Sunday, December 13, 2009


I really hate this shit! It is so overwhelming come the end of the semester and sometimes I just wanna get it over with so much that I don't even think about it. It's either I UNDERstress or OVERstress. It's always an extreme with me and it can never be anything normal. There was alot of pressure and crazy shit going on with me this semester and it's definitely been wearing me down. I sleep all the time, I feel depressed, I always feel like I'm worn out and I have this bad habit of clenching my teeth when I'm stressed out which, in turn causes more stress. I'm going to see a doctor about everything tomorrow because it's really time for me to get all of this together. I don't wanna see myself have another semester of shitty grades or even mediocre grades. That's not right. I know I put alot of negative pressure on myself sometimes and I don't give myself enough credit for the things I have done successfully but alot of that is because my main priority is school and that's what I keep fucking up with the most. Then on top of that my job takes alot of of me also. My whole day has been consumed since last Monday with either a full day of work or a full day of school. I know that's probably normal but it's starting to stress me out and all of the work I've been doing doesn't give me enough time to study and not feel like I'm overworking myself. I'm just ready for this semester to finally be done and I can start from scratch. I really need to learn how to manage my time better and have normal sleeping patterns because alot of my problems revolve around how irregular my sleeping patterns are and how I how my days in general are irregular. I just really need to get it together.

p.s. I'm jelly, my roommate's cousin is buying her a mac. >=[


Anonymous said...

Sounds like you need a ounce of green and like a month off.

Keep ya head up though. You'll be iight ..

Marie said...

i can relate. i was feeling that way earlier this year. i ended up having to quit my job & get work study at school. i dont know if youre eligible for that but if you are, you should definitely do it. the money wont be off the wall but you should end up having time to focus on school. & dont psych yourself out so much. get a stress ball or something. often times things arent as stressful as we believe em to be. good luck mama

khaki said...

damn... not cool stressing yourself out. Im sure you'll do well on your finals resulting in good grades. Think positive.

A.R. said...

you'll be ok, i feel the exact same way, but i'm home for break so i feel 10x better, you just need to get the finals over with and relax.

tha unpretentious narcissist © said...

don't stress yourself, do your best. give it the best effort possible and believe in yourself. that should be enough.

grades are important, but their just grades. don't let that bug you out or worry you. the best way to go into finals and situations like that is with a clear mind. which means the worry has to go.

good luck.