back at it.

School started. Summer's over for me. FML.

-First Aid: Response to Emergency (I get 3 certifications in this class)
-Child Psych

My life is over; not kidding.

Catch ya on the flip side!

here's the plan.

With my new car goal quickly approaching and me blowing my savings every month on purchases @ the mall and online I need to make a rash decision that I may regret but I must follow through.

From now on (except for basics - tank tops and such, and shoes) I will be thrifting. I can no longer afford to be a wise saver and spend money like I do. As a result, my ever-long skirt collection will have to be expanded :) because I'm not really too enthused about sharing crotch material with someone else. So.. maybe I'll start to upload the pics of what I find because I'm really excited and that'll give me something to devote my summer to and help to get to my final goal (new carrrrr!) There's really nothing wrong with my car I just don't like it anymore and I want a new one.

Also, I want to try to stop watching as much tv and read a book every two weeks. I really don't watch much tv but everytime I do I feel like I'm not being productive. I'm trying to read books which contain subject matter that are relative to my major. It's So Much Work to Be Your Friend by Richard Lavoie is first on my list but I also want to read some more horror books like Son of Rosemary by Ira Levin.

That's it. I'm boring. I don't have anything else to talk about anymore.

summer's close.

Time to not give a fuck. Get naked. Get drunk. Be on my "bad girl." Waste money - mainly on gallons of henny and boxes of dutches. Go out to lunch every day. Moon cars full of cute boys and square looking white people on the highway. Keep my room dirty. Sleep the WHOLE day and wake up @ 6pm. Take adventures. Maintain a bald, bikini pussy. Skip the green pills so I can miss my period. Meet other drunk people and forget I met them.

At some point I'm going to have to grow out of this but I'm not ready yet. Maybe after I turn 21 but I'm determined to make sure that the fun doesn't end now. I have the rest of my life to be bored.

I'm ready for the mundane school days to be over. All I do is go to school and work. Every fucking week it's the same shit. I really need to live again. This feels so boring and I don't want to get used to being bored any time soon.

I spent my whole day in the house. I haven't been to class all week because I was sick and I kinda don't care. I want to care but I really don't. School is becoming so fucking annoying every semester. Maybe because I feel like I'm not doing something that I love. I kinda want to take a semester off and see what I can get myself into. I've been in school for almost 16 years so I don't know what it's like to not be in school. I need a break to figure out who the fuck I am. To be honest, I can't really see my life after I graduate. Being a teacher. Just doing the same boring thing everyday. Teaching kids some bullshit that doesn't even matter in the long run. Ok, the more I talk about it it's starting to piss me off.

You know how many boring people there are in this world? People who do the same shit 5 days out of the week and think that rock climbing on saturdays is walking on the wild side. That can't be the rest of my life. I can't imagine myself being happy with that.

All I care about in this world is shoes. Pray for me, people lol.

back to basics.

I've been on super hiatus when it comes to blogger. But it's whatever. I'm not gonna make any excuses because I've actually been doing alot of day-to-day shit that is necessary right now.

Waking up btwn 5:30-6:30 am is a BEEEEIIITCHHHHH! I fucking hate mornings with all of my heart so this is the worst for me. Luckily I only have to do this for 2 more weeks then it's all over. I tried to look for a job on craigslist, this lady's looking for a nanny to sit her mother because she's old and lonely but something about her emails make her seem like she's not legit. I don't know maybe it's the fact that she claims she works on Wall Street, yet she types like she's in 5th grade. Her story is inconsistent and I've given her my number more than once and she insists on ONLY emailing me back and not giving me much details. Now that I'm talking about it even more, it's starting to creep me out too so I definitely think that's a no-go.

I've been working for two weeks already and we don't even get paid until next Friday. Which supremely blows because it feels like I'm not working for anything when I'm not seeing the checks. I'm scraping for fucking gas money because I do like a 20-25 mile drive every weekday to get to work and it's eating my gas UP! >=[

** I can't deal with all the people that are stuntin' these days. Although I'm tired of hearing about the recession, everybody is fucking broke and I'm tired of hearing about people claiming they got this and that and are doing this and that and really they aint doing shit but kicking back at their crib because they can't afford to go out just like everybody else. That shit makes me fucking sick man, I sware!



I got some new nail polish today!!! I got the Coconut Crush one, which comes out a frosty platinum color with glitter undertones. I'm not really feeling the color but the polish REALLY does smell so delish! I wanna get the papaya and blueberry one because those colors are actually very cute. I didn't think it was really gonna smell good and I thought they were just gassin it but it really does smell soooo yummy! Only downfall is that I don't think you can put a topcoat on because then it's probably not gonna have the same smell.

I'm running the RED light this week and I am an uberbitch. So stay on my good side folks ;]

My grandparents are having the bathroom renovated. They're knocking out the wall that connected the bathroom and the small bedroom next to it and adding a jacuzzi bath and a bunch of other shit. I cant wait to take a bath in there!!! It's gonna be so purty.

Anyways, for this to be a comeback post, I'm really rambling.

Jbrokeitdowngahhh

unsigned hype.

I realllyyyy don't understand all the opinionated blog posts around the BET awards, the twits, the tumblr posts, all that. really it is 2 days later and people are still creating blogs about it and it's really not a big deal. Like, at all. No one here is famous so... what do their measly opinions matter to those who are?

Anyways, I signed my lease on my apartment yesterday. I'm gonna have 2 other roommates (so far) and it's less than a half-mile walk away from UNC's campus. I refuse to pay that fucking $385 parking fee when I can get free parking in the complex and I can get some (light) exercise in daily. It's funny because when I was telling my mom that I'm not driving to school everyday she's like "Well what about in the colder months?" LMFAO!!! I laughed in her face, North Carolina has no "colder months" compared to Jersey weather so she's trippin. Like I said, I WILL NOT BE PAYING FOR PARKING.

I can't wait to go back to Jersey for the remainder of the summer though. I have alot of plans:

• Spending the 4th of July with my cousins (and maybe my bestfriend) smoking and then going to see fireworks.
• Having dinner with my ex-longterm boyfriend that I miss so much. (We're just really not compatable.)
• Chilling with the 2 throwback dudes that I'm kindaaaa talking to. We went to hs together and they both hit me up recently trying to spend some time. Why not? I can let loose for my last month home.
• Seeing my booski, Adina, who's coming home for a jersey reunion tour lol.
• Stacking chips so I can get a new car by March.
• Blowing down until I pass out.

This should be a fun few weeks before I come down here to NC and bore myself to pieces in school. The only bad thing is waking up @ 5/6am every weekday. And if you know me, you know mornings are not my fucking friend AT ALLLL!

But that's about it I guess. Shit's cool besides that.

The end.

I hate that I'm still single.

killa season.

Summer's backkk....

So far my plans for the summer are:

- Chill with my father's side of the family more. Even though I hate his ass, the death of my uncle has definitely brought it to my attention that we all need to be more present in eachothers lives and how I need to appreciate my loved ones.

- Get a fake ID! Shit I'm tired of carrying a flask! ;]

- As usual: Read 2 books.

- Start saving money on a down payment because I want to get a BRAND NEW, OFF THE LOT car by the beginning of spring semester.

- Make copies of my all time fave CD's to put in my car so that when my ipod dies I don't have to listen to the radio. ( Kanye's 1st 3 albums, OB4CL, Back to Black, Donuts, Nastradamus, Stankonia + The Love Below, Money Power Respect, Fly or Die, Return of the Space Cowboy, Love vs. Money, Bob Marley's Greatest Hits, Midnight Marauders, The Documentary, The Blueprint + Reasonable Doubt, Don't Quit Your Day Job, Emancipation of MiMi)

- Spend a few hours feeding the homeless @ a shelter or something.

- Find a job for the fall.

- Spend a whole day (or a full tank of gas) worth of exploring North Carolina. Just me, my ipod, a cooler in the trunk and my GPS to get me back home.

- Use my restaurant.com gift card somewhere and take my mommy out to dinner.

- Roll like 6 L's and watch movies with my BESSSSSFRANND brielle.

- Buy something ridiculous and dumb.

- Explore religion.

- Go to the spa. (That's the closest thing I'm gonna get to a vacation this summer)

- Watch ALL of Rico Strong's videos. He's the black male god of porn. Google him ladies!





Hopefully I can fit all of this in before summer ends. I think it's possible because alot of them can be done in one day. I wanna know some of your summer plans too, everybody! Comment or post a list of your own, pleaseeeeee!

summer summer summer time!

I can't wait until this fucking semester is over and I can feel the 100 degree sun beating on my back... my brown skin is poppin and Rita's tastes like heaven... niggas are in 'sexy mode' (sneakers/timbs, white tee, khaki shorts, fitted)... AHHH I can't waittttttttttt!

claw money, camo hoodie - $110


urban outfitters, bdg carrot shaped tee - $24


forever 21, florelle frayed denim short - $15.80


Nike Lunar Mariah - $?


karmaloop - disney couture jewelry - $28/$38