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My friend* Jon Lodge (red hoodie) is on the come up with his skating and I'm proud of him. Watch him try do some hard ass trick @ Bryant Park station, NY. :(

*Not kidding. Me and my girls used to chill with his crew heavy during senior year.
(Lol, throwback attire.)

update, smutplate.

Let's play 4 Lies and a Truth:

I got 100 on my first quiz.
I got a milli in the bank.
I got a kid on the way.
I got a glock in the closet.
I got a nigga in my bed waiting for me.

...Guess which one is true!

Lol, ok it doesn't take that much guessing! But it'd be great if, for my amusement, you assumed that I had a milli in the bank OR a nigga in the bed. I guess I'll be happy for that one little lonely truth sitting up there, I GOT 100 ON MY FIRST QUIZ, GUYSSS! This is coming from the lady that never gets 100 on ANYTHING! So yes I'm gonna gas this shit up.

But besides all that school's cool, I guess. It's hard because the one year that I decide to focus and not let my social life take over, is the one year that I transfer and don't know a soul (except for my roommates). They're cool though so I kick it with them alot but I need to meet some people on my own, outside of my house because I lowkey feel like eventually they're gonna get on my nerves if I'm around them alot alot. SO! I have to shed my "Fuck other females cuz they aint 'bout shit" attitude if I don't wanna be a social leper.

My mom and I are on bad terms. Chick still thinks that she could talk to me like I'm 12 and it's all G but oooh is she misinformed! So when I was on my way to her house last wk and she started getting outta pocket I told her that I wasn't coming and banged on her 2 miles away from her house. I know it sounds DISRESPECTFUL but I was already frustrated because I was driving around the fucking state for an hour, wasting a quarter tank of gas trying to get to her house and here she is talking to me like I owe her tax... Nahh doggy, I will not be arriving to your house with bells on. But she hasn't spoken to me since. *Shrugs* Do what it do, baby!

Everything else is just coasting by smoothly. The Nigga Survival Kit (liquor and weed) are running low, but I'm living. I'm not even gonna front and say that I won't be repurchasing any weed anytime soon because I'd only be lying to you and me both, but I'm probably gonna wait until I find a job to cop an oz because what I look like dropping about $150 on weed and the 50 count box of dutches and I don't even have a steady paycheck? That's some ignant sheeit!

But shit, we eating over here so it's all gravy until I randomly spend all my money in one night at Urban Outfitters, Kids Foot Locker and Cook Out (cuz they got these good as "cook out trays" where you can get close to 4 things for like $6)! Yall know how it is right?

realist shit i ever wrote.

I just got done from finishing my last final and the feeling is pretty much bittersweet.

The semester's over and all I see is niggas moving bins and TVs out of their room and I just get this overwhelming feeling of "whatthefuck".

Idk bc this year is def. different because from here I'm moving to (wack ass)North Carolina. That shit really makes the end of this semester totally different. I'm not gonna have my same suitemate, Vanessa, that I've known since highschool. I'm not gonna even gonna have the comfort of knowing that I went to highschool with A SHITLOAD of people that I go to school with anymore. I'm not gonna see the familiar weed-smokers in "the back" anymore. It all just makes me feel so unsure about everything. =[

Whatever though, I guess everyone has to move out of their comfort zone sometime in life right?

Then on top of that, it's my bff's bday today. And the fact that her bday is 8 days before mine, I always have this mini-crisis around this time because I just feel like a whole 'nother year has passed.

Ugh it's all good. Ima puff a lil and get over this shit asap!
Have a good evening everyone!

crazy weekend wrap up.

Here tonight could be gone tomorrow,
so I speed through life like it's no tomorrow!

-Jim Jones

Thursday

Aydins lounge with Vanessa, Tang & Spliff(= instant VIP, no lines & Grey Goose + 'Tron on deck which is always lovely) Red Cafe was performing, also DJ Envy was there and the groupies were on their shit tonight. It's crazy what people will do when "famous" people are around. It makes me wonder what people would do in the company of Jay Z or TI or something. Anyways chicks were hating on us from the door cuz we came with Spliff but I'm not off that shit. I kept my distance.

I couldn't find my cam so I took no pics and I was on the prowl so I tried to stay out of alot of pics but I did take one with my girls for old times sake.
I'm far right & my dumb self looked @ the flash not the camera.



I got back around 3 something, had some wack, non-memorable sex with D around 4, he spent the night and that was that.

Friday
Spent the early afternoon with the fam :] Then I was supposed to meet X @ the mall but he was around the way so he came and scooped me and sparked up 2 L's for us to share for the ride to the mall. We ate @ the mall then went to pick Prince up so he could ride with him back to my house. Hhahaa.. X's high ass is running reds all the way there and we get pulled over smelling like straight ballyyyy. NEXT THING I KNOWWW 4 cop cars are behind us and they end up letting us go cuz X's fathers a state trooper and all that jazz.

Then I go back home, high as hell, just to pick my car off and went to some hood ass house party, which I left 15 min later. Too many hood niggas there and this one nigga was in my fuckin face. I wasn't feeling that shit so I went to Mickey D's to get food for the fam and got back in around 12.

Saturday
I woke up to my cousin gnawing and licking on my face from between the covers. I fucking kid you not!!! Idk WHY or WTF he was on but... that was so "cousin-ish" (the term I created in '05 to describe the almost incestuous shit that people do with their cousins. ie. sit on their laps.)

Bullshitted with the fam during the day them went to Livingston Mall, and Jersey Gardens Mall(I sincerely hate this mall though) to buy shit.

Picked up Vanessa and met up with X @ some party in Perth Amboy that was actually poppin. This nigga greeted me with L :) Then we chilled and drank. He introduced me to alot of his friends which I thought was hella cute. And his bestfriend was like "Oh I've heard of you." Which made all warm inside because that says alot.

We got fuckin TOSSEDDD there then Me, Vanessa, X, Kawanna, Taj, Jay and Derrick all followed eachother to another party in NB, that shit was wack but I was high so shit was hilarious.

Speeding down the highway, blasting my g-shit when I'm in the zone, off some sour, personifies the good life.

Todayyy!!
EASTERR! Me and my fam aren't really church-goers so we skipped the church part. I woke up, hotboxed with TJ and EJ (my cousins) and EJ's girl, and then we went to my gmas house. Rum and cokes on deck. Ate a plate of THE BEST FUCKING FOOD! (Anything with my gmas gravy on tastes good.. Act like ya know!)

Then I picked up Vanessa and made my way back to school.

Then we got a random smoke out request from Landry so we hotboxed with this nigga and now I'm just feeling so calm.

I must say, this was a bangin wknd.


Overall:
-- I couldn't quit smoking even if I wanted too. Everybody always wants to smoke me out!
-- I think I have a crush on X. (Not just from this wknds events, we have a history since 9th grade)
-- I love my grandma's gravy.
-- I'm over D with his boring dick game and dry personality.
-- When I'm high my life's like a fucking movie. It's weird and I love it.

Toodles, noodles<3

hey, hey now,

I haven't been blogging in a long time mainly because things have been hectic for this past month. It's the holiday season, ya know? And I've definitely been trying to "make it last foreverrr" *Keith Sweat voice* but you know all good things must come to an end.

I've had a glamorous time with my fave 5 girlies since I've been back in the MapSo area [ J, Tiff, Ellz, Nnens, Rose ) but of course those bitches gotta go back home eventually and it makes me sad =[

Right now I'm in the works of getting my car and I've been in NC for a good 3 days now and I'm already tired of the country lifestyle.

Me and my brooklyn boo are still cupcaking. Tryna see what this nig is all about before I jump into anything but this looks like it'll be something *Knock on Wood*.

When I get back to school I definitely have to try to shed a good 20 pounds. It's gonna be some hard work but as long as I manage to make it to the gym like 3x a week and make healthier food choices I should be good. It would be real good if I could cut the soda out of my diet but I LOVE the feelings of those bubbles in my mouthhH! (OMG that sounded super perv.)

I really am not too elated about going back to school because of all of the drama btwn me and my ex-friend but.. FUCK her and oh well.. she shouldn't have done me dirty. Also.. I'm really trying to get my car because it's necessary that I move on to bigger and better things that exist outside of WPUNJ.

And so I think that my update is complete. I'll be back on soon, when I find my USB cord for my camera, so I can upload some pics of my holidays (xmas/new years). Till then...

Toodles<3

frenemies.

I've known Justin since I was in 8th grade.
He's like a brother in the way that we have sibling rivalry... but I still love him.
(no matter how much I hate him) >=[







.. LOVEYOU just.

since i AM a single, black, female...

So I basically hated the SONG until I saw the video. I am definitely not one of Bejawnce's biggest fans (nothing near it) but I'm not one of her many haters either. I don't love everything she does & I sometimes think she's overrated but that doesn't take away my extreme respect for her because she made herself a brand, she works her ass off, and she has some impeccable style.

But why in the world were my & my girlfriendssss practicing & trying to learn this damn dance?! LMFAO we're hot messes man!









lol.. we're fools!