Thursday, April 15, 2010

summer's close.

Time to not give a fuck. Get naked. Get drunk. Be on my "bad girl." Waste money - mainly on gallons of henny and boxes of dutches. Go out to lunch every day. Moon cars full of cute boys and square looking white people on the highway. Keep my room dirty. Sleep the WHOLE day and wake up @ 6pm. Take adventures. Maintain a bald, bikini pussy. Skip the green pills so I can miss my period. Meet other drunk people and forget I met them.

At some point I'm going to have to grow out of this but I'm not ready yet. Maybe after I turn 21 but I'm determined to make sure that the fun doesn't end now. I have the rest of my life to be bored.

I'm ready for the mundane school days to be over. All I do is go to school and work. Every fucking week it's the same shit. I really need to live again. This feels so boring and I don't want to get used to being bored any time soon.

I spent my whole day in the house. I haven't been to class all week because I was sick and I kinda don't care. I want to care but I really don't. School is becoming so fucking annoying every semester. Maybe because I feel like I'm not doing something that I love. I kinda want to take a semester off and see what I can get myself into. I've been in school for almost 16 years so I don't know what it's like to not be in school. I need a break to figure out who the fuck I am. To be honest, I can't really see my life after I graduate. Being a teacher. Just doing the same boring thing everyday. Teaching kids some bullshit that doesn't even matter in the long run. Ok, the more I talk about it it's starting to piss me off.

You know how many boring people there are in this world? People who do the same shit 5 days out of the week and think that rock climbing on saturdays is walking on the wild side. That can't be the rest of my life. I can't imagine myself being happy with that.

All I care about in this world is shoes. Pray for me, people lol.

1 comment:

RoByn LaTice said...

I feel you on nt just being another boring ass person in this world! Stuck doing the same shit Mon-Fri then Saturday they do some normal ass shit and think its extraordinary! Smh!