been seeing you around." No shit, Sherlock!

9. When my nail polish chips.

10. When my edges get poofy after I exercise. FUUUUUU!!!!!!

11. My mom calling me to say things that she can text me. ex. Liy, the Chinese food place in the shopping center next to me is gooood!
....umm, ok.

12. When I butt dial people on my Bb. It's always the most random people too or a random number like 3. I was on the phone with "3" for about 2 minutes the other day.

13. 30 Facebook notifications for a picture I commented on 2 years ago that two dickwads decide to have a conversation about now.

14. When I try to do something by a certain time and I finish like 6 minutes later.

15. When people idolize simple rappers *cough* Gucci *cough* but will say some underground shit is wack. Why, because you don't hear it 20x a day? Lyricism is an art and I scoff at people who "love hip-hop" but their favorite rappers are Drake and Max B. -_-

16. When my nipples get hard in public. It's just downright offensive.

17. How my roommates always make PLAIN, BOILED vegetables. Them shit's look like mushy and flavorless. At least add some Mrs. Dash!

18. When people yawn or cough in a confined space but don't cover their mouth. Yawning is like a long period of delivering your hot ass breath into the atmosphere, and coughing is germy - COVER YOUR FUCKING MOUTH!

19. When people try to use SAT words but they fuck up the context. ie. patronize, tenacious, ironic, exemplary, parsimonious, thespian etc.

20. When people feel like they have to make hand to hand contact with me in order to give me something at work. Money is already dirty enough I do not need your booger fingers and pretzel crumbs to go with it.

'Tis all.

shit's real.

What's POPPINGton, Gawd? Here's a "New Yawk minnit":



Let it rain-clear it out. *Harlem shakes out of the room*
Sidebar: a. The girl in the stripes is a cosigner/wingman. b. The last minute of this video is fucking hilarious.

AND, If you're not familiar with "Lethal Lipps," you must not have seen THIS!:
*EXPLICIT SHIT* NSFW!!!



She is a nasty but for some odd, incomprehensible reason I find this shit entertaining!

What's chompin'?

OH YEAHHH! Shoutout to all my new followers. I luhhh dat.

insomnia: 06

Umm this whole post is going to be an update/random stream of thought so if you're not up for reading nonsensical information, move it right along, there's nothing to see here.

Let's proceed:

I'm supposed to be going to A&T for homecoming on Halloween but who knows. I hate dressing up, that shit is gay! I'm one of "those people" who say gay for things that I think are wack or corny sometimes. I shouldn't do that because it's politically incorrect (and I love gays). EVERYTHING IS FUCKING POLITICALLY INCORRECT NOW!

I went out with my mom today to see this 'Street Beat' thing. If anybody remembers Stomp when it was on Broadway it was kinda like that. I really am over my mom thinking aloud in my presence. She tells me damn near every fact that pops into her head and it's really annoying. She also sends me texts like this:

"Nt goin 2 ATL. Frnd DJing here, doin garage sale, gt paper du nx Tues."

Normally I shoot people who speak to me in this fashion. But I can't because she's like, my mom... yanno?

I need to get home STAT! I miss everything about it.

Some $ugar daddy material aged, white cheddar was being a little TOO nice to me at the restaurant today. Like, REALLLLLL nice. Like, "Would you like a drink?" nice. I should've exchanged pins with him (although I don't think old people BBM like that) but I was only @ the bar to meet up with my mom and that would've been awkward because he was probably older than her.


I walked into my apartment and the whole thing smelled like boiled ham! I cannot with these bitches. BUT I see Lauren finally decided to wash the 3 days worth of dishes she let pile up. (Ignant ass!) Normally I wash all of the dishes, since everybody else wants to wash dishes as they use them, but I'm not doing that shit anymore. I hardly eat at home anyways because I'm ALWAYS doing something.

I gotta wash my hair and take out my garbage.

The end.

p.s. All songs on the page from now on will now be accompanied with my fav. lyrics or bar OR personal meaning. I don't just pick these songs just because.