summer's close.

Time to not give a fuck. Get naked. Get drunk. Be on my "bad girl." Waste money - mainly on gallons of henny and boxes of dutches. Go out to lunch every day. Moon cars full of cute boys and square looking white people on the highway. Keep my room dirty. Sleep the WHOLE day and wake up @ 6pm. Take adventures. Maintain a bald, bikini pussy. Skip the green pills so I can miss my period. Meet other drunk people and forget I met them.

At some point I'm going to have to grow out of this but I'm not ready yet. Maybe after I turn 21 but I'm determined to make sure that the fun doesn't end now. I have the rest of my life to be bored.

I'm ready for the mundane school days to be over. All I do is go to school and work. Every fucking week it's the same shit. I really need to live again. This feels so boring and I don't want to get used to being bored any time soon.

I spent my whole day in the house. I haven't been to class all week because I was sick and I kinda don't care. I want to care but I really don't. School is becoming so fucking annoying every semester. Maybe because I feel like I'm not doing something that I love. I kinda want to take a semester off and see what I can get myself into. I've been in school for almost 16 years so I don't know what it's like to not be in school. I need a break to figure out who the fuck I am. To be honest, I can't really see my life after I graduate. Being a teacher. Just doing the same boring thing everyday. Teaching kids some bullshit that doesn't even matter in the long run. Ok, the more I talk about it it's starting to piss me off.

You know how many boring people there are in this world? People who do the same shit 5 days out of the week and think that rock climbing on saturdays is walking on the wild side. That can't be the rest of my life. I can't imagine myself being happy with that.

All I care about in this world is shoes. Pray for me, people lol.

debauchery.

Hiya! I'm bored so it's time for an update.

*Me and boyboy are still getting it in. He always does the most in trying to control our "situation." Sometimes I just wanna tell him spare me the theatrics but that would make me seem insensitive and I try to stroke his male ego because we have potential so I just go along with things.

"::GASP:: You can't come over today?.. Aw man, I'm upset....yadda yadda yadda"

What's crazy is he's dying to "just chill" on VDay when I already told him I'm gonna be busy all day. SMH... niggas.

*I met me a doe boy today. *cue Three 6 Mafia - Doe Boy Fresh*

*And dude from my American Horror class is still trying *side-eye* He get's an E for effort and a D in the damn class because he doesn't read the stories we're assigned and instead of paying attention in class he does shit like kick my chair every so often and try to get me to look at him so he can ask for some of my fruit snacks. Ninja please! I'm tryna focus!

Besides that, what it look like?

I been in the mall too fucking much. I'm deciding I'm just gonna hide my debit card in my top drawer until I can get it together and stop shopping. I don't know HOW I spent [insert significant amount of dollars here] yesterday when I was only in the mall for 40 minutes but Bank of America was up bright and early to remind me of that shit on my blackberry alerts. Tsk tsk.

Shoes always get me though. I can tell myself I'm not gonna buy shit but then I step into Aldos and go bonkers. smh... And then I try to take advantage of 5 for $25 @ Vickies everytime I go to the mall because a girl can never have too many panties and I don't buy them anywhere else.

But a bitch gets paidddd tomorrow and the day after that. So it's alllll gravy!

Point is I've fast forwarded my desire for a new car. Hopefully I will be getting one for my birthday as a present to myself. Trying to wait until January is sorta like a no-go because A. I have no patience and B. the more I think about getting a new car the more I'm starting to hate my current car. She's good but it's time to upgrade.

Whoa! Has anybody else tried the new sweet chili dipping sauce @ Mickey D's? I think I'm gonna hafta cheat on bbq for a while and have an affair with sweet chili. OMFG it's so goooooooooooood.

New ink --(click to see it bigger:)





(Disregard my chichos there. That's a work in progress.) I took that the other day, it's healed a little more since then so the color is better set because it looks kinda dull (and dry. The pics I took with ointment had too much glare). I'll prob take another pic by next week so you can see how it looks fully healed.

I bit a huge chunk out of Jessica Alba's swag because she had this one first:


But I thought hers was too ropey looking for my taste, *shrug.*

I like Nivea's bow too but I think that would've been too big for my location:


I'll probably get my 3rd one (the one I want on my foot) around my bday too because by then I'll be able to wear sandals so it can heal better.

I showed my mom and she's like, "When you're older you're not gonna be able to explain the significance of having a red bow above your ass crack, Lee." She got the quick side-eye for that little comment. I told her, "When I'm older my kids will also be doing some bizarre shit that I'm not gonna like."

There's nothing like being young and carefree and privileged enough to do what you want in good measure.

With that being said, a porn star is calling my name in another tab. GOOOOOOOODNIGHT.

surveying 2009.

Got this from one of my fave blog tag teams: Tasteless Diamonds.
1]My favorite album was?
- "Fantasy Ride" - Ciara*

2]Most prized posession?
- My damn job. Niggas are broke out here.

3]Shit I gave up on...
- Trying to go natural. FAIL!

4] Something I fell in love with...
- Cookout.

5] A goal I accomplished was..
-Finding work that was related to my major.

6] Something I changed about myself...
-I lost like 10 pounds. Which may not seem like alot but it is because I'm only 5'3.

7] Favorite Movie-
-Harry Potter and whatever the fuck.

8] I've been wanting it all year...
-A puppy.

9] Historic event-
-I moved outta Jersey. >=[

10] BEST 2009 memory..
-The best memory to leave Jersey with: being stoned "Summer Youth Counselors" with my ace Vanessa. Unforgettable shit.

*I hope you know I'm kidding. I really hope you do.

if you just wanna read some pointless, random shit....

I miss street vendors. That's one thing that the "city" of Charlotte is missing. No city is complete without old, foreigners selling $7 rings made of random stones and metals or cheaply made $5 glasses or $5 belts. :(

I got a job as keyholder at Claire's. I was gonna post this a long time ago, when I was really nervous about whether I'd get hired or not despite me meeting the DM, but I didn't because I feel like blogger is cursed. Everytime I post about something it goes to shit. (Oh well, I'm superstitious and it doesn't make sense but just rock with me.)

LALALA I want a fucking pound of weed. I have ridiculous cravings and it's just so fucking annoying now that I haven't smoked in over a month! I'm getting irritable. On the plus side, if I needed to take a drug test now would be the most opportune timing.

I'm really trying to figure out what I'm gonna do when my lease is up. I don't really like the apartments I live in because it's mostly college kids that live here and the owners know that, so they take advantage of it by slacking on maintenance and things of that nature. Also I don't think my living situation is the best. I have 3 female roommates. I already have an unforgiving and intolerant nature so throw 3 random females into the equation and, like Clark Kent I turn into *dun dun dun DUNNNN!* UBERBITCH! There is lots of shade, side eyes, and stank faces thrown their way when I see nasty crumbs on the counters or when an ignorant ass lets the fucking garbage bag fall into the bin and still putting shit inside it. I really need to minimize my stress by at least getting into a living situation where I will only have to deal with 1 other person's reckless bullshit.

I just heard a pop outside that sounded like a gun shot and I didn't even flinch. But let a group of niggas walk by, my ass will jet towards the window and peep through the blinds. NOSEY OLD LADY GAME PROPER!

I miss a time when life was simpler and my only care in the world was what class I was gonna cut, what I was gonna wear tomorrow, how I was gonna get liquor and sneak out for the house party on the weekend and whose parents were gonna let them borrow the car. (aka highschool) When you're a youngin you think you can handle, and actually sort of embrace, the responsibility of being "grown" but now I wish I could turn back the hands of time. Shit like paying for gas and even buying groceries and shit for the house is just TOO FUCKING MUCH! I really used to underestimate my mother's responsibilities as a parent and now I realize I owe her the world! Life is fucking expensive. And why the fuck does aluminum foil cost a fucking arm and a leg?

A fight just happened outside my building. *shrugs*

School mannn... I might try to take a majority of online classes next semester cuz I just don't want to get out my fucking BED sometimes! And the crazy shit is, I try to say that I'm not lazy because I don't wanna get out of my bed to sit in a class but I'll hop the fuck up and throw on my shox to hit the gym in a heartbeat. My fucking priorities be all skewed and shit

You probably already know this but I loveeee green tea! :)

I hope weed gets fucking legalized soon. Let's ALL party!
Also, I don't understand how people will drink but when the topic of weed gets brought up it's "I DON'T FUCK WITH THAT SHIT?!" Like its blasphemous. Oh, so you'll put chemicals and toxins in your body, and ruin your liver, but won't smoke this natural herb? OH, OK! Makes perfect sense.

I need some fucking eccentricity in my life! The south is basic as hell.
SB: I'm really gonna try to stop bashing the south like I don't live here now. I don't want people to think that I think I'm better than them just cuz I'm from NJ. It's a compilation of reasons why I'm better so I'll try not to make that the most significant one. LMAO!

I think I'm gonna start using Flickr more. I don't use it because I'm lazy and I hate exploring new sites and getting all aquainted, I'm too preoccupied with shit that matters. But I take alot of pics on my bb so after I get that shit on and poppin I'll post a link somewhere I guess.

My nipples hurt and 739 pimples just appeared on my face. Guess my period will be making it's comeback for the month of November sometime soon. ([/enthusiasm] /sarcasm)

Blahzay blahh. Woo woo. Yee yee and all dat.

AOWWW! *

Trey is making skinny-muscular dudes look good.

Here's the vid for "Brand New", the song I posted a while back. It seems like producers got off with making a low budget video but I love the song so I'm disregarding the "club scene" look of it all.



-- * D slept over last night.

-- I went in yesterday @ the gym again. And now I'm about to eat some carrot sticks because I really want them, despite the fact that I'm extremely allergic to carrots.

Ohh well..let's hope my throat doesn't close up & I die.
Here's a pic: (bc I'm bored -- I know I look a lil bummy. Who cares? Sue me.)

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Hmm.. I guess I'll do some online shopping. Seeing as it's a Friday and all I'm doing is laying in bed. Today it'll be Karmaloop on some urban shit but next week I'll probably switch it up and do ModCloth or buy some makeup. Shitt.. I have 2 jobs & I work my ass off throughout the week and luckily my pay periods are on different wks. so I get paid EVERY week. So I rightfully deserve to buy thangssss =]

Then I guess I'll do some homework because I'm not going out tonight. It's cold as a bitch.

ooh peep these! I think they're kinda cute:



you can find 'em here: 80%20 Wedge "sneaker"