Aliyah: The Good Witch

too bad, november.

2010-11-15T23:34:00.005-05:00

This is a weird month. Things have been looking bad for all who I know and as far as school, I have been slacking horrendously. It's really a shame. I can only blame it on me alone, however I went to see my doctor who told me that stress, depression and my extremely low Vitamin D levels are contributing to my lack of motivation, my constant sleepiness, and my lack of energy as well.

Besides that I am a lucky woman right now because I have a love interest that cares about me and vice versa. Because of that I know that alot of things will be alright. Maybe not everything, but just having that additional light in your life brings about a certain type of joyousness and happiness that is much appreciated.

I love my job.
I have a slight distaste for weed now therefore I don't smoke now. For one, I haven't had anything exotic since I brought my stuff back from NJ and because of that I don't really like anything else because of that slumpy, dead weight feeling it gives you, and that nasty ass taste it leaves in my mouth that makes me want to brush my teeth right after. So I pass on many blunts now. I'm over it.

I just really need to put the missing piece of the puzzle in place and that would be to get my school shit together. I am a smart cookie and I need to use this to my advantage and remember why I am here. I need to really take advantage of my brain and be excited to learn. Somehow I must figure out a way to make myself eager to receive education because sometimes it seems like a chore. I realize what the power of knowledge is but I just don't know how to translate this into really getting my education. UGHH I have some work to do.

My roommate and her bf fought the other day and I called the cops. Knives were involved, pots, her computer is nearly split in half, she bit the shit out of his shoulder and I believe chunks were missing. I'm not going to even tell you how I feel about this situation because honestly does it even matter? She will still be dating and dealing with dude, and his 1 yr old, and his babymoms, and his lack of diploma, GED, car, place to live (he has technically been living with us for the past 2 months), or job. I hate to be a Debbie Downer but some people really don't ever want to be more than nothing, and the women and men who support these types are pathetic.

I need to really start going to church because I am honestly fearful that the world we live in is sure to end soon. I don't know that religion has anything to do with it but I definitely need to approach a spiritual understanding and relationship so that I can keep myself sane in these times. I'm scared.

sex with strangers.

2010-11-10T10:14:00.007-05:00

NSFW:

I'm all for the fun and freak nasty (to some extent) but a.Why is this woman busting it wide open for these stranger muhfkas? b. Why are there not 1, not 2, but 3 participants in this mess? c. Where the fuck is this because I would never date a man from this state?

UGHHHHHHH! I am just so disgusted with life right now. This is such a sad era.

That woman probably had the most disturbed childhood. And men, yall just nasty! UGH! this makes me want to brush my own fucking teeth again this morning. Please people raise your children right! Do you see what is wrong with our society? Get it together by the time you plant seeds.

Projects:

2010-11-03T22:43:00.003-04:00

I will be beginning the following projects within the next month.

-Remodeling my room. (Incl. massive trash/donations)
- Editing this hideous 2009 page.
- Developing my business plan and garnering information on applicable grants.
- Cleaning out my closet. (I will prob incl. pics, BEWARE.)
- Studying math until I die(/the semester's over) because I missed a test. x_x
- Theming my 365 for the new yr.
- Reacquainting myself with the gym. (These 5 pounds aint gonna lose themselves.)
- Collecting and backing up the passwords to all of my accounts and despamming my email.
..... I could continue this list but that's enough for this month alone.

social network.

2010-11-02T01:43:00.003-04:00

I just got done watching this movie and it depressed, motivated, wowed and worried me all in one.

I'm sure the story was sensationalized and fabricated to some extent. I'm just still overwhelmed by that movie.

leave me alone!

2010-10-27T22:41:00.002-04:00

Avoiding people is hard when you care about them and you know they care about you. I have some shit with me and a whole heap of hw to do and my boo just wants to spend time with me. And after our little riffs with eachother there's nothing more that I'd like to do than lay up with him on this rainy night in his new apartment or have him come see me or make dinner for him and watch movies .. yadda yadda.. all that mushy shit. But I can't and it's breaking my heart.

On the flip side though, I have to do what I have to do. He is graduating in Dec. and I'm not. I wish I was even graduating next year....but again, I'm not. So I have to take my Ls right now when it comes to the boo shit and make sure that my grades and what's going on with me is correct before I worry about someone else's time and emotions.

Honestly I have a history of letting relationships get the best of me and allowing a dude to consume my time so much so that I don't get my own shit done--when it comes to school work. I put things to the side and say I'll get back to them because I cherish the time that I spend with those that I care about. But this time I'm not putting my work on the back burner because the expense is mine, not his.

It's time for me to get back to my paper now. (5 page research paper on unemployment/welfare abuse in America)

Its also time for me to get back on my exercise grind. I sware I gained 5 pounds. YUCHHCHCHHCHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

regarding music....

2010-10-24T02:47:00.005-04:00

I miss watching my friends freestyle behind the bleachers during football games. Those were good times! I like football but I love rap so this brings me back to those glorious days in 9th grade having my mom drop me off @ WHS so we can get high and stand in huge crowds.

My boo is asking me to make him a CD and I'm at a loss because he's not too in tuned to the shit that I like. He doesn't know much Nas, he is not into underground at all, he thinks all Wu is old (as opposed to classic) and he doesn't know too many Kanye songs that weren't singles. Therefore I'm stuck shuffling through my music for an hr. trying to find songs that will be appropriate for his taste in music and I've only come up with 7 so far for this 80 minute CD..... and a majority of it is Wayne (whom he honestly feels is the best rapper.) How unfortunate?

Hip-hop right now is at an all time low. And although I personally do not feel as though I'm suffering, because all of the music is housed between my ipods and my computer, I am disappointed that my new rap downloads come in drips and drabs--maybe 1-2 songs/month. Music in general is still pretty decent. There are some great artists that are not rappers that I am newly interested in, but when I'm speeding down the highway or trying to get right that is not what I want to hear.

And while we're on the subject of music/mixtapes I honestly am dying without having my old radio in my new car. I haven't had a CD in years so having to actually use CDs now sucks.

P.S. I LOVE MY JOB! $$$

LED issue.

2010-10-14T18:31:00.002-04:00

My computer is broke.

Why is weed still not legalized?

What if I dropped everything I'm doing and pursued another career. I wonder if I'd be prosperous.......hmmm............ I wonder about this all the time because I'm happy but I'm not doing my "dream job." I want to pursue a career in art or fashion or in the art of fashion but I don't honestly know if there's a title for what I want to do. Honestly I want to be a jack of all trades in all things related to fashion, merchandising, makeup and.... no not hair I hate touching other people's hair. But honestly what girl doesn't want to do that? I feel like all girls want to play dress up all day and call that a career which is why I'm not to enthused about veering off of the path that I'm on now. I also want to write a book which I can very well do while I am in school now. I was in the process of writing one but that was short lived because I am very uninspired by where I am in life right now. Although I will say that things are going well for me, there is nothing happening that IMO would be "book worthy." I feel like I should be happy that things are as such because things can only go 2 ways, better or worse, and it looks to be at about 40/60.

I got word that my great grandpa is doing much worse as far as his health and it scares me. Not only does it worry me about his health but the subsequent followup of my bedridden great grandmother dying almost immediately after has been predicted and is very likely. She has been tube fed, diapered and medicated for the past 4+ years and I feel as though her strong will is only holding for my great grandfather who was in his healthier days until about this time last year. He has been diagnosed with liver, lung and...prostate(?) cancer and because of his condition now has insisted on refusing chemo. Also, because of his cancer it is now painful for him to eat so he is starved as well. My poor grandpa, I pray that he gets better but at this point it's only a matter of time before he dies. Boo tells me not to talk like that because "it's in God's hands" but I honestly do not want him to suffer, which he is. I love him :'(

Boo met my mom last wknd which I was none too eager about. Not that I didn't want them to meet but I felt like it was too early for my liking. I obliged because my mom kept kinda pressuring me about it and I was tired of hearing her mouth and I wanted her to cook me dinner so I just said yes. They both liked each other.... so whatever.

And again I ask, why is weed still not legalilzed?

dipset. what? oww!

2010-09-27T22:54:00.000-04:00

time off.

2010-09-27T20:13:00.003-04:00

I just got back yesterday from the 2nd weekend in Miami for training for my new job so it's time for me to get back into the swing of things. I think I went to a total of 2 of my 8 classes last week and I'm ashamed and can see myself resorting to my old ways and I don't want that to happen so it's time to get crackin'.

Overall everything is good on the home front. I just got a new(er) car since my car really was just too fucked up to drive anymore so I got an '02 Ford Taurus. It's a nice car, don't get me wrong, but that's not what I wanted. It reminds me of a mommy car. I am grateful that I am in the financial position I'm in to be able to get a car but I'm still aiming to get a Ford Explorer Sport Trac or Nissan Xterra by Jan. so.... fingers crossed on that.

My new car is named Breezy.

Cakes has been hitting me up for the past month making little remarks to get me to pay him some attention via text. Just this past wknd he hit me up saying he was going to be deleting our conversations, and my number, because he wants to "stop missing me". I told him to do what he has to do. He really makes me feel guilty for moving on and trying to achieve an actual relationship with someone. He wasn't willing to make a commitment when I wanted one and as of this wknd he asked if I would give him another chance and he'll do whatever I want. I said I'll see, but yesterday I told him that isn't gonna work out because I'm involved with someone else and I'm not interested in playing the games or disrespecting my relationship with Vito. He had his chance and it's time to let it burn. *kanye shrug*

I'll be looking for new apartments soon because my lease ends in August and I no longer can live with 3 other females. Some people are so set in their ways that it pains them to adjust to different lifestyles and living situations (including myself) so I want to move on to a place where I will pay my own rent and live my own way....and I want a puppy. I'm really just getting sick of smelling other people's food and cigarette stench, and hearing other's phone conversations and not being able to scream at the top of my lungs if I want when I'm doing the nasty. The only other person I may live with is my cousin from Raleigh who goes to college in Charlotte. It's her first year and she graduated early also so she's younger than me but she's mature and I don't really trust anyone new living with me besides family.

I have to take my Praxis sometime soon so I can get into my program and make my way out of college. It's crazy because alot of the people I graduated highschool with are graduating now which kinda pisses me off because I'm still in but my transfer fucked me up and I wasted some semesters bullshittin. It's my own fault but it's whatever.

My stash has dwindled down little by little so now it's non-existent and I'm devistated about it but I definitely see the difference in my focus. Plus I'm starting a new job and trying to get some things together and the green does nothing but distract me and make me lazy and hungry and fat if I don't work out lol. Plus I'm trying to decrease my habit too. I can literally face 2 a day if I'm not careful and that's neither cute or productive. That's alot of time wasted not being 100% and when I really think about it I realize how much of my week flashes by my eyes while ^ and I could've been doing so much more. As long as I slow my usage I think my tolerance and desire to blow will decrease and hopefully I will be completely done soon. I've kinda told myself that I want to be done by the time I turn 22, like completely turned off from it but who knows? I just know that I want to be well done at least a year before I have kids.

I'm just babbling though.. Lemme get back to this damn math hw.

escuela es bueno.

2010-09-20T23:28:00.002-04:00

Spanish Composition.

Todos los dias, como dos o tres veces. Come a las nueve y media y siete en la noche tipicalmente pero a veces me come en la tarde a las doce, tambien. Normalmente come en mi casa para desayuno y para cena. Para almuerzo come en me cafeteria de mi universidad o yo traigo un sandwich, merienda y refresco para come antes de mis clases. En el desayuno prefiero comer sobras de antes de la noche o panqueques con fresas y crema fresca. Para mi bebo, yo prefiero leche o agua y a veces jugo de naranja. Para cena usualmente nosotros ordenar pizza. Pero a veces cocino espaguetis o pollo criollo, papas y brocoli. Soy un buena cocinera por lo tanto mi comida es siempre bien. Yo deseo que podia cocinar mucho mas pero muchas platos son dificil a mi. Para almuerzo converso con mis amigas sobre musica, ropas, y escuela. En la manana yo no converso con nadie porque quiero salir mi apartamento rapidamente. Para la noche comiendo cuando la cena usualmente porque yo mirando la tele. Me encantando ir a restaurantes. Me gusta ir con mi novio o mi madre. Nosotros gustar ir a T.G.I Fridays o Boardwalk Billy's o restaurantes pequenos en mi ciudad. No me gusta comida rapida porque es muy mala para su salud. Tambien me gustan la comida mexicana. Con frecuencia ir al camion en mi ciudad a donde hacen tacos. Vuelvo al camion muchas tiempos en el ano. Tal vez seis o siete tiempos en el ano ó mas. Me encante bien comida.

striking resembelance.

2010-09-16T13:32:00.003-04:00

Top Chef: Just Desserts is brand new and I'm excited for this season! First thing is notice is how much Malika Ameen resembles M.I.A.... It's uncanny!

Get into it!

body right.

2010-09-14T00:49:00.004-04:00

My R.O.D:

My new worst enemy:
Click for 3 minute hell.

^I'm afraid of these muddasuckas! But I'll give them a try.

gravy train.

2010-09-13T00:48:00.001-04:00

Just wanted to drop in and update... I can't really complain about anything right now.... Not that I would complain anyways because I feel like positive energy will keep the demons and the situational mishaps out of my life.

The head gasket (?) on my car blew last weekend so I will be getting a new car this week. I really think that it's best for me to definitely get the black cloud that is my car out of my life. My baby has served her purpose and I really can't deal with putting more money into it. At this point I've invested more money in fixing it than I have in actually purchasing it and so I'm fed up.

Further more boobooage + school is on point. After taking my summer classes I have definitely learned how to prioritize and how much doing so benefits me. My time management skills have definitely increased.

I got a new job @ Best Buy Mobile as Sales Lead so I'm making 148% of what I was making @ Claire's. So that's great! The store is brand new so I'm really excited to be one of the first people on the team for this new store. They're sending my ass to MIA for the next 2 wknds so we can do training too. SUHWEEETTTT!

After 3 yrs., I deleted my Facebook because I'm just extra done with that site.

Everything is goody goody gumdrops right now!

STILL GOT THAT GREENERY ON DDDECK TOO!

cool things.

2010-08-11T23:41:00.000-04:00

SiON SoundObject Quartet - wonderfl build flash online

what happened?

2010-08-11T12:52:00.002-04:00

I'm sitting here listening to old Kanye. (Pre-Graduation, mixtapes, unreleased IMO) and I really have no clue what happened? I feel like I'm 1 of 20 of his remaining fans. I love old 'Ye. LOVE! I am still in love with THAT man. I don't really appreciate this new guy. And I blame Jay Z! He ruined my favorite rapper. Yeah he put him on but I'm sure, that it was bound to happen anyway. This man is too motivated to not have been successful. And I'm hurt! My favorite rapper died. His shit is not classic anymore, it creates controversy but it's not genuine. It doesn't tell the same story. It doesn't send the same message and doesn't give us the same positive/conscious vibe that it once did. Just words and music, words and music.

'Ye you have disappointed me. I guess when the struggle isn't the same, the output isn't either but damn you sold the fuck out. And your fans miss you Kanye.

x_x

bong, bong - have a nice dream!

2010-08-03T21:13:00.003-04:00

Sometimes I think of the pleasure that would follow if I could shoot my mother's face off.

She really, really knows how to get under my skin.

And no I'm not just overreacting, or PMSing or anything. She is really a temperamental bitch sometimes and I hate her for every moment of that.

That's all I have to say.

dazzit.

2010-08-02T22:02:00.000-04:00

- By next month my facebook will be loooongg gone. I just need to get a flash drive and save all my old pics from highschool so I can reminisce from time to time. It's been a good 4 yrs but I don't have the wherewithal to deal with the ignorance, overshare, and myspacedness of facebook anymore. I'm done.

- Niggas who nag me could GO! I'm getting sick of buggy niggas like I'm the last female on earth. I got shit-ta-do-ta-day!

- I need to do some personal research on black history, the government, and American education because I feel like I am not doing enough self-study. Aside from reading books I don't try to learn leisurely, and I need to do more research that is not mandated. If I want to be a successful educator I need to be knowledgeable.

- Obese grandma, obese momma, obese kids. A sad cycle that never ends... My First Aid and Child Psych class is opening up my eyes even more of the negative effects of obesity (especially in America) and how it can effect every other facet of how the body works, how we learn and grow, and how it is hereditary. I saw Supersize Me 3 wks ago and have vowed to never eat McDonalds again. Also my teacher has a friend who works for a chemical supplier who told him that McDonalds puts chemicals in their burgers to keep people from getting nauseous. That disgusted me enough. IDK about Wendy's but I'll also be doing some research on their additives to see whether I'll be going there ever again and if not I'm done with fast food forever. Also, no more Coke. After it's done being made, it's green in color until they add food coloring into it. No, sir!

- Summer classes have helped me to become more studious and prioritize. I wish I could be working a lot more so that I can stack but this quick, 16 day semester, I believe will really pay off in the end. Also I'm thinking about minoring in Spanish so hopefully I'll be making those moves next semester. If I'm gonna be in college another 2 yrs. anyways I might as well make the most of it; and apparently you aint shit if you don't know Spanish these days.

- Jersey in 2 wks! :)

tuning the fuck in.

2010-08-01T23:39:00.000-04:00

One of the only shows worth watching is back!

PROJECT RUNWAY! YAYYYY!

Team Michael Costello
Team Mondo
Team MUTHERFUCKING GRETCHEN!
Team Andy.

I'm so excited for this season :) Except aggy as well because there is no gay, black man this season. I need some dramatics!

And every episode I will find a new quote for the week...

"Let's hear it for the old lady!"

i can't today!

2010-07-30T22:59:00.005-04:00

"and hide ya husband cuz they rapin' everybody out here!"

I hope this video is not from 2010. I hope this happened in 1995 or something.

EDIT: APPARENTLY it happened this yr because he has responded. Sfk.

truth is.

2010-07-26T21:58:00.003-04:00

No one likes to hear the truth these days. I don't understand what's the big fucking deal. I know everybody wants to think they're the shit all the damn time but at the end of the day you have to go home and face your own insecurities.

I like to surround myself with honest people who will tell me the truth. What's the point in having people in your life if they cant be honest with you? It's wack to be on your high horse all the fucking time like, 'damn you can take a step off the saddle sir/madam?!'

Having confidence, knowledge of self and REALISM that allows you to take heed to opinions about yourself and being able to translate it to a positive message so you can keep it moving.

Its a sad day in age when people are frauding (especially on the internet) and trying to be something that they're not because they're scared of the truth.

The truth exists. Some people will end up with a miserable life trying to hide from truths that are always chasing them and staring them dead in the face.

take a look in my eyes and see what i see...

2010-07-18T12:50:00.005-04:00

Luke Jerram

I CAN'T!

2010-07-14T22:24:00.007-04:00

I am not racist, but I am real. I love all types of people but I am not afraid to openly discuss, admit, observe and report accurate stereotypes (ie. Indians can't drive.) But I am sick of the ignorance that presents itself in the discussion of men and their disrespect of a black woman. Before I am ANYTHING else (student, friend etc.) I am a black woman and I am getting tired of the blatant down-putting that we receive.

Like this:

This is despicable. How can you have a black mother, black sisters, a black child and make such a statement?

I have no problem with interracial dating. AT ALL! I have dated and find men of different races attractive also, But denying and shunning your own race is disgusting. It's like people are missing the fundamentals.

Personal preference and desires will outweigh expectations but it does not supersede respect. And that ^ up there ^ is intolerable. There is nothing acceptable about a race disrespecting it's women. ...And that goes for any race.

Furthermore, I not only blame the ignorant state of man, I blame our fucked up media for consciously altering the subconscious minds of the masses. Continuously leading us to believe that if you are not white, "exotic," skinny, long haired, part of the upper tier socioeconomic category, ~~have received formal higher education~~ (scratch that obviously, no one gives a fuck about education anymore with the DUMMIES that people are obsessed with ie. Kim Kardashian, All of those 'Hills' people, Beyonce, etc.) or singing a damn sambo song you are not worthy of being seen by the masses. UNLESS YOU ARE ON A VH1 SHOW WHORING YOURSELF OUT FOR 15 MINUTES OF SHAMEFUL FAME and then you are not only a joke but a joke with no dignity.

Besides that, no one cares about your opinion or what you have to say. And this is not to say that there are no deviants (Oprah) but...she arrived in like 1990, it's 2010, where the fuck is the progress?

I have no clue what race the man I'm marrying will be, but hopefully by the time I have kids, my future daughter will never have to feel neglected by people that look just like her (figuratively speaking) and I won't have to embed in my son that all women should be respected.

Hopefully I won't have to make my children understand that although all cultures and races are beautiful, don't deny who you are as an individual nor who you are as a people. Hopefully things will be different. Because it pains me to see this. It doesn't make me hate white girls or want to be any different because I fucking love me. It really just gives me a bleak outlook for the future of self-identity, self-worth and how I'm going to have to unteach my kids the sad perceptions that today's EVEN SADDER society is being led to believe.

back at it.

2010-07-08T00:46:00.004-04:00

School started. Summer's over for me. FML.

-First Aid: Response to Emergency (I get 3 certifications in this class)
-Child Psych

My life is over; not kidding.

Catch ya on the flip side!

i ain't doin nutttinnn.

2010-07-03T01:14:00.001-04:00

I rearranged my room but I am not taking pics until I actually clean it to it's master cleanness. I still have clothes alloverthefuckingplace. I actually need to buy more hangers because my wardrobe has surpassed my storage. It's starting to get ugly. I may donate soon but I doubt anyone will want my random shit.

I'm gonna wear my new LBD to the 4th of July party that I'm going too but I really want a pair of stars and stripes hooker shoes that I'm sure will be hard to find. I want them to look like this:

But in a non-MS paint sorta way, yanno?

But because this dress is tight as fuck I'm not trying to have any unnecessary curves so I've been no carbing for the past 3 days (except for not really because I had Chick-Fil-A today *kanye shrug*)

I've been trying to stay on point with everything lately so I can really keep myself focused. I start school next week and I'm looking for a new job as well.

Something I've been doing every morning is taking a tablespoon of olive oil every morning. It's supposed to speed your metabolism and do something else healthy. (Don't really remember the rest.)

I need to start praying more or establish a better sense of faith because I really feel like I'm slipping and I'm lucky to have the things that I have. I feel like I'm ungrateful because I don't thank God enough.

Kinda won't be smoking for a while because I'll prob have to take a few UA's if I'm looking to get a job. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! -___-

Gotta go, I need to paint my nails.

butterflies.

2010-06-27T00:45:00.003-04:00

I'm not even going to speak for fear of the blogger relationship hex. (Hey I'm not the only one who believes in it!) But...this is great!

define rachet:

2010-06-25T03:24:00.001-04:00

decor.

2010-06-21T03:33:00.008-04:00

I have no room design skills at all I just purchase and place:

These were taken 2 months ago but I think I'm going to rearrange/de-junk my room again tmrw. We'll see how this goes...

jumpin jahoozaphat.

2010-06-20T19:24:00.000-04:00

ORIGINALLY TO BE POSTED: June 19, 2010 @ 8:10pm

- Hate this family and all you dumb people who made these already privileged folks even more famous and wealthy for no reason whatsoever while your asses are still poor.

- Ryan Seacrest is just creepy.

First Sat in a while that I'm off. A movie with boocakes tonight? Putting my new $18 freakum dress to use? All of my roommates are MIA. And I have no actual friends, besides my roommates, in Charlotte. The one girl I met and invited to my home since I've lived here got wasted on the VERY FIRST night she came here and was bragging about Las Vegas and knowing Heidi Montag and trying too hard and offending my other guests; so I gave up on finding friends. And I'm not a "Hey, I'm Aliyah. What's you're name?" type person so... ehh.. I'm a lonely soul. But I'm an only child! I been a lonely soul -- I'm straight.

Maybe Lauren will wanna go out when she gets home.

And... Uhh...

I'm off this.

higher.

2010-06-14T02:50:00.003-04:00

Guess who's still up for no goddamn reason...

J. COLE | Higher

do right and kill everything.

2010-06-13T23:30:00.007-04:00

Drake is rly starting to get on my nerves with this Lil Kim shit. At first I brushed it off but I started thinking... really bruh, you have no street cred so fall back.

On the plus side, Miss Me is my shit and when I'm driving home from work you can catch me singing right along, BA-LEE DAT!

My one and only came over last night. I have not seen cakes since like May 25 so I was sooo happy. WE DID NOT FUCK. HE WILL NOT BE GETTING ANY UNTIL ALOT OF SHIT CHANGES. Which means I will be fucking with Dixie (my vib) for a good minute. Honestly I'm not off fucking with all, or any of these new dudes that have been pushing up. Although I love sex, I love my healthy kitty-cat even more so...
1. No, muthafuckin-bona, you will not be fine dining @ my expense.

2. No, P, no need in even taking that drive down here from Greensboro because you aint getting none!

3. No, Ant, the grill connect is all I'm interested in, you can move it right along after my teeth get fitted.

And so on...

I will still allow niggas to take me out to dinner though. That is always A Go.

I have not had more than 5 hrs of sleep in the last week and that shit is really starting to catch up to me; my body has been ache-y and I have no energy throughout the day.

With that being said, I have to wake up before the birds tmrw and my bath is waiting for me. Later!

died.

2010-06-10T22:11:00.007-04:00

Decided I need a change. Result?:
BLACK with one streak of BUTTER PECAN(-rican) on the BOTTOM LAYER.

NO MAS!

insomnia 12: all my layers are diff. shades of pink.

2010-06-09T03:30:00.003-04:00

Thanks Don.

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Aliyah
Birth Date: May 16th
Current Location: Charlotte
Hair Color: Blue Black with a streak of caramel (just died it) :)
Righty/Lefty: Righty boyyy.

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: birds attacking me, dying a fat ugly person who no one loved, being old and having no assets.
Your dream of the perfect date: buy me a dress, get my nails done, Ls on the highway on the way to a concert while listening to my ipod, shower together, fuck like prarie dogs.

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
Your best physical feature: idk...
Your bed time: i'm grown'o clock.
Your most missed memory: senior yr. i guess.

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
McDonald’s or Burger King: if i have to, i chose mcdonalds.
Single or Group Dates: singular.
Adidas or Nike: nike, unless we're talking about shell tops...
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee.

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: yes.
Cuss: yes.
Take showers: of course.
Have a crush: ehh.. u can say that.
Like school: hate it.

Believe in yourself: sure.
Believe what goes around comes around: yes i do, tenfold.
Believe everything happens for a reason: yes i do.
Think you’re a health freak: no but i hate GERMS!

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: work @ the mall. *rolls eyes*
Been on stage: lol no.
Eaten sushi: nah.
Been hurt: yes.
Dyed your hair: yes.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: yes, nothing too serious.
Kissed the same sex: yes, so what?
Gotten beaten up: yes. back in my bad girl, middle school days.
Changed who you were to fit in: never had to take it there.

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: 25/26.
Number of kids you’re planning on having: 1 and adopt 1.

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: doesn't matter.
Hair color: doesn't matter (not blonde obv.).
Short or long hair: short, half-moon ceasers, brush cuts, waves etc. i do not want a grown man with braids.
Fat or fit: fit.
Looks or personality: a balance of both. i'm not too big on looks but gotta be aesthetically pleasing to me. i like dudes
Fun or serious: fun.

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: this.
1 HOUR AGO: just waking up.
1 WEEK AGO: @ this time? sleeping.
1 YEAR AGO: sleeping prob.

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: like i'm ready to go back to sleep.
I HATE: the fact that I'm sick right now.
I HIDE: my vibrator.
I NEED: to start writing down my goals.
I LOVE: *blinks eyes like Hottie from Flavor of Love* CHA-CHING!

a cake-less diet.

2010-06-08T00:36:00.008-04:00

I ate HEEELLLLAAA food today. Also I died my hair. Also I went swimming. Also I will be masturbating tonight because I haven't had sex in like 3 wks and for the past 5 months I had been having sex at least once a week. But there's no more 'boocakes' in my diet so.... yeah.

-I'm watching the VH1 Hip Hop honors and Lil' Romeo is looking tasty right now.-

So about 2 wks ago me and boocakes had a huge 3 day argument. The first day it was just a disagreement, the 2nd day he was drunk and got reckless at the mouth, and the third day he basically said he doesn't think he is in the right place to be with anyone right now and he wants to get his shit together and try things after that. *master side-eye* I agree..he's told me of the shit he's going thru when we first started talking on that level... but wtf that's a waste of a few months.

I cried really hard for a while but then I took a nap and ran on the treadmill to get all my frustrations out then I forced my roommates to go out that night and almost every night since then. Being on my rebound shit I have been bagging and getting bagged left and right. But here I'm in a predicament because me and cakes have been talking alot again and he wants me to come over and talk to him and cook for me when he gets back (he's on vacay) and for now he kinda holds my heart. So I'm lost. I guess I'll have to see what happens when I see him but I can't wait to hug him and its gonna be so hard for me not to kiss him but ima try to stay hands off.

Like I said though, I have been doing me in the meantime and one of the dudes I met came down to spend some time with me and he is cool but idk about him. He does some kind of crazy work where he works all damn day and with him living about an hr away that might be inconvenient as all hell.

I'm trying to get my grill asap. I mean really, it's my #1 priority right now. But I don't want anybody I know IRL to know because I don't want it to become a trend. Like I will straight up cut someone if they up and decide they want a grill after I tell them. I hate that shit!

And here goes thiiiis niggaaa:

(mwah mwah bby<<3)

SIDEBAR: I guess I'll be back on this again seeing as I don't have shit else to do but work these days.

school's over.

2010-05-20T14:32:00.002-04:00

Summer timeeeee! :)

school
I did the best that I've ever done this semester than any semester since being in college so I'm veryyyerryyerryyy happy! Even though I only got a 2.5, it's the best I've done so can I give myself a little pat on the back for that. My overall GPA is a 1.9 now so I definitely have to make sure I do great so I can get my overall up because that's nothing to brag about.

My summer classes will be starting in July and I'm really excited to get to it so I can get this fucking school shit over with. At the same time I'm thinking about seeing about doing a year medical program and leaving UNC. I don't really wanna work in the medical field (I hate blood because of all the germs it carries and I think I'm a bacteriophobe). I really want to work with kids for the rest of my life but honestly, the salary is not great. I think I would enjoy my work, but at the same time I have a certain standard of living that I want to attain and I want to be able to afford and I really can't do that with a simple SpEd degree. So I'm going to be looking @ some schools through this year so that by next semester, if I'm going to leave UNC, I can do so and not have to worry about registering for spring.

friends
I talked to my old bestfriend, Brielle. We stopped talking August of last year because the bitch did not try to see me when I left last year so I cut her off but I missed her and wanted an update on her life and also update her about mine which leads me to my next topic...

l_ve
Me + b. Me + b. Me + b. That's still my boocakes and everything *wink wink* is grrrreattt etc. etc. He's taking me to get a tatt for my bday prez and I'm still in the works of coming up with the best design and location so... I'll post pics when everything is done.

fam
I'm looking for a place with my mom to move into in Sept. right now. She wants to move and I am sick of living with people who did not grow up with the same discipline that I grew up with. I hate when the kitchen counters are dirty and the garbage bag falls into the garbage and no one takes it out. Then my roommate had the nerve to get a fucking gerbil or guinea pig or some kind of rodent and she don't even clean up her damn mess as a human. I am just disgusted by it. Not only are rodents not pet material but the little shit sits on a table in our living room and squeals! It just makes me squeamish thinking about it!

I was trying to avoid living with my mommy but I think it's the best decision now. Plus I'm still saving for a car so not having to pay rent is a plus.

everything else
I'm still drug free :) And my liquor tolerance is shitty now so I don't even drink anymore like that. I don't miss anything yet but there's been so much going on to distract me so I'm good. Also I've been trying to keep up with my reading list (on the right) so not smoking is making me definitely more focused and feeling less lazy.

I'm trying to change my diet too. I lost my dreaded freshman 15 that I gained with diet and exercise, and I want to lose 20 more but everybody else tells me I'll look like a sick blow up doll if I do (because of my boobs and 20 pounds of weight loss on a 5'3" body is kind of drastic) but I at least want to lose 10 more just because. Since turning 20 I'm nervous because I know as you get older your metabolism slows down and one of my fears is to get old and be fat. It seems a little shallow but it's real talk. I don't want to be one of those women who regrets not getting fit earlier and hurting myself just to shed baby weight and get my metabolism up. #itiswhatitis.

quitting for a while.

2010-05-11T01:52:00.001-04:00

Looking for a new job, car, and apartment so I don't need bud to distract me.

And I'm dead ass.

spring cleaning.

2010-04-28T02:19:00.007-04:00

I think I need to cleanse myself. I think I'm going to start doing things by the Old Farmer's Almanac and see if it works. *shrug*

Also it's time for things to get fun again, this rain is bringing everyone's mood down around here. I need to get to the strip club or something.

I bought a Hello Kitty cup today when I went food shopping.

I wore silk charmeuse despite the rain, because I didn't have time to change, which was a feat within itself. x_x

Me and boocakes are still me and boocakes - time to bring in some toys or something.

:)freebud.

I ate too many cupcakes today. I rarely eat sweets but I had a cupcake craving so I made some. I also had a sandwich and chips & dip bc I had the munchies. I'm gonna regret eating all that tmrw!

I really need to stop going to sleep so late now. I'm no good @ this anymore and it's starting to catch up with me.

My bday is coming up and all I can think about is doing the same shit I do every wknd: go out to eat, do a little shopping, come back home, puff a L, (if its a wknd) sip on something, play spades, get D-ed down, sleep in and watch tv on the couch the next morning. I'm not even into all that extra bidextra bday hype. I'm just trying to live good that day.

Plus my court date is the very next day so I'm prob. gonna celebrate only on Saturday anyways.

BOY-OH-BOY! Mo'money, mo'problems.

FILTERED BLIZZIES!

2010-04-27T14:51:00.000-04:00

This needs to be standard in rolling. Ever since I've been filtering my shits there's no looking back. When you start smoking in highschool you have to try to just do that shit quickly and not get caught but now I am grown and I do what I want so I'm in no rush to roll up real quick. I'm willing to make it a 5 minute process to get my shit correct and make it last foreverrrr. and everrrrr! [/keith sweat]

This guy explains it in pretty good detail:

Iloveit:)

Oh and also you'll never have another roach! :))))))))

i'm greedy.

2010-04-26T21:21:00.002-04:00

snatched this from pepper's blog.

What color nail polish are you wearing at the moment?

Sheer glitter pink (smells like bubblegum) :)

Are you wearing socks?

Hello Kitty ones.

What color shirt are you wearing?

White tee - I'm having a bum day (cramps).

How old are you?

19.

What is a nicknames youve been given?

Liybean, Liybob, McNugget, LiyLoo, Miss Lee.

What are you afraid of?

Birds and being 30 and poor.

What is your guilty pleasure?

Shoes, celebrity gossip and porn.

Who's your celebrity dream date?

Errumm.. Too old for celebrity crushes.

How often do you party?

Twice a month prob.

Whats your favorite color lipstick?

Fuschia or nude. Depends on my mood.

Whats your favorite perfume?

Versace Baby Rose Jeans, still. Lol since the 7th grade.

Whats the last clothing garment you purchased?

Panties.

What do you buy the most?

Food.

Whats your favorite ice cream?

Haagen Daz - Vanilla Swiss Almond with cinnamon mixed in. MMM!

What's your occupation?

Claire's Keyholder.

How often do you buy make-up?

Once a month.

Is this your first time visiting the blog?

Obv. not.

Do you have a website if so what?

Eatthistwat.com

Do it too!

blow the whistle.

2010-04-24T18:52:00.001-04:00

myyyyy nigga!

here's the plan.

2010-04-22T23:15:00.003-04:00

With my new car goal quickly approaching and me blowing my savings every month on purchases @ the mall and online I need to make a rash decision that I may regret but I must follow through.

From now on (except for basics - tank tops and such, and shoes) I will be thrifting. I can no longer afford to be a wise saver and spend money like I do. As a result, my ever-long skirt collection will have to be expanded :) because I'm not really too enthused about sharing crotch material with someone else. So.. maybe I'll start to upload the pics of what I find because I'm really excited and that'll give me something to devote my summer to and help to get to my final goal (new carrrrr!) There's really nothing wrong with my car I just don't like it anymore and I want a new one.

Also, I want to try to stop watching as much tv and read a book every two weeks. I really don't watch much tv but everytime I do I feel like I'm not being productive. I'm trying to read books which contain subject matter that are relative to my major. It's So Much Work to Be Your Friend by Richard Lavoie is first on my list but I also want to read some more horror books like Son of Rosemary by Ira Levin.

That's it. I'm boring. I don't have anything else to talk about anymore.

summer's close.

2010-04-15T21:09:00.004-04:00

Time to not give a fuck. Get naked. Get drunk. Be on my "bad girl." Waste money - mainly on gallons of henny and boxes of dutches. Go out to lunch every day. Moon cars full of cute boys and square looking white people on the highway. Keep my room dirty. Sleep the WHOLE day and wake up @ 6pm. Take adventures. Maintain a bald, bikini pussy. Skip the green pills so I can miss my period. Meet other drunk people and forget I met them.

At some point I'm going to have to grow out of this but I'm not ready yet. Maybe after I turn 21 but I'm determined to make sure that the fun doesn't end now. I have the rest of my life to be bored.

I'm ready for the mundane school days to be over. All I do is go to school and work. Every fucking week it's the same shit. I really need to live again. This feels so boring and I don't want to get used to being bored any time soon.

I spent my whole day in the house. I haven't been to class all week because I was sick and I kinda don't care. I want to care but I really don't. School is becoming so fucking annoying every semester. Maybe because I feel like I'm not doing something that I love. I kinda want to take a semester off and see what I can get myself into. I've been in school for almost 16 years so I don't know what it's like to not be in school. I need a break to figure out who the fuck I am. To be honest, I can't really see my life after I graduate. Being a teacher. Just doing the same boring thing everyday. Teaching kids some bullshit that doesn't even matter in the long run. Ok, the more I talk about it it's starting to piss me off.

You know how many boring people there are in this world? People who do the same shit 5 days out of the week and think that rock climbing on saturdays is walking on the wild side. That can't be the rest of my life. I can't imagine myself being happy with that.

All I care about in this world is shoes. Pray for me, people lol.

gAypril.

2010-04-13T00:43:00.007-04:00

I never really like April. Actually, fuck April. It's a month before my bday so I'm just impatient as fuck, I am @ my peak ugly because my allergies fuck with my eyes and make me look like a murderer, and its a month before summer break and I don't really give a fuck about 10 page papers and shit and the weather is so fucking phoney. The only highlight of this month is 420 and I mean, nigs kinda stop hyping this day up after they leave high school.

Since I last posted my boo's bday came and went. He's 23 now. I was happy to spend it with him. I got arrested on some bullshit. =X I got wasted one night and woke up with the worst hangover and had to work 8 hrs the next day. I almost fought another one of my roommates because she also be on some other shit.

That's about it.

See how gay April is?

POP!POP!

furthermore.

2010-03-23T02:06:00.005-04:00

Breakfast @ 2am - Munchies. *trey songz* YUUPP!

It looks like after the little time I spent on superficial-ass tumblr, my ANTI-TWITTER movement, and facebook that aint been the same since '08, this blog here is what I am the most dedicated to giving a shit about anymore.

But basically I don't have the time or knowledge to mess with all this html or designy shit. So don't expect any major changes. Like every 4 months I think I wanna change my page up and get cute wit it but I never know where to start. And all I really know about html/graphics is how to make things bolditalicizedetc... and cartoonize my face. Sooo... this will be the most intricate this page gets. TAA DAA!

I got spazzed on by my coworker yesterday because I opened the store almost a half hour late. Even though it wasn't really my fault. (Yes, it was.) Whatever though, I'm looking for some new shit anyways. *I've never said this before--> "On to the next one."

Boocakes came to visit me @ Ca-Laire's today! My last hour of work was peachy after that. :):))) Gay smiles. Then babysitting my little niglets BJ + Coopie after. My Mondays are nuts.

This nigga got me listening to the classical music station to sleep. Country mutherfucker.

Goodnight/morning.

welcome-back-boo sex.

2010-03-23T02:04:00.002-04:00

Right on!

continued time wasting.

2010-03-18T03:52:00.003-04:00

Three names I go by:
1. Aliyah
2. Lee-lou
3. Liybean

Three jobs I have had:
1. Finish Line - Sales Associate
2. Rutgers Resident Mentor
3. Claire's Third Key

Three places I have lived:
1. Linden, NJ
2. Maplewood, NJ
3. Charlotte, NC

Three favorite drinks:
1. Sam's Club Water
2. Coconut Milk Bubble Tea
3. Arizona Green Tea

Three TV shows I watch:
1. Bad Girls Club
2. Top Chef
3. Project Runway

Three places I have been:
1. Bahamas
2. PR
3. St. Croix

Three places I would like to visit:
1. Egypt
2. Greece
3. Tokyo
4. Amsterdam
5. Canada
6. India

Three people who text me regularly:
1. boocakes
2. Mommy
3. roommates

Three favorite old TV shows:
1. Wonder Years
2. Chapelle Show
3. Clarissa Explains it All

Three favorite dishes:
1. Pad Kee Mao
2. Enchilada Suizas
3. Whatever mommy or grandma makes.

Three makeup products I cannot live without:
1. Black liner
2. Mocha Rose Rosebud Salve
3. Tinted Moisturizer

Three things I'm looking forward too:
1. Going home.
2. Turning 21.
3. New car in Jan.

2 hrs later...

2010-03-18T02:51:00.005-04:00

I'm still not reading. I'm shoe shopping online like an addict. Fuck my life. Fuck 2:53am. Fuck American Influence in Horror Literature. Fuck always feeling like I need more shoes.

*Dies*

filling you in.

2010-03-18T00:00:00.005-04:00

Just so you know I'm supposed to be reading Turn of the Screw right now. I used to read alot when I was younger but now I feel like I should either be doing something or relaxing instead of reading. Basically, reading is no longer relaxing, it's become a chore.

I have bad cramps right now. I'm kind of feeling very carefree because my cramps are taking over my whole life and it makes me not want to do shit.

I spent $20 ordering Pizza Hut $0.50 wings and chocolate dunkers and I only ate about 1/4 of what I bought. That was an indulgent waste of money. My appetite isnt the same. Idk if it's because I'm getting older but I don't like fast food anymore. It makes me sick. Hamburger patties look like fucking chopped flesh nowadays. Yuck! I wish I had more time and money to make food at home but it's more expensive to buy groceries to cook for one person than it is to just get food out.

I feel like I've met my match and my long term spades partner (boocakes). We spank ass every game and even if we get set twice we pull through and come out on top.

...So much subliminal.

CRAMPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ! *punches the wall*

I just spent an hour on facebook and still didn't finish reading Turn of the Screw. Gayy.

I can never think of things to talk about on here anymore. I've become uninspired. My life is mundane. There's no such thing as a "weekend" anymore. Monday's I open the store @ 9:30am then babysit until 9:30pm. TWTh I'm in school. FSatSun work again. Next week, repeat.

I didn't quit smoking cuz I'm not getting a new car until Jan. LOL! (I bet yall knew that wasn't gonna last.) But I hardly smoke anymore though. I get my cravings but I rarely keep weed around me and since boocakes quit for a while and I refuse to buy my own (we stopped doing those sophomore yr.) I'm only willing to purchase o's and up because buying 10s and 20s is a waste of money. And at this point in my life what do I really need with an oz of green and no one to blow down with? I don't have the time for that and that will just result in either stale ass bud or an over dose. So I'll just stick with getting nugs from mommy and waiting until my nigga gets back in the game.

I need to change my hair or something. I wanna cut it kinda but I'm scared. I am too "tenderheaded" to get braids. WEAVE well............................... it's a thought but.............................. it's NOT REAL and................. I don't HATE it but.................... ehh.

My roommates nigga finished off a bottle of my juice for the 3rd time this week. So you know I had to put somebody in check today, right? Yeah, I'm not the one.

My booty getting fat boyyy :) And I'm keeping the rest of my shit on point. I'm trying to lose maybe 5 more pounds for the summer so back to baby food, fresh fruit, nasty granola bars, soup, agua all day, green tea, blazay blah and most of all the gymmmmmmm :) I don't really have time to go to the gym anymore but after I gained and lost my freshman 15 I refuse to gain it again or surpass 145 so I gotta do what I gotta do and stop being lazy on my off days.

We're supposed to be taking a roadtrip to Jersey in May. I'm trying to buy my baby cousin an itouch for his grad present. He's like my little brother and I just wanna get him something that I know he'll really appreciate. I miss my grandma to pieces too. She is like, my whole life.

That's her ~~facebook~~ pic. (DON'T ASK LOL)

This is becoming an overshare. Goodnight.

YUP.

2010-03-16T18:26:00.000-04:00

late arrival: tagged.

2010-03-05T00:28:00.003-05:00

I'm dumb late because I have more of a life than I wish to have right now, but as of today I am officially on Spring Break. I am contemplating whether I want to use these next 11 days to work my ass off or not even let my manager know that I have Spring Break and just take the hours she gives me. *shrug* Idk, I'll decide tmrw when I go to work.

I was tagged though! :) by ms. Chocolate Girl Wonder.

Rules:
Post 10 things that make you happy, try to do at least one of them today, link back to the person who awarded you, and pass along to up to 10 people

1. Random generosity - I love when people do things that express that they were thinking of me despite them HAVING to even do anything for me at all. I try to do generous things so when it comes back I'm truly grateful.
2. D.
3. Kush rolled in a grape dutch - :)
4. Sleeping in.
5. Boy boy - for now.
6. When more than 2 good songs come on in a row when my ipod is on shuffle. - this yields a mini orgasm, maxi orgasm if I'm high.
7. My great grandma, Ollie Fears. - That's my chick! My great gma is like everything and a half to me and she makes me so happy whenever I see her and get to talk to her.
8. New shoes - gotdamn this shit should be at the top of the list.
9. Spending time with my mommy.
10. Finally getting something I've been craving for a while.

You know I love you all equally the same so I'm tagging everyone! (:

my shirt off ..

2010-03-02T00:03:00.002-05:00

i take my shirt off all the hoes stop breathin.

FYI.

almost march.

2010-02-28T03:17:00.004-05:00

Stacking and having no self-control is hard! My roommates do pretty good at helping me not spend money when I go to the mall before work and stuff and not spending money going out to eat as much. I ate chicken salad twice this week! Which is like a-mazing because I don't really do leftovers. They're boring.

The only reason why I even have the time to type this right now is because my toenails are drying and I'm sitting at my desk in the meantime waiting for them so I can hop in the bed. I've been working my little tail off just thinking of cheese all day, all night. I've also been trying to be more focused in school and actually GO to class more so where last semester I wouldn't go to class and just sleep, this semester I don't get as much sleep time on my off days because I'm actually in class and doing hw now.

One of the main benefits of going to class is not being lost in the sauce when you finally decide to go. I used to walk into class and my professors would be expecting papers and having pop quizzes and I'm all...

It's CIAA wknd which apparently is something epic that I should care about being that I'm young and black and in Charlotte, NC but I actually don't give one fuck. This is my first time ever hearing of CIAA and all the hoopla that surrounds it. Black people so muthafuckin extra when it comes to events. Like, damn!

I have never seen so many black people in the mall I work at in my 5 months of working there than I have today. My manager was the one who reminded me of why the mall was so poppin. Subsequently, she felt the need to tell me we had so much "known loss" (tags left over from shit people stole) today. Hit that bitch with the hard side eye, asap.

Whatever though, like I said, I'm just grindin. I smoked yesterday and until some joyous occasion takes place I will not be smoking anytime soon.

No need to speak on boy boy.

We're doing us.
'Nuff said.

umm... let's see. waves magic wand

2010-02-26T00:43:00.005-05:00

I'm feeling really whimsical so I've decided to shed some layers and dump my current boyboy and quit smoking again. I was doing really good when I sobered up and then I slipped up when this niggi started coming by regularly so I gotta get back to grinding again. I hate to severe ties but at the same time we're not making moves in either direction. It's stagnant right now and I'm hot blooded, I need some excitement!

My roommates are in the livingroom doing the most @ 12:48am like these walls are soundproofed and I don't have to open the store in the morning. -______-

Umm... the other day my room was looking like a random gypsy horder room so I took some pics of it before I cleaned the shit out of it. I really need to do some spring cleaning literally and spiritually.

Facebook is starting to get on my nerves too. I've had a facebook for a long time and ALOT has changed. Unacceptable people like my grandma and my little cousins, bestfriends, 13 yr. old little brother have requested me and it's like ehh.. REALLY?! Idk. It's just ridonkulous now. I'm still not even comfortable with accepting people I didn't really talk to like that in school.

I have been working myself sick so I can stack and still live a little right now and it's nuts but oh well, that's how it is. I guess my little short stint of having no weed has helped me realize that it really don't bring me shit. It don't make nothing better, nothing worse, it just wastes time, and really I need all the extra time for taking care of myself that I can get.

I wanna change my site around but I forgot how to do all that damn html wysiwyg bullshit that I learned in 10th grade. So until I really get some time to sit down and try to figure out things on this damn computer you will continue to see that obnoxious banner that's been there for a good yr now.

I'll let you know how my "spring cleaning" goes. But trust and believe it's gonna go. Really, I got a few things I'm tryna obtain so I'm like let's make moves!

...and while we're on the subject,

2010-02-25T02:12:00.003-05:00

This is the bomb.com.

I'll be back to say more. I've been really busy lately with work, school, and trying to have my cake and eat it too. So btwn all that, all I wanna do is just go to sleep.

But I'm up sitting up in bed feeling like a tootsie roll. I ate too much food today: garlic toast, shrimp scampi w/ rice, mcdonalds and a brownie. Ugh I'm so miserable right now.

But like I said... I'll be back..... MWAHAHAAHAAA! [/evil laughter]

happy vday - cp time.

2010-02-15T03:18:00.005-05:00

I'm all late but.. Happy Valentines Day.

Smooches and all that good shit.

I'm not about patronizing the whole... chocolates, flowers and random gifts aspect of Vday because frankly, I don't give two shits about niggas trying to do the most on February 14th. That's so cliche and I'm not one to appreciate romanticism. (I think it's cheesy.) I'm just tryna have a good day, and I did. I woke up next to him, smoked a L, had breakfast with my roomie and her niggi and my niggi, and like clockwork I was in my skirt and heels flying up Eastway to make it to work so I can make my young mulah baby. Because really, What's a day without money made?

Hope everybody else got theirs though. ;] ....Whatever it is that you wanted.

I also would like to add:

I had some banging Cuban food the other day and I will be going back to get fried yuca.
My AM is bouta get fired cuz she's trife. (Guess who'll be snatching up them hrs...)
And there's probably something else I could've squeezed in here but my brain can't function right now.

I love my followers though so air kisses all around!

zSHARE - Rihanna - Rude Boy _Diplo Rudeboyz Remix_.mp3

2010-02-13T04:05:00.004-05:00

zSHARE - Rihanna - Rude Boy _Diplo Rudeboyz Remix_.mp3

And THIS is just dope.

Comparison apparent:

VS.

wonder what it was....

2010-02-13T03:57:00.001-05:00

I say haze, or K.

Weedies, what you think?

skateboy j.

2010-02-12T13:34:00.003-05:00

CERTIFIED: INDOOR TEN from Creative Control on Vimeo.

My friend* Jon Lodge (red hoodie) is on the come up with his skating and I'm proud of him. Watch him try do some hard ass trick @ Bryant Park station, NY. :(

*Not kidding. Me and my girls used to chill with his crew heavy during senior year.
(Lol, throwback attire.)

debauchery.

2010-02-12T00:46:00.019-05:00

Hiya! I'm bored so it's time for an update.

*Me and boyboy are still getting it in. He always does the most in trying to control our "situation." Sometimes I just wanna tell him spare me the theatrics but that would make me seem insensitive and I try to stroke his male ego because we have potential so I just go along with things.

"::GASP:: You can't come over today?.. Aw man, I'm upset....yadda yadda yadda"

What's crazy is he's dying to "just chill" on VDay when I already told him I'm gonna be busy all day. SMH... niggas.

*I met me a doe boy today. *cue Three 6 Mafia - Doe Boy Fresh*

*And dude from my American Horror class is still trying *side-eye* He get's an E for effort and a D in the damn class because he doesn't read the stories we're assigned and instead of paying attention in class he does shit like kick my chair every so often and try to get me to look at him so he can ask for some of my fruit snacks. Ninja please! I'm tryna focus!

Besides that, what it look like?

I been in the mall too fucking much. I'm deciding I'm just gonna ~~hide~~ my debit card in my top drawer until I can get it together and stop shopping. I don't know HOW I spent [insert significant amount of dollars here] yesterday when I was only in the mall for 40 minutes but Bank of America was up bright and early to remind me of that shit on my blackberry alerts. Tsk tsk.

Shoes always get me though. I can tell myself I'm not gonna buy shit but then I step into Aldos and go bonkers. smh... And then I try to take advantage of 5 for $25 @ Vickies everytime I go to the mall because a girl can never have too many panties and I don't buy them anywhere else.

But a bitch gets paidddd tomorrow and the day after that. So it's alllll gravy!

Point is I've fast forwarded my desire for a new car. Hopefully I will be getting one for my birthday as a present to myself. Trying to wait until January is sorta like a no-go because A. I have no patience and B. the more I think about getting a new car the more I'm starting to hate my current car. She's good but it's time to upgrade.

Whoa! Has anybody else tried the new sweet chili dipping sauce @ Mickey D's? I think I'm gonna hafta cheat on bbq for a while and have an affair with sweet chili. OMFG it's so goooooooooooood.

New ink --(click to see it bigger:)

(Disregard my chichos there. That's a work in progress.) I took that the other day, it's healed a little more since then so the color is better set because it looks kinda dull (and dry. The pics I took with ointment had too much glare). I'll prob take another pic by next week so you can see how it looks fully healed.

I bit a huge chunk out of Jessica Alba's swag because she had this one first:

But I thought hers was too ropey looking for my taste, *shrug.*

I like Nivea's bow too but I think that would've been too big for my location:

I'll probably get my 3rd one (the one I want on my foot) around my bday too because by then I'll be able to wear sandals so it can heal better.

I showed my mom and she's like, "When you're older you're not gonna be able to explain the significance of having a red bow above your ass crack, Lee." She got the quick side-eye for that little comment. I told her, "When I'm older my kids will also be doing some bizarre shit that I'm not gonna like."

There's nothing like being young and carefree and privileged enough to do what you want in good measure.

With that being said, a porn star is calling my name in another tab. GOOOOOOOODNIGHT.

OMG! MCQUEEN COMMITTED SUICIDED?

2010-02-11T12:46:00.005-05:00

You lyinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.............

RIP Alexander McQueen. Your innovation will be missed.

And now this will make the remaining pieces of his so much more expensive and out of my range because you know EVERYBODY becomes more famous after they die.

rude boy.

2010-02-11T04:00:00.004-05:00

I sware I don't fucks with Rihanna like that and I know yall bouta see this video everywhere and a half. But tell me she is not giving us the business.

I'm wit' it. 100%. She selling that sex aint she though? Finally she's expressing more of her West Indian culture in this video which I like. I die for cultural things because I despise being 'just American'. I mean I know way back it goes deeper than that but the most I know is that my great great grandparents on both sides were born in America which bores me to pieces. So when people don't get braggy about their background aliyah gets angry!

But uhh.. I'm rambling. Lemme get off this.

where them bloggaz at? where them bloggaz at?

2010-02-09T20:54:00.004-05:00

I don't do this often but I need to shed some light on a blog that I love.

TOKYO(aka ms. kick)'s blog(clickable) is very hot. I don't even know what she's saying because it's all in a language that I don't know but I can interpret the pictures.

So if you wanna see some hot shit on the reg go over there and visit and/or follow.

*thumbs up*

Btw does anyone know how to translate blogs? Lemme know!

yesterday.

2010-02-04T02:52:00.006-05:00

So about 24 hours ago I hopped in the shower and decided I wanted to get another tatt. Since then, I have not only gotten another tattoo but I also got my old one redone and revamped a little bit.

It was quite an impulsive decision but tattoos are very cheap down here. Also, the tattoo guy was kinda cool so I think I met me a new friend.

Right now I'm drugged up on 3 Pamprin, a 600mg Ibuprofen, weed and, Xenadrine. (No, I'm not trying to kill myself I just forgot about taking the Ibuprophen because I had killa cramps, and I took one of my roommates Xenadrine because I knew I was bouta get silly with the leftover spaghetti and meatballs I made the other day. *shrug*)

The one on my back didn't hurt that bad, it was kinda that whole pleasure pain thing where it hurts but it kinda tickles...y'know. But in the center it hurt ALOT. Getting my original wrist tattoo refilled hurt like fucking hell. I don't remember it hurting so bad the first time but it might be because he had to go over the first one and he was trying to make it really dark so I don't need to get it redone again.

Me and my mom are going for Vietnamese tmrw and I'll tell her then. I would post pics but it's still really fresh and because it's kinda hard to take a picture of my tramp stamp without falling or accidentally touching it, I'm just gonna wait a couple days before I try to take pics and even then I'll decide if I wanna post because you'd be getting alot of crack on your screen in order to get the full effect, nahmean?

Yes, you heard correct, I got a tramp stamp and if you don't like it you can eat my twat.

That will be all.

five things: food confessions

2010-02-02T19:08:00.005-05:00

Let's thank Frankie Nichelle @ texthibitionistic behavior(link). Here's my 5.

1. I will not eat HAM, EVER. Not only do I not fuck with swine like that, cooked ham looks like human flesh; pink and meaty. On top of that, sliced ham (as in the lunch meat) is so fucking processed. I will not put that disgusting looking meat inside my body.

2. I don't like breakfast foods. Even when I go to Ihop I get chicken fingers and hashbrowns. I WILL make an exception for omelettes though. Main reason I don't eat breakfast food is because everything is made with syrup and I don't like syrup because it's too sweet. It's like liquid candy.

2. This is more of a drink confession: I will not drink a warm drink. And if I don't have a cold drink on hand when I have food, I won't eat either.

3. If chicken is on a bone I will not pick it up and bite into it. I pick every single piece of chicken I eat unless it is boneless, skinless chicken breast. All those little veiny strings and shit do not belong in my body. Unless the skin is fried crispy, I don't wanna chew and/or swallow that fatty shit either.

4. I think food tastes better when it's not fresh off the stove. HOT, HOT food has no flavor or it's just too hot for me to notice what shit tastes like. So normally, when I get food I chill for 5 minutes while my food gets adjusted and then I go in like a fucking vulture.

5. I eat baby food still. Only the fruit ones. It's just like applesauce - pureed fruit! And it's goooood.

Do you have any food confessions?

bad habits.

2010-01-28T17:41:00.004-05:00

For some reason after you get off that long ass dry spell you want it day in and day out. That is not the business because I'm not trying to get all in with this nigga. He hits me up on the daily and although I'm trying to be cordial and all that, this is strictly business and I'm not looking for lve. Especially a couple wks before vday. Yeah, vday presents are cool and all but I feel like all that lovey-dovey vday shit is mad fake if you haven't been seeing the same person for a long time prior to the holiday. We're gonna see how everything plays out.

I need to stop shopping. I got some change saved up to kick off my car savings but I've still been shopping on the reg like I got it like that. I'm in a very comfortable financial position right now but I still need to be smart about what I buy and stop being so fucking impulsive. I have 4 bags worth of stuff sitting at my feet right now that I have yet to wear let alone I have yet to wear my sneakers (I don't really wear sneakers that much now). All from this past month's shopping excursions. -I'm the type of person who doesn't take shit out of the bag until I'm ready to wear it.

With that being said, I want these more than I want dinner for the next 3 wks:

Patent Leather Brogues - Marc by Marc Jacobs, $350

One thing I must say though, is that God has me right where I wanna be right now and I'm extremely thankful. Because of that, I feel like it's only right to give back in any way I can so in the next week I'll not only be donating clothes to Goodwill but I'll also be shipping out clothes and baby formula to Haiti soon as I get some boxes from mommy this wknd. Karma works both negatively and positively and I feel like putting that good karma into the world makes me better appreciate what I have and feel less guilty about my incessant spending.

I smoke every now and then now when ..... brings it. But I'm not going nuts anymore.

After the other argument I had with my roommate the other day. Me and my other two roommates filed a complaint on that ass and got her kicked out. She should be done moving by tmrw. I like when things go my way. Bitch had the nerve to say if there's liquor in the house or if people are smoking on the porch she's gonna call the cops on us. She also said "If you want a bitch, I'll be a bitch... I can be your worst nightmare." I'm like HOLD THE FUCK UP! Not after her drunk ass broke our living room table, or all the times she invited random strangers from outside into our apt. That's a no-go. So I gave her one of these -__- and now her ass is packing.

I'm trying to get my ace, Vanessa, to come down here during spring break so she can witness what I go through on a daily living in NC.

Besides all that, everything is all gravy. I'll prob be on here later to open my big, fat mouth some more but right now I gotta get ready ;].

Oh, let me not forget. HAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY new followers! And to my old followers, yall stay down so you know it's ALL LOVE, ALL THE TIME.

good morning, spitta.

2010-01-27T09:02:00.002-05:00

CURREN$Y - BREAKFAST from Creative Control on Vimeo.

This too:

does the "i got some dick" dance

2010-01-26T01:55:00.002-05:00

Good D, too.

insomnia 10: stopping in.

2010-01-21T03:55:00.016-05:00

I'm making moves out here. Right now things are good. My car is nearly kaput but it's all gravy because I plan on getting a new car in Jan. I'm aiming for the g35 but who knows. I just gotta have some restraint on how I spend my young mulah baby so that means no more Jimmy John's, Thai food, and picking up random things on my way to the cash register "because it's only 10 dollarsss!" I'm a sucker for things that are "only *insert any monetary figure that is $20 or less here*" or if they have a SALE sign hanging above it. SMH.

I'm not going in on my l_ve life because every time I mention shit about a nigga on here..... well, you know the rest. So, mind your business. I will say I keep torturing my ex by sending him half-nakies (yup, with the face cut off). It's FUN! :] MWAHAHAHAAAAA!!!

I'm probably gonna end up moving back with my mommy after my lease is up in July. She hates her living situation and even though I don't necessarily wanna live with her I'm not really feeling my living situation either. I don't think I'll be able to live with another female that I don't fuck with like that again. Mommy gets on my last nerves, but at the end of the day that's moms, so I just walk away stewing but in 15 minutes I'm good. When people that I don't care about get on my nerves, it makes me just wanna pour ammonia in their soup. (And I say this with the straightest of straight faces right now) Revenge is sweet to me and I just get evil thoughts sometimes. *kanye shrug*

And plus, I wanna get a puppy and we can't have pets here. Womp womp!

Ummm... my ass still fat, my waist still little and my titties still plump and that's all that matters.

Sike. But forreal though, here's some pics from our... idk... dinner turned party the other night: (be advised: i was in rare form. click the pics for hugeness)

That is a sexy tatt.

Niggas get Henny in the sys and start breaking tables and shit... SMH.

Those are my roommates. (We all kinda don't fuck with the tall bitch anymore. Well.. I don't fuck with her AT ALL.)

Wanna know what's crazy though? Dude with the tatt (I forgot his name) was trying to put that word in my ear the WHOLE NIGHT! He even put his # in my phone but I have no clue what his name is so it's somewhere lost in my contacts. Nothing was gonna go down though cuz I'm a laaaaaaaaaaadyyyyy [/Shananay voice].

masturbation is good for the soul.

2010-01-18T02:31:00.002-05:00

*drops mic*

quickie.

2010-01-16T19:59:00.004-05:00

Ima type this shit up real quick and then Ima get back to my homework.

Things for this past month have been on the up and up for me... which is good. It's a new semester. Rent is paid. I got to buy myself some nice late christmas gifts (32g itouch [i've been planning my savings for that since nov.] some sneakers [despite how much I claim I don't wear them anymore] the spizikes, and since i got my refund check also *cha-ching* I just went hog wild and got flu games too).

I jailbroke my ipod and now I get to put things like weed backgrounds on it ;] Yahoozie!

Me and mommy are straight. Every situation I have with every nigga that I talk to right now is good. So I'm a happy camper.

I didn't stop smoking.

I got blasted drunk last night and we had a mini-party where apparently I kissed this white guys stomach who had a huge lion head tatt covering the whole thing. *shrugs*
(I lowkey like white guys though so this doesn't actually surprise me, one bit.)

And errumm... that's enough shameful admissions for one day.

Me and my roommate just had an argument because she put my clothes on top of the washer instead of putting them into the dryer or at least saying something like an ol' ignant ass. I don't leave my clothes in the washer like that but my mom needed me to do something for her so I dropped what I was doing.

Idk.. I'm trying to grow as a person and see the error in my ways more but I just don't see how I'm wrong for expecting someone to speak up or be a little selfless.

And that about sums up everything.

I would post a pic but that's mad work to upload and blahh blahh blahh... Maybe nxt time.

f.y.i

2010-01-11T00:05:00.005-05:00

I'm enjoying and facing this last L right now because I'm about to stop smoking. This isn't a resolution or anything but I'm just gonna make it something that I deserve. I think I'll smoke again when I get an A on a test in every class. (That sounds like a good plan.) I think that'll give me about a month before I spark up again. But I slowly wanna work on quitting.

;-]

Whoa! Just had a "bitches love smiley faces" moment.

Furthermore, work is.. work. School starts tomorrow. Mommy is back to being my favorite niggi again. (I was not feeling her last week when we were in Jersey, at all.) My roommate loves me on the low because she got me a nice present for xmas: a nice foot spa tub thingy. And that refund check comes in this wk so I can buy books, pay some rent, and do whatever the fuck I want with the leftover. We ballinnn bitches! -I really need to save it though because I'm trying to get a new car next year.

But let me get up off this and get ready for my Monday.

Toodles, noodles. (Why do I say that? I feel like a 1st grade teacher every time I type that shit.)

ahh.. a new year!

2010-01-02T02:20:00.002-05:00

Here we go! It is 2010 and I am ready for this year to be FTW.

I don't like to make resolutions so I don't have anything that I plan on doing this year that I didn't do last. As things progress I'll make the changes that I see fit but I'm not gonna make overall goals for a whole year. That's a pre-failed promise in my opinion.

I went on this party bus event to NY to bring in the new year with a few of my highschool friends & their friends from their schools. It was decent. It was just really crazy. Mad sleezy heffers, and arguments and fuckery was in place. It was just ridiculous. And I am not a friendly drunk. I'm belligerent and grumpy like hell. Waiting for an opportinity to cuss a nigga out. So I had to do that twice in order to put people back in their place. People were getting kicked off the bus and shit. But aside from all that extra the unltd. free liquor at my disposal, champagne toasts, and ripping bitches shit was well worth the $60 admission fee.

I'm at Grandmas. So far I've hit all of the points of people that I NEEDED to see except for my father's side of family, which I believe I'll be catching up with this wknd. Hopefully everything goes well. Even though I hate the ridiculous drive it is to get here, I don't think I'll be able to fly again without having a car. It's really annoying having to rely on others and it makes me feel like I'm not grown enough to do things whenever the fuck I want, which I clearly am.

I heard one of my roommates smoked weed while I was gone. Yes, the churchy one. That makes me laugh. And I'm mad I missed it. I heard she hated it though so... I bet she wasn't hitting that good-good. *kanye shrug*

I'm watching some shit called American Gangster and it's cool.

I don't think I'll be as up on my blogging and net surfing in a minute because I'm trying to rid some of my small distractions. So my posts will probably be more few and far between.

I'm trying to concentrate on making big moves this year so I gotta be as focused as possible. That means less free time.

But I do wanna make some changes for my blog in this year too so I'll try to make sure I make time for that.

Now let me get back to watching American Gangster.

jersey soon,

2009-12-29T00:53:00.000-05:00

Tomorrow I'll be home<3

no titles here, bud!

2009-12-26T22:14:00.004-05:00

So I'm getting high in my bathroom and blasting my ipod (story of my life) and I start dancing to Amy Winehouse - Back to Black really hard, like embarrassingly hard, and I just heard a loud ass beep out of nowhere!

My paranoid ass goes and turns the music off and closes my bathroom door. Then I start thinking the alarms are gonna go off and the sprinklers are gonna come on in this building like they did the other day in the other building. :-O

Now I'm thinking about how I want a milkshake. Rly baddddd! From Cookout or Sonic! Ugh.

I did like 25 ear piercings today. No lie! They were just back to back to back. A million and one moms decided it'd be a great Christmas present this year. FML!

But at least it made my shift go by faster. Then I went SHOPPING!!! Well really, not really. I only bought 2 things.

I want water or ice cream! I get the worst sweet cravings sometimes...

Ok, I'm rambling. Bye.

half-ass christmas.

2009-12-25T22:02:00.007-05:00

I stayed over my mommy's house lastnight after I got home from work so we could do Christmas morning like we usually do. I got her 2 stupid little things because I'm broke: a Zippo lighter (she smokes weed, and I hate seeing grown women with cheap gas station lighters) and these boots that I got for myself that she loved, I got her a pair.

She got me a new printer. I'm always fussing with my shit even though its CLEARLY broke and I refuse to buy a new one. So she did it for me. Also a bottle of Cruzan, a few hundred bucks so I can have young mulah baby when I'm get to Jersey in 4 days, a new robe, some Bobbi Brown lipglosses, and errrumm... I think that's it.

We spoke with my fam.
We watched movies.
We napped. (I slept in and out the whole day because today's the first day I got to sleep past 8 and haven't had to work a 5+ hr shift.)

And that was it. I slept so much, off and on, today that I actually thought it had gone into the next day and Christmas was yesterday.

I didn't get to eat anything involving my grandma's gravy since before August. I'm FUCKING PISSED! All I ate today was 5 chicken wings and 2 of those appetizer sized spinach quiches.
Now you tell me, what kinda fucking Christmas is this?

No FAMILY? No GRAVY?
I am too through with this living in North Carolina bullshit.

*sparks up*

You wouldn't believe how many times I open a different tab of my page and listen to a song loop over and overr and overrr.... espesh when I'm high. It's fucking great!

curren$y.

2009-12-24T01:26:00.004-05:00

CURREN$Y W/ DISCO BISCUITS in PHILLY from Creative Control on Vimeo.

Ok so now WHAT'S your excuse for not fucking with curren$y?

(And he got that ugly-sexy look to him... It's hard to explain.)

click-clack.

2009-12-21T22:47:00.005-05:00

My grades were buns. (I refuse to publicly embarrass myself so I'm not telling you my shit.)

I just got done painting my nails. None of my roommates are here. I have the ONLY chocolate craving and it's not even "that time."

Work be chewing my ass, man. Gotta open by myself again tmrw so that means I gotta be there @ 7:30 and do all those fucking morning tasks by myself. It's whatevs though, my paycheck will definitely be Whole Foods-healthy. YUM!

Idk what I'm doing for NYE yet. I'm not one for planned nights (shit always gets fucked up somehow) but right now I got nothing. Let's hope I don't end up drinking rum & cokes and ordering movies ondemand in the den @ my grandparents house while grandma makes snacks downstairs. -- I've done that one too many times before.

Masturbation and marijuana for the remainder of the evening? Good plan, Aliyah!

8 days until Jrsy.

doing the most.

2009-12-20T22:46:00.004-05:00

Plz take the time out of your day to watch this. This shit is epic.

Ummm..... *blank stare*

Some of the funny comments:
"Lil mama wasnt invited, she just showed up!!"

"YO LIL MAMA ADMITTED TO BEING A MAN SHE SAID "AND I BE DOIN MY THING LIKE LIL MAN MAN....AHAHAHAHAH SHES A MAN MAN!!!"

"yo Nicki Minaj n lola luv should rumble cuz they both claim to be hard then they should eat each other out cuz they claim to be freaks"

wait, wait, wait!

2009-12-20T00:36:00.004-05:00

Before I take my black ass to sleep...(I got work at 6(WTF?):30am.) I just wanna mention that my mother, Robin McDaniel, is the best mother ever! She knows that Bank of America raped me for overdraft fees and took half my check *raises fist*, she knows that I never have food in my fridge, and she knows that I spend so much money in gas getting to and from work. So she...

*I'm starting to get teary eyed*

Brings me food to work! Yeah! She did that! A half hour before my 7 slave hours, shift ended she shows up and waits for a half hour in Macy's while I pick cotton, I mean, put out jewelry at Claire's and she had food for me! That's the nicest thing she's ever done. I mean, not literally but, this is one of the frequent moments in my life that I get subconsciously reminded how much my mom loves me.

Yeah that made my whole day.

Then we shopped together and got some shit for my cousins for xmas, we tried all this different hot tea in this store in the mall and we talked about family gossip and what not. She dropped me off at my car that was parked all the way on the other side. Then we went our separate ways (she lives in south Charlotte, I live in north.)

Today was pretty ace, thanks to mommy.

wussup though?

2009-12-19T23:05:00.003-05:00

Y'know, just showing some PDA with my booski.

TMI Blog Award

2009-12-19T01:56:00.006-05:00

I got an award everybody! I swear I love these shits.

Thanks, Reese and D.V.!

TMI BLOG AWARD RULES:

1. Post the award.
2. List 8 things a voyeur/peeping tom could potentially catch you doing if they were watching you.
3. Award to 8 bloggers.
4. Make sure they know you enjoy peeping through their windows.

8 Things a NASTY PERVERT would catch me doing:

I'd have to be really distracted to not notice he's looking in my room because my nosy ass is always looking out the window.

1. Throwing furniture, frantically searching for my wallet 2 minutes before I'm supposed to be out the door.

2. Sleeping hard as hell.

3. Dancing/singing and putting on makeup/smoking in my bathroom.

4. Masturbating, duh.

5. Trying to reach a shoe under my bed.

6. 8 Minute Abs.

7. Half naked looking through my closet.

8. Watching movies online, in my bed.

I'm tagging everybody!!! I'm not choosy.
(Comment if you do it plz. I wanna see!)

blurb.

2009-12-19T00:43:00.007-05:00

OMG Special K Red Berries is my shit! It's the only other cereal I don't think is disgusting besides Kix with no milk.

Anyways I'm fucking up this bowl of cereal and thinking about shit. Like how I wanna buckle down and focus for next semester. I really just wanna start over completely and not look back. I need to make a routine though to do that because one of my worst habits is acting on impulse. If I don't have daily tasks I'll get so distracted from the shit that I'm really supposed to be doing.

I kinda wanna change my major but that's irrelevant right now.

I painted my nails yesterday and they're already chippy. FML.

Ok so there's supposed to be some big storm coming. I hope it doesn't get too crazy because I have to go to work like everyday until I leave. I hate the fact that we only have 5 people at my job and we get mega hours. I know it's gonna slow down after the season is over which ends in like 2 more wks anyways so I'm not gonna complain.

Jersey in 10 days! And something tells me it's not gonna be as exciting as I want it to be. It's just gonna be regular ass, rude NJ. None of my friends will probably be around, I'm not gonna have my car because I'm flying so that sucks and I feel like everybody's gonna be too busy to be able to do stuff. That's always how things like this end up going. You get all worked up and then you're like, "Oh." when you get there.

But hopefully it's not too bad. I really just wanna make sure I spend as much time with my family as possible. Not even out doing things, but just being in their presence again so I can re-remember the weird things about them like how they smell and their dimples and how tall they are etc. etc. Idk, if you've ever missed somebody that you loved so much you know this feeling.

I wanna puppyyyyyyyyy so bad.

I've just been thinking about so much lately. Like I said, this has been a breakthrough year. Things have been nuts this year for me; not all things were bad things either. But I still just wanna make a turn around for the better in the year to come. I won't be a "teenager" anymore and that to me makes me wanna put more effort into becoming more stable as I enter my adult years. One of my fears is being unachieved, being unachieved AND old?......

I like Snooki.
I hate Natalie.

& I have a love/hate thing with Nicki Minaj. Like wtf? She was fire on Higher Than A Kite, Million Dollar Baby was good (minus the Max B), I Gets Crazy is hot too. Then she had to get all Bratz doll on us. But Dopeman is kinda tight. (Sorry, I'm biased anything with Pusha is a go in my book.)

It's cold as fuck in this house. I'm bouta to turn the heat on full-ignorant-motherfucking-BLAST. (I like doing things to this specific extreme.)

Ok, that's all I wanted to say.

Wait, one more thing. I kinda miss NF. He had my interest.

bum nights.

2009-12-18T03:04:00.001-05:00

I'm a little tossed right now. I just got back from this club called The Breakfast Club with my roommates and that shit was not how it was last wk. That shit is too hood for my liking. But like country hood though; Crime Mob - Nuck if you Buck hood. So my wack ass roommates wanna leave and come back home knowing it aint shit to do here either! Womp womp.

And now some fuckery is going on outside. The sprinklers in the next building over went off people are running out.. but it's not a fire. Smh. This apartment complex is so ghetto.

Whatever though. I'm done.

surveying 2009.

2009-12-17T00:04:00.003-05:00

Got this from one of my fave blog tag teams: Tasteless Diamonds.
1]My favorite album was?
- "Fantasy Ride" - Ciara*

2]Most prized posession?
- My damn job. Niggas are broke out here.

3]Shit I gave up on...
- Trying to go natural. FAIL!

4] Something I fell in love with...
- Cookout.

5] A goal I accomplished was..
-Finding work that was related to my major.

6] Something I changed about myself...
-I lost like 10 pounds. Which may not seem like alot but it is because I'm only 5'3.

7] Favorite Movie-
-Harry Potter and whatever the fuck.

8] I've been wanting it all year...
-A puppy.

9] Historic event-
-I moved outta Jersey. >=[

10] BEST 2009 memory..
-The best memory to leave Jersey with: being stoned "Summer Youth Counselors" with my ace Vanessa. Unforgettable shit.

*I hope you know I'm kidding. I really hope you do.

yes the fuck i am!

2009-12-15T00:47:00.004-05:00

Lol guess what guys! I'm sitting in the library right now. I started smoking a little bit around 10om and that shit just had me thinking like, "WTF, Aliyah, are you really gonna be careless about another final?.... You got yourself into this situation.....Don't just give up on yourself...yadda yadddaa" (y,know all that motivational shit." So I decided to get the fuck up and start my day. I took a shower, got dressed, and decided to finish my shit in the library and get the fuck out of the bed tryna call myself "studying." Which in all actuality was me revisiting tumblr and sitting on facebook reading status'. So I got up and came bouncing in here like I'm on Addy! About to try to rip through this shit, still a little stoned, and with my ipod on full-ignorant-motherfucking-BLAST! No, I'm not disturbing anybody.

Shout out to:
Sam's Choice water (yeah, that high-end shit from Walmart.):

Fudge Shoppe 100 Calorie Grasshoppers:

The Clipse - Til the Casket Drops:

DWLD LINK IF YOU DON'T HAVE IT YET.

And that sticky-icky green (xoxoxo):

Outtie 5000.
(^ did I just type that?)

FINALS CAN SMD!

2009-12-13T21:36:00.002-05:00

I really hate this shit! It is so overwhelming come the end of the semester and sometimes I just wanna get it over with so much that I don't even think about it. It's either I UNDERstress or OVERstress. It's always an extreme with me and it can never be anything normal. There was alot of pressure and crazy shit going on with me this semester and it's definitely been wearing me down. I sleep all the time, I feel depressed, I always feel like I'm worn out and I have this bad habit of clenching my teeth when I'm stressed out which, in turn causes more stress. I'm going to see a doctor about everything tomorrow because it's really time for me to get all of this together. I don't wanna see myself have another semester of shitty grades or even mediocre grades. That's not right. I know I put alot of negative pressure on myself sometimes and I don't give myself enough credit for the things I have done successfully but alot of that is because my main priority is school and that's what I keep fucking up with the most. Then on top of that my job takes alot of of me also. My whole day has been consumed since last Monday with either a full day of work or a full day of school. I know that's probably normal but it's starting to stress me out and all of the work I've been doing doesn't give me enough time to study and not feel like I'm overworking myself. I'm just ready for this semester to finally be done and I can start from scratch. I really need to learn how to manage my time better and have normal sleeping patterns because alot of my problems revolve around how irregular my sleeping patterns are and how I how my days in general are irregular. I just really need to get it together.

p.s. I'm jelly, my roommate's cousin is buying her a mac. >=[

what if...

2009-12-09T03:08:00.005-05:00

If it's green and hairy, I will smoke it.

If it's funny and weird, I will love it.

If it's soft and cuddly, I will touch it.

If it's cool and sweet, I will drink it.

If it's flattering and tight, I will wear it.

If it's easy and fun, I will do it.

If it's dark and rich, I will taste it.

If it's fast and shiny, I will drive it.

If it's cute and clean, I will kiss it.

If it's meaningful and deep, I will read it.

If it's pink and sparkly, I will buy it.

...just so ya know.

and the winner is...

2009-12-08T04:45:00.002-05:00

Cherokee!
(Does my blog have a content warning when you click it? Psshh.. oh well!)

This warrants a song change. Enjoy!

weekly obsessions and confessions

2009-12-07T03:57:00.000-05:00

Haven't done one of these in a while, have I?

Week of november 30-december 6, 2009:

OBSESSIONS
- Victoria's Secret Pout Collection Lipgloss in Peony

- Naked Juices "Green Machine"

- Watch My Shoes - Lil Wayne, No Ceilings

- Trippy music that ~~scares me~~ fucks with my brain when I'm high. (RZA - Goodnight Kiss)

- The smell of Auntie Anne's pepperoni pretzels

- Crystal Light Peach Mango Green Tea packs

- My blue glitter eye liner

- The show Community

- Checkered Polo button ups

- Leechblock for Mozilla - blocks you from getting onto sites that tend to distract you

- The gym again

- My Starbucks un-"paper" cup.

- Home remedies.

CONFESSIONS
- I FUCKED UP some girls ear piercing the other day.

- I dl'ed Leechblock but then I unblocked all of the sites I set up because I have the attention span of a goldfish and the discipline of Lindsay Lohan.

AND Whoa-Ho-Ho, whaddaya know! A bitch got 100 Followers! (Even though some of you are hidden *side-eye*) Thank you to everyone who follows, comments, reads, even stops by! It really makes me happy.

20 pet peeves:

2009-12-05T19:40:00.008-05:00

A list of 20 things that I cannot fucking stand and will not put up with:

(Feel free to make your own list and comment if you do cuz I wanna read 'em)

1. Fake Uggs. "It's not you, it's your shoes."

2. Slow drivers in the fast lane.

3. When people drop earrings and shit at my job, look at it, then look at me, then try to sneak away. BITCH?!

4. How the TV Guide channel goes through ALLL of the channels. Even the ones we don't have.

5. When my dutch has a crack in it.

6. When my roommate walks hard as hell. Idk if she has flat ass feet or what but her heels sound like they're made of bricks.

7. When people don't wipe their machines off at the gym.

8. When niggas you see everyday come out the woodworks at the end of the semester on facebook, talking about "I been seeing you around." No shit, Sherlock!

9. When my nail polish chips.

10. When my edges get poofy after I exercise. FUUUUUU!!!!!!

11. My mom calling me to say things that she can text me. ex. Liy, the Chinese food place in the shopping center next to me is gooood!
....umm, ok.

12. When I butt dial people on my Bb. It's always the most random people too or a random number like 3. I was on the phone with "3" for about 2 minutes the other day.

13. 30 Facebook notifications for a picture I commented on 2 years ago that two dickwads decide to have a conversation about now.

14. When I try to do something by a certain time and I finish like 6 minutes later.

15. When people idolize simple rappers *cough* Gucci *cough* but will say some underground shit is wack. Why, because you don't hear it 20x a day? Lyricism is an art and I scoff at people who "love hip-hop" but their favorite rappers are Drake and Max B. -_-

16. When my nipples get hard in public. It's just downright offensive.

17. How my roommates always make PLAIN, BOILED vegetables. Them shit's look like mushy and flavorless. At least add some Mrs. Dash!

18. When people yawn or cough in a confined space but don't cover their mouth. Yawning is like a long period of delivering your hot ass breath into the atmosphere, and coughing is germy - COVER YOUR FUCKING MOUTH!

19. When people try to use SAT words but they fuck up the context. ie. patronize, tenacious, ironic, exemplary, parsimonious, thespian etc.

20. When people feel like they have to make hand to hand contact with me in order to give me something at work. Money is already dirty enough I do not need your booger fingers and pretzel crumbs to go with it.

'Tis all.

you have been warned:

2009-12-04T01:54:00.003-05:00

Shit is about to get REALLL different around here.

(I'll expand on this topic later.)

....now it's to the VIP. I got new moves to make.

insomnia 08 - '09 wrap up.

2009-12-03T03:14:00.004-05:00

This year has been a crazy year of ups and downs. There were alot of changes for me this year and although they weren't all good, I think experience is the best teacher so there are some things that I know now that I would not have realized if it weren't for the circumstances.

This year I got my first car and apartment. Two things that signify adulthood and independence. However, I've always been told that with freedom comes responsibility. I believe it. Rent is no joke. Actually, rent is fucking ugly and I hate it. The car shit is all gravy but once a month my mom lectures me about how fast I drive and how she'll kill me if her insurance goes up. *Talk to the hand*

I moved. I hated it. I still hate it. I don't fucking like where I live and I would've never envisioned myself living outside of New Jersey, let alone in North Carolina. But I have to. My roommates, although they bug me to pieces, they are actually great people as a whole. We have alot of good times together and I've learned things from living with them.

My uncle died. The epitome of the great father that I never had. He and my aunt were going through a kinda ugly divorce but he was always a good father and my cousins loved him. He was the type of father that a single-mother raised girl would love to have and he was just a great guy overall. He died 3 days before my birthday and I was devastated. He's unforgettable.

One thing that resulted from my uncle passing was my re-acquaintance with my fathers side of my family and my father. I hadn't seen my nanna in a long time, and some of my cousins had grown to be so big. My father attempted to make nice with me, and out of respect I was receptive to him but all the years lost can't be made up for. I think he knows when my birthday is but who knows? He has never done much and I don't expect much. But dealing with the death of my uncle helped me to understand not to take my family for grated.

My grades still aren't good. I do just enough to get by but I'm bad with class attendance. I hate going to class sometimes. I want to be a GREAT student. I want to make my family proud but at the same time I have no discipline and I don't know how to make myself show up to class everyday. I'm working on that. I really want to change.

I don't talk to my "bestfriend," Brielle, anymore. When I moved, she was apathetic. And blew off the plans we made for the week before I was supposed to leave. (This isn't the first time she's done something like this) Then after that, she still didn't hit me up until 3 wks later. That's not a bestfriend, that's barely even a friend. And from someone I've known for so long, I would expect her to be better than that. So I cut her off. Another experience that teaches me not to expect much from people.

My mom and her boyfriend, who she moved down here for, broke up. She moved out of his house 3 wks after I got here and she just took everything she wanted and left one day. I think it was best for her, they weren't compatible and he was borderline verbally abusive, but it breaks my heart that the reason I'm down here is essentially because my mom came down for him and then she leaves.... WHAT THE FUCK?! That shit really blew mines!

I got a decent job at Claire's. I like my coworkers, they're cool. But I cried because I couldn't go home for Thanksgiving because I had to work Black Friday. I don't care too much about Christmas. I'm not a kid anymore and I really stopped expecting to get gifts (especially in times like this) but I wanted to eat good food, get drunk, and spend hours laughing with my family. :(

A few days before Thanksgiving my great grandpa was diagnosed with colon cancer and because he's so old he won't last long. Need I stress that my family is MY WORLD; the only constant, unchanging thing in my life. Then today my mom tells me he found out he has liver cancer as well which just adds insult to injury. It has been stressful and hard to focus on positivity when so many emotionally draining things have happened thus far between my move and everything, and my family. The doctors told us that my bed-ridden great grandma was supposed to die years ago and my main fear is that I lose both of them within a short span of time. I feel like when my great grandpa passes my great grandma will throw in the towel as well. I'm scared of everything.

So this has been my year. A quarter tank of good and the rest filled with bad. I got to take one step forward, but with all of the tragedy and my move, I had to take two steps back. I smoke alot and sleep alot because during those times my mind isn't there. I can take my head away from whatever is burdening me and not give a fuck for some time. I just want everything bad to just stop being bad. Hopefully next year will be just a great, positive year! I hope.

here we go again.

2009-12-01T17:13:00.001-05:00

I need to edit my life. The end.

top drawer. ;]

2009-11-28T22:58:00.005-05:00

We all know what goes into the top drawer of our nightstand. When I was younger I never understood why my mom told me not to go into her nightstand drawer. And actually used to get pissed the fuck off when she told me not to go over there. That is until my little snoopy ass decided I wanted to be in the mix. Smh. What I saw disgusted me and it wasn't until I was about 14 or 15 that I understood what all that was about.

Here's some things that every female should have in their top drawer:

Magnums

Trojan Her Pleasure Condoms

Women should always have their own condoms so there is never an excuse for raw meat. It's hard to get caught up when it all gets hot and heavy and then he doesn't have a condom and neither do you. Invest $12 in your personal health and your future ladies.

A Bullet

A Regular Vibrator

Astroglide

No contest.

Toy Cleaner

If you have sex toys they should be clean. It's not hygienic to not use a toy cleaner and/or clean it regularly.

Or do this:

What do you have in your top drawer?

re-tail.

2009-11-28T20:42:00.008-05:00

My ass SWORE I was not going back into retail but unfortunately, with the minimal jobs available now, all the office assistant jobs are full-time or don't work with my hours and the childcare jobs require certification.

UGH! OKKKKKKKKK.

Black Friday was fucking hell. I worked 8 hours and the soles of my feet hurt. I am realizing again how much I hate people and the stupid questions they ask, their carelessness about dropping shit that they REALLY JUST saw me pick up, unruly, undisciplined kids. On top of that I work in a little girls store that some men apparently think is "gay" to walk into so only girls and women walk in leaving me without eye-candy to gawk at.

I drank someone's redbull out of the fridge yesterday after I woke up @ 9:12am because my fucked up blackberry's alarm didn't ring. I don't know if it was my redbull or not (and yall know I do not give one fuck if it wasn't) but I needed it. I flew in and out of the shower, and was swerving in and out of lanes trying to get to work on time @10 because the last thing I need is for "the man" to take me down and leave my ass employed a month before xmas.

Some dude from Haagen Dazs asked for my number. Normally I don't give my number, I'll take the guy's, but I wanted to see if he would be bold enough to take his phone out with his manager right there. Then nigga told me not to make fun of his phone...*rolls eyes*. I just laughed. He pulled out this shit (or something like it):

..which just pissed me off for the remainder of our conversation. I like to think I'm not THATTT superficial but Cricket (the MetroPCS of NC) is not going to cut it. Not now, not never!

Today our DM came in and I just hate having to look fake busy at all times.

I pierced my managers ear today because some little girl was crying about getting her ear pierced and my manager asked her if I pierced her ear would she get her ears pierced and she said yes. (Mind you, I have never pierced an ear in my life.) It was cute and all but my manager was clearly doing the most for that earring sale.

Then I left an hour early because my back hurt. I felt kinda bad though because the lady who has the same position as me got me by like 10-20 years and she walks with a limp, she was there before me and was supposed to leave the same time as me but when my manager asked me if I wanted to go I was fucking GHOST! Sry, Lori. *shrug*

I don't hate Christmas music but if I hear that Ashanti - Hey Santa song one more time I'm going to fucking off myself.

I came to work high one morning this week too and I don't think I'll be doing that again. Aside from the obvious reasons why I shouldn't, I was just dazed and confused for a good hour.

Anyways, I really shouldn't be complaining because some people don't have a job. But I bet if they did they'd be complaining about it too.

In conclusion, the first oz of weed I buy with my paycheck will be rewarding! :) YIPPEE!!!

my well thought out xmas list:

2009-11-25T01:08:00.004-05:00

Email me and I will forward you my shipping information. Thank you in advance! :]

1. Nike Terminator - "Day and Night" - I don't get around the way I used to in sneakers. Nor do I typically deal with anything that's not an air max. But these shits with the straps + studs is doing something to me.

2. Palladio Lip Stain in Orchid - Best lip stain ever.

3. The rent and gas paid for a month. That'd be bananas.

4.Mimoco - Hello Kitty Balloon USB - So cutee!

5. Sally Hansen - Ionic-Ceramic Tourmaline Dryer -

6. A puppy from the shelter!

7. Sprint - HTC Hero - (I think)

8. A new weed grinder - Someone stole my old one, shitty potheads.

9. The Andy Warhol Diaries - After watching I Shot Andy Warhol and Factory Girl they just made him seem so strange and misunderstood and I love strange people.

10. 2010 Honda Accord Crosstour - This shit is fucking dope. The Infiniti G35 is my favorite car but if we are talking about new-new shit, this is my babyy!

dark-skinned white girl.

2009-11-23T22:38:00.008-05:00

If you don't know about Murs lemme put you on. (Fans probably already know this.) Murs is an underground rapper from LA who is amazing in every sense of the word. If you like shit that resembles Immortal Technique but is a little less political you'll probably like him, so just listen:

If you can't tell what the song is about it's about being the "Wigger" or the "Oreo". I think it's crazy how, although he is a dude, Murs sees what it's like growing up to be a female outcast.

This song really hits home for me because I used to get called an Oreo when I was younger. Because I "talked white" (I could not will myself to say words like "like-did") and had white friends, I lived "across the tracks" on the better side of town, I didn't dick ride Lil Bow Wow when he came out and I didn't wear weave and flat twists.

Today I realize that that type of shit could've broken me, but it didn't. I fought bitches back in the day to teach them to stay in their place. And no, I didn't win every fight but I held my own even when I didn't win because fighting my boy cousins taught me how to rock. It's sad because I know alot of young girls go through an identity crisis and it's most prevalent during the middle school years. What's even worse is that the girls who do all of the running off at the mouth are just as insecure as the girl who gets made fun of; maybe even more.

The "weak" ones always prevail though. I saw one of the chicks who used to call me an oreo at a club last year with dingy braids, a sloppy ass shape, and her shoes had dust bunnies on them. Two other girls had kids. I just looked at them and had that secret moment of singing the "I'm Better Than You" song. And yeah, you can say every life who comes into this world is a beautiful soul and no one regrets having their kids because they can't see themselves without them blahh blahh blahhh but I am grateful to not have a little doodoo butt to clean up after, a "babbyzaddy" and another mouth to feed at 19 years old.

So to all you bussit-babies out there who felt like my vocabulary and enunciation made me too "white," eat my dick after I dip it into these Oreo cookie crumbles. :] (Yummy!)

this is stupid.

2009-11-22T19:34:00.004-05:00

Don't read this. I was just bored and using the internet to occupy my time. Whatup though?

1. What time did you get up this morning? 12:30pm
2. How do you like your steak? Medium well
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? I do not pay for movies! I watch everything online. :)
4. What is your favorite TV show? Gossip girl! No contest.
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Palisades.
6. What did you have for breakfast? I don't eat breakfast.
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Mexican.
8. What foods do you dislike? Most breakfast foods, ham, syrup, peanut butter...etc.
9. Favorite place to eat? Thai House Rock<3
10. Favorite dressing? Ranch, all day every day!
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? A 96 Civic.
12. What are your favorite clothes? Naked.
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Haiti, DR, Amsterdam.
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Depends on what's inside.
15. Where would you want to retire? Where ever my kids are.
16. Favorite time of day? 10pm.
17. Where were you born? Rahway, NJ.
18. What is your favorite sport to watch? College football.
19. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? Jesus'.
20. Bird watcher? I FUCKING HATE BIRDS!
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night. Morning is just always too damn early for me to think.
22. Do you have any pets? I had my shi tzu, Frisco, since I was 7 and he died last yr. So, no.
23. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? Fuck no.
24. What did you want to be when you were little? I wanted to be a lawyer so I could wear cute pencil skirt sets. No lie.
25. What is your best childhood memory? I have alot, but the best would be when me and my white friend Ali used to carry my container of Barbies a mile and a half to her house so we could play there. Damn, that seems so long ago.
26. Are you a cat or dog person? Dogs.
27. Are you married? NO!
28. Always wear your seat belt? I keep it off until I get on the highway.
29. Been in a car accident? No.
30. Any pet peeves? Alot of pet peeves.
31. Favorite Pizza Toppings? Spinach.
32. Favorite Flower? Hibiscus.
33. Favorite ice cream? I can't choose just one.
34. Favorite fast food restaurant? Wendy's probs.
35. How many times did you fail your driver's test? Once. I ran 3 stop signs. Went through a red light and made a wide left turn.
36. From whom did you get your last email? Bank of America.
37. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Fortunoff.
38. Do anything spontaneous lately? Mhm, whatever.
39. Like your job? Love it!
40. Broccoli? Mmm!
41. What was your favorite vacation? Cruise with my ex.
42. Last person you went out to dinner with? Mexican with mommy.
43. What are you listening to right now? My ace yapping in my ear.
44. What is your favorite color? hot pank.
46. How many are you tagging for this quiz? Anybody who wants to do it.
47. What time did you finish this quiz? Shit, idk.
48. Coffee drinker? Yes. Holler!

shit's real.

2009-11-22T15:34:00.010-05:00

What's POPPINGton, Gawd? Here's a "New Yawk minnit":

Let it rain-clear it out. *Harlem shakes out of the room*
Sidebar: a. The girl in the stripes is a cosigner/wingman. b. The last minute of this video is fucking hilarious.

AND, If you're not familiar with "Lethal Lipps," you must not have seen THIS!:
*EXPLICIT SHIT* NSFW!!!

She is a nasty ~~but for some odd, incomprehensible reason I find this shit entertaining~~!

What's chompin'?

OH YEAHHH! Shoutout to all my new followers. I luhhh dat.

greetings from lalaland.

2009-11-18T21:21:00.002-05:00

hi, i do gay things. bye.

want.

2009-11-18T21:10:00.005-05:00

i live, die, and resurrect for these:

thanks, unfunded for putting a bitch on.
get them here.

And yeah, I am building the all points bulletin that is my Christmas list soon. BBM me for my shipping address so you can send me my gifts and they can arrive by the 24th so I can open them on Christmas morning. :)